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βJudith McNaught comes close to an Edith Wharton edgeβ (The Chicago Tribune) in this stylish and fast-paced classic. Ruthless corporate raider Matthew Farrell is poised to move in on the legendary department store empire owned by Chicagoβs renowned Bancroft family. In the glare of the media spotlight, itβs a stunning takeover that overshadows the electric chemistry between Matt, once a scruffy kid from steel town Indiana, and cool, sophisticated Meredith Bancroft. Their brief, ill-fated marriage sparked with thrilling sensuality but ended with a bitter betrayal. Now, locked in a battle that should be all business, dangerous temptations, and bittersweet memories are stirring their hearts. Will they risk everything for a passion too bold to be denied?
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Excerpt:
…CHAPTER 8
βThe crowd in the lounge at Glenmoor Country Club was thinning out when a woman near Meredith burst out, βMy God!Β Who is that?Β Heβs absolutely gorgeous!β
That remark, made in a louder tone than sheβd intended, caused a ripple of interest, not only among the entire group Meredith was with, but with several other people whoβd overheard her exclamation and were turning around.
βWho are you talking about?β Leigh Ackerman asked, peering about the room. Meredith, who was facing the entrance, glanced up and knew instantly exactly who had caused that awed, avaricious expression on Shellyβs face! Standing in the doorway, with his right hand thrust into his pants pocket, was a man who was at least six feet two, with hair almost as dark as the tuxedo that clung to his wide shoulders and long legs. His face was sun-bronzed, his eyes light, and as he stood there, idly studying the elegantly dressed members of Glenmoor, Meredith wondered how Shelly could ever have described him as βgorgeous.β His features looked as if they had been chiseled out of granite by some sculptor who had been intent on portraying brute strength and raw virilityβnot male beauty. His chin was square, his nose straight, his jaw hard with iron determination. All in all, Meredith thought he looked arrogant, proud, and tough. But then, sheβd never been very attracted to dark, overly macho men.
βLook at those shoulders,β Shelly rhapsodized, βlook at that face. Now, that, Douglas,β she teased, turning to Doug Chalfont, βis pure, undiluted sex appeal!β
Doug considered the man and shrugged, grinning. βHe doesnβt do a thing for me.β Turning to one of the other men in their party whom Meredith had met for the first time tonight, he asked, βHow about you, Rick? Does he turn you on?β
βI wonβt know until I see his legs,β Rick joked. βIβm a leg man, which is why Meredith turns me on.β
At that moment, Jonathan appeared in the doorway, looking a little unsteady on his feet, and looped his arm around the newcomerβs shoulders while glancing about the room. Meredith saw the triumphant little smile he fired at his friends when he spotted all of them at the end of the bar, and she realized instantly that he appeared to be semi-drunk, but she was completely baffled by the groaning laugh that issued from both Leigh and Shelly. βOh, no!β Leigh said, looking from Shelly to Meredith with comic dismay. βPlease donβt tell me that magnificent male specimen is the laborer who Jonathan hired to work on one of their oil rigs!β
Doug Chalfontβs burst of laughter had drowned out most of Leighβs words, and Meredith leaned closer to Leigh. βIβm sorryβwhat did you say?β
Speaking quickly so that she could finish before the two men reached them, Leigh explained, βThe man with Jonathan is actually a steelworker from Indiana! Jonβs father made him hire the guy to work on their oil rig in Venezuela.β
Puzzled not only by the laughing looks being exchanged among Jonathanβs other friends, but Leighβs explanation as well, Meredith said, βWhy is he bringing him here?β
βItβs a joke, Meredith! Jonβs angry with his father for forcing him to hire the guy, and then holding him up to Jon as the latest example of what he ought to be. Jon brought the guy here to spite his fatherβyou know, to force his father to meet him socially. And you know whatβs really funny about all this,β she whispered just as the two men arrived. βJonβs aunt just told us that his father and mother decided at the last minute to spend the weekend at their summer place instead of coming hereββ
Jonathanβs overloud, slurred greeting made everyone within hearing turn and stare, including his aunt and uncle and Meredithβs father. βHi, everyone,β he boomed, waving an expansive arm to include all of them. βHi, Aunt Harriet and Uncle Russell!β He waited until he had everyoneβs attention. βIβd like all of you to meet my buddy, Matt Terrellβno, F-Farrell,β he hiccuped. βAunt Harriet, Uncle Russell,β he continued, grinning widely, βsay hello to Matt, here. Heβs my fatherβs latest example of what I ought to be when I grow up!β
βHow do you do?β Jonathanβs aunt said civilly. Tearing her icy glance from her drunken nephew, she made a halfhearted effort to be courteous to the man heβd brought with him. βWhere are you from, Mr. Farrell?β
βIndiana,β he replied in a calm matter-of-fact voice.
βIndianapolis?β Jonathanβs aunt said, frowning. βI donβt believe we know any Farrells from Indianapolis.β
βIβm not from Indianapolis. And Iβm certain you donβt know my family.β
βExactly where are you from?β Meredithβs father snapped, ready to interrogate and intimidate any male who went near Meredith.
Matt Farrell turned and Meredith watched in secret admiration as he met her fatherβs withering glance unflinchingly. βEdmuntonβsouth of Gary.β
βWhat do you do?β he demanded rudely.
βI work in a steel mill,β he retorted, managing to look and sound just as hard and cold as her father had.
Stunned silence followed his revelation. Several middle-aged couples whoβd been hanging back, waiting for Jonathanβs aunt and uncle, looked uneasily at each other and moved away. Mrs. Sommers obviously decided to make an equally hasty exit. βHave a pleasant evening, Mr. Farrell,β she said stiffly, and headed off to the dining rooms beside her husband.
Suddenly everyone was in motion. βWell!β Leigh Ackerman said brightly, looking around at all the people in their group except Matt Farrell, who was standing back and slightly to the side. βLetβs go eat!β She tucked her hand in Jonβs arm and turned him toward the door as she pointedly added, βI reserved a table for nine people.β
Meredith did a fast count; there were nine people in their groupβexcluding Matt Farrell. Paralyzed with disgust for Jonathan and all his friends, she remained where she was for the moment. Her father saw her standing in the general proximity of Farrell and stopped on his way to the dining room with his own friends, his hand clamping her elbow. βGet rid of him!β he spat out loudly enough for Farrell to hear, and then he stalked off. In a state of angry, defiant rebellion, Meredith watched him leave, then she glanced at Matt Farrell, not certain what to do next. Heβd turned toward the French doors and was gazing out at the people on the terrace with the aloof indifference of someone who knows he is an unwanted outsider, and who therefore intends to look as if he prefers it that way.
Even if he hadnβt said he was a steelworker from Indiana, Meredith would have known within moments of meeting him that he didnβt belong. For one thing, his tuxedo didnβt fit his broad shoulders as if it had been custom made for him, which meant it was probably rented, nor did he speak with the ingrained assurance of a socialite who fully expects to be welcomed and liked wherever he is. Moreover, there was an indefinable lack of polish to his mannerismsβa subtle harshness and roughness that intrigued and repelled her at one and the same time.
Given all of that, it was astonishing that he should suddenly remind Meredith of herself. But he did. She looked at him standing completely alone, as if he didnβt care about being ostracizedβand she saw herself when she was at St. Stephenβs school, spending every recess with a book in her lap trying to pretend she didnβt care either. βMr. Farrell,β she asked as casually as she could, βwould you like something to drink?β
He turned in surprise, hesitated a moment, and then nodded. βScotch and water.β
Meredith signaled a waiter who hurried to her side. βJimmy, Mr. Farrell would like a Scotch and water.β
When she turned back, she found Matt Farrell studying her with a slight frown, his gaze drifting over her face, her breasts and waist, then lifting again to her eyes, as if he were suspicious of her overture and trying to figure out why sheβd bothered making it. βWho was the man who told you to get rid of me?β he asked abruptly.
She hated to alarm him with the truth. βMy father.β
βYou have my deepest and most sincere sympathy,β he mocked gravely, and Meredith burst out laughing because no one had ever dared criticize her father, even indirectly, and because she suddenly sensed that Matt Farrell was a βrebel,β just as sheβd decided to be. That made him a kindred spirit, and instead of pitying him or being repelled by him, she suddenly thought of him as a brave mongrel whoβd been unfairly thrust into a group of haughty pedigrees. She decided to rescue him. βWould you like to dance?β she asked, smiling at him as if he were an old friend.
He gave her an amused look. βWhat makes you think a steelworker from Edmunton, Indiana, knows how to dance, princess?β
βDo you?β
βI think I can manage.β
That was a rather unfair assessment of his ability, Meredith decided a few minutes later as they danced outside on the terrace to the slow tune the little band was playing. He was actually quite competent, but he wasnβt very relaxed and his style was conservative.
βHow am I doing?β
Blissfully unaware of the double meaning htat could be read into her lighthearted evaluation, she said, βSo far, all Iβve been able to tell is that you have good rhythm and you move well. Thatβs all that really matters anyway.β Smiling into his eyes to take away any taint of criticism he might mistakenly read into her next words, she confided, βAll you actually need is some practice.β
βHow much practice do you recommend?β
βNot much. One night would be enough to learn some new moves.β
βI didnβt know there are any βnewβ moves.β
βThere are,β Meredith said, βbut you have to learn to relax first.β
βFirst?β he repeated. βAll this time, Iβve been under the impression that you were supposed to relax afterward.β
It hit her suddenly, what he was thinking and saying. Giving him a level look, she said, βAre we talking about dancing, Mr. Farrell?β
There was an unmistakable reprimand in her voice, and it registered on him. For a moment he studied her with heightened interest, reassessing, reevaluating. His eyes werenβt light blue as sheβd originally thought, but a striking metallic gray, and his hair was dark brown, not black. When he spoke, his quiet voice had an apology in it. βWe are now.β Belatedly explaining the reason for the constraint sheβd sensed in his movements, he said, βI tore a ligament in my right leg a few weeks ago.β
βIβm sorry,β Meredith said, apologizing for asking him to come out here. βDoes it hurt?β
A startling white smile swept across his tanned face. βOnly when I dance.β
Meredith laughed at the joke and felt her own worries begin to fade into the background. They stayed outside for another dance, talking about nothing more meaningful than the bad music and the good weather. When they returned to the lounge, Jimmy brought their drinks. Goaded by mischief and resentment for Jonathan, Meredith said, βPlease charge these drinks to Jonathan Sommers, Jimmy.β She glanced at Matt and saw the surprise on his face.
βArenβt you a member here?β
βYes,β Meredith said with a rueful smile. βThat was petty revenge on my part.β
βFor what?β
βForββ Belatedly realizing that anything she said now would sound like pity or embarrass him, she shrugged. βI donβt like Jonathan Sommers very much.β
He looked at her oddly, picked up his drink, and tossed down part of it. βYou must be hungry. Iβll let you go and join your friends.β
It was a polite gesture intended to excuse her, but Meredith had no desire to join Jonβs group now, and as she looked around the room, it was obvious that if she did leave Matt Farrell there, no one else was going to make the slightest effort to befriend him. In fact, every one in the lounge was giving both of them a wide berth. βActually,β she said, βthe food here isnβt all that wonderful.β
He glanced at the occupants of the lounge and put his glass down with a finality that told her he intended to leave. βNeither are the people.β
βThey arenβt staying away out of meanness or arrogance,β she assured him. βNot really.β
Slanting her a dubious, disinterested look, he said, βWhy do you think theyβre doing it?β
Meredith saw several middle-aged couples who were friends of her fatherβsβnice people, all of them. βWell, for one thing, theyβre embarrassed about the way Jonathan acted. And because of what they know about youβwhere you live and what you do for a living, I meanβmost of them simply concluded that they donβt have anything in common with you.β
He obviously thought she was patronizing him because he smiled politely and said, βItβs time for me to go.β
Suddenly the idea of having him leave with nothing but humiliation to remember the evening didnβt seem fair at all. In fact, it seemed unnecessary and . . . and unthinkable! βYou canβt leave yet,β she announced with a determined smile. βCome with me, and bring your drink.β
His eyes narrowed. βWhy?β
βBecause,β Meredith declared with stubborn mischief, βit helps to have a drink in your hand to do this.β
βDo what?β he persisted.
βMingle,β she declared. βWe are going to mingle!β
βAbsolutely not!β Matt caught her wrist to draw her back, but it was too late. Meredith was suddenly bent on ramming him down everyoneβs throat and making them like it.
βPlease humor me,β she said softly, her gaze beseeching.
A reluctant grin tugged at his lips. βYou have the most amazing eyesββ
βActually, Iβm terribly nearsighted,β she teased with her most melting smile. βIβve been known to walk into walls. Itβs a pitiful thing to watch. Why donβt you give me your arm and guide me out into the hall so I donβt stumble?β
He wasnβt proof against her humor or that smile. βYou are also very single-minded,β he replied, but he chuckled and reluctantly offered her his arm, prepared to humor her.
A few steps down the hall Meredith saw an elderly couple she knew. βHello, Mr. and Mrs. Foster.β She greeted them cheerfully as they started to stroll past without seeing her.
They stopped at once. βWhy, hello, Meredith,β Mrs. Foster said, then she and her husband smiled at Matt with polite inquiry.
βIβd like you to meet a friend of my fatherβs,β Meredith announced, swallowing her laughter at Mattβs incredulous glance. βThis is Matt Farrell. Matt is from Indiana, and heβs in the steel business.β
βA pleasure,β Mr. Foster said genially, shaking Mattβs hand. βI know Meredith and her father donβt play golf, but I hope they told you we have two championship courses here at Glenmoor. Are you going to be here long enough to play a few rounds?β
βIβm not certain Iβm going to be here long enough to finish this drink,β Matt said, obviously expecting to be forcibly evicted when Meredithβs father discovered she was introducing Matt as his friend.
Mr. Foster nodded in complete misunderstanding. βBusiness always seems to get in the way of pleasure. But at least youβll see the fireworks tonightβwe have the best show in town.β
βYouβre going to tonight,β Matt predicted, his narrowed gaze focused warningly on Meredithβs guileless expression.
Mr. Foster returned to his favorite subject of golf, while Meredith struggled unsuccessfully to keep her face straight. βWhatβs your handicap?β he inquired of Matt.
βI think Iβm Mattβs handicap tonight,β Meredith interceded, slanting Matt a provocative, laughing look.
βWhat?β Mr. Foster blinked.
But Matt didnβt answer and Meredith couldnβt, because his gaze had fixed on her smiling lips, and when his gray eyes lifted to hers, there was something different in their depths.
βCome along, dear,β Mrs. Foster said, observing the distracted expressions on Matt and Meredithβs faces. βThese young people donβt want to spend their evening discussing golf.β Belatedly recovering her composure, Meredith told herself sternly sheβd had too much champagne, then she tucked her hand through the crook of Mattβs arm. βCome with me,β she said, already walking down the staircase to the banquet room where the orchestra was playing.
For nearly an hour she guided him from one group to another, her eyes twinkling at Matt with shared laughter while she smoothly told outrageous half-truths about who he was and what he did for a living. And Matt stood beside her, not actively helping her, but observing her ingenuity with frank amusement.
βThere, you see,β she announced gaily as they finally left the noise and music behind and walked out the front doors, strolling across the lawn. βIt isnβt what you say that counts, itβs what you donβt say.β
βThatβs an interesting theory,β he teased. βDo you have any more of them?β
Meredith shook her head, distracted by something sheβd subconsciously noted all evening. βYou donβt talk at all like a man who works in a steel mill.β
βHow many of them do you know?β
βJust one,β she admitted.
His tone abruptly shifted to a serious one. βDo you come here often?β
Theyβd spent the first part of the evening playing a kind of silly game, but she sensed that he didnβt want any more games. Neither did she, and that moment marked a distinct change in the atmosphere between them. As they wandered past rose beds and flower gardens, he started asking her about herself. Meredith told him sheβd been away at school and that sheβd just graduated. When his next question was about her career plans, she realized that heβd erroneously assumed she meant sheβd graduated from college. Rather than correcting him and risking some sort of appalled reaction when he discovered she was eighteen, not twenty-two, she sidestepped the problem by quickly asking him about himself.
He told her he was leaving in six weeks for Venezuela and what he was going to be doing while he was gone. From there, their conversation shifted with astonishing ease from one subject to another, until they finally stopped walking so that they could concentrate better on whatever was being said. Standing beneath an ancient elm on the lawn, oblivious to the rough bark against her bare back, Meredith listened to him, completely entranced. Matt was twenty-six, sheβd discovered, and besides being witty and extremely well-spoken, he had a way of listening intently to what she said as if nothing else in the world mattered. It was disconcerting, and it was very flattering. It also created a false mood of complete intimacy and solitude. Sheβd just finished laughing at a joke heβd told her, when a fat bug dived past her face and buzzed around her ear. She jumped, grimacing and trying to see where it had gone. βIs it in my hair?β she asked uneasily, tipping her head down.
He put his hands on her shoulders and inspected her hair. βNo,β he promised. βIt was just a little June bug.β
βJune bugs are disgusting, and that one was the size of a large hummingbird!β When he chuckled, she gave him a deliberately smug smile. βYou wonβt be laughing six weeks from now, when you canβt walk outside without tripping over snakes.β
βIs that right?β he murmured, but his attention had shifted to her mouth, and his hands were sliding up the sides of her neck to tenderly cradle her face.
βWhat are you doing?β Meredith whispered inanely as he began slowly rubbing his thumb over her lower lip.
βIβm trying to decide if I should let myself enjoy the fireworks.β
βThe fireworks wonβt start for another half hour,β she said shakily, knowing perfectly well she was going to be kissed.
βI have a feeling,β he whispered, slowly lowering his head, βtheyβre going to start right now.β
And they did. His mouth covered hers in an electrifyingly seductive kiss that sent sparks exploding through Meredithβs entire body. At first the kiss was light, coaxing; his mouth shaped itself to hers, delicately exploring the contours of her lips. Meredith had been kissed before, but always by relatively inexperienced, overeager boys; no one had ever kissed her with Matthew Farrellβs unhurried thoroughness. His hands shifted, one of them drifting down her spine to draw her closer, while the other slid behind her nape, and his mouth slowly opened on hers. Lost in the kiss, she moved her hands inside his tuxedo jacket, up his chest, over his broad shoulders, and then she wrapped her arms around his neck.
The minute she molded herself against him, his mouth opened farther, his tongue tracing hotly across her lips, urging them to part, and then demanding it. The moment that they did, his tongue plunged into her mouth, and the kiss exploded. His hand covered her breast, caressing it through her bodice, then restlessly swept behind her, cupping her bottom and pulling her tightly against him, making her vibrantly aware of his aroused body. Meredith stiffened slightly at the forced intimacy, and then for no explainable reason on earth, she laced her fingers through his hair and crushed her parted lips to his.
It seemed like hours later when he finally dragged his mouth from hers. Her heart racing like a trip-hammer, she stood in the circle of his arms, her forehead resting on his chest, while she tried to cope with the turbulent sensations sheβd felt. Somewhere in her drugged mind it began to occur to her that he was going to think she was behaving very oddly about what had, in reality, been only a simple kiss. That embarrassing possibility finally made her force her head up. Fully expecting to see him watching her with puzzled amusement, she raised her gaze to his chiseled features, but what she saw there wasnβt derision. His gray eyes were smoldering, his face was harsh and dark with passion, and his arms tightened automatically, as if unwilling to let her go. Belatedly, she realized his body was still rigidly aroused, and she felt a peculiar sense of pleasure and pride that he had been, and was still, as affected by the kiss as she was. Without thinking what she was doing, her gaze dropped to his mouth. There was bold sensuality in the mold of those firm lips, and yet some of his kisses had been so exquisitely gentle. Tormentingly gentle . . . Longing to feel that mouth on hers again, Meredith lifted her gaze to his, an unconscious request in her eyes.
Matt understood the request, and a sound that was half groan, half laugh tore from his chest, his arms already tightening. βYes,β he answered hoarsely, and seized her lips in a ravenous, devouring kiss that stole her breath, and drove her mad with pleasure.
Some time later, laughter rang out, and Meredith jerked awkwardly out of his arms, whirling around in alarm. Dozens of couples were strolling out of the club to watch the fireworksβand well ahead of them was her father who was stalking toward her with rage in every long, ground-covering stride. βOh, my God,β she whispered. βMatt, you have to leave. Turn around and walk away! Now.β
βNo.β
βPlease!β she almost cried. βIβll be fine, he wonβt say anything to me here, heβll wait until weβre alone, but I donβt know what heβll do to you.β A moment later Meredith knew the answer to that.
βThere are two men on their way out here to escort you off the grounds, Farrell,β her father hissed, his face contorted with fury. He turned on Meredith and caught her arm in a viselike grip. βYouβre coming with me.β Two of the clubβs waiters were already walking across the driveway. As her father gave her arm a jerk, Meredith appealed once more to Matt over her shoulder. βPlease, please goβdonβt make a scene.β
Her father pulled her two steps forward, and Meredith, who had no choice but to walk or be dragged, was relieved almost to tears when both waiters who had been coming toward Matt slowed and then stopped. Matt had apparently started walking toward the road, Meredith realized with relief. Her father evidently reached the same conclusion, for when the waiters looked uncertainly to him for further instructions, he said, βLet the bastard go, but call the gate and make sure he doesnβt come back.β
As they approached the front doors, he turned to Meredith, his expression livid. βYour mother made herself the talk of this club, and Iβll be damned if youβre going to do it too. Do you hear me!β He flung her arm down as if her skin were contaminated by Mattβs touch, but he kept his voice low. Because a Bancroft, no matter how great the provocation, never aired family grievances in public. βGo home and stay there. It will take you twenty minutes to get to the house; in twenty-five minutes Iβm going to call you, and God help you if you arenβt there!β
With that he turned on his heel and stalked into the clubhouse. In a state of sick humiliation, Meredith watched him go, then she went inside and got her purse. On the way to the parking lot, she saw three couples standing out in the shadows of the trees, all of them kissing.
Her vision blurred by tears of futile rage, Meredith had already driven past the solitary figure who was walking with a tuxedo jacket hooked over his right shoulder before she realized it was Matt. She braked to a stop, so consumed with guilt for the humiliation sheβd caused him that she couldnβt immediately look at him.
He walked up to her side of the car and bent slightly, looking at her through the open window. βAre you all right?β
βIβm fine.β With a halfhearted attempt at flippancy, she glanced at him. βMy father is a Bancroft, and the Bancrofts never quarrel in public.β
He saw the unshed tears shimmering in her eyes. Reaching through the open window, he laid his callused fingertips against her smooth cheek. βAnd they donβt cry in front of other people either, do they?β
βNope,β Meredith admitted, trying to absorb some of his wonderful indifference to her father. βIβIβm going home now. Can I drop you somewhere on the way?β
His gaze shifted from her face to the death grip she had on the steering wheel. βYes, but only if youβll let me drive this thing.β He spoke as if he merely wanted a chance to drive her car, but his next words made it obvious he was concerned about her ability to drive in her state of mind. βWhy donβt I drive you home, and Iβll call a cab from there.β
βBe my guest,β Meredith said brightly, determined to salvage what little pride she had left. She got out and walked around to the passenger side.
Matt had no trouble mastering the gearshift, and a minute later the car glided smoothly out of the country club drive and shot out onto the main road. Headlights flew past in the dark and the breeze blew through the windows as they drove in silence. Far off to the left some other fireworks display came to a grand finale in a spectacular cascade of red, white, and blue. Meredith watched the brilliant sparks glitter and then slowly fade as they drifted downward. Belatedly recalling her manners, she said, βI want to apologize for what happened tonightβfor my father, I mean.β
Matt shot her an amused sideways look. βHeβs the one who should apologize. It hurt my pride when he sent those two flabby, middle-aged waiters to throw me out. At least he could have sent four of themβjust to spare my ego.β
Meredith gaped at him, amazed because he obviously wasnβt the least bit intimidated by her fatherβs wrath, and then she smiled, because it felt wonderful to be with someone who wasnβt. With a jaunty look at his powerful shoulders, she said, βIf he really wanted to get you out of there against your will, heβd have been wiser to send six.β
βMy ego and I both thank you,β he said with a lazy grin, and Meredith, who would have sworn a few minutes ago that sheβd never smile again, burst out laughing.
βYou have a wonderful laugh,β he said quietly.
βThank you,β she said, startled and pleased beyond proportion to the compliment. In the pale light from the dashboard she studied his shadowy profile, watching the wind ruffle his hair, wondering what it was about him that could make a few simple, quiet words seem like a physical caress. Shelly Fillmoreβs words floated through her mind, providing the probable answer . . . βpure, undiluted sex appeal.β A few hours earlier she hadnβt thought Matt was extraordinarily, attractive. She did now. In fact, she was certain women drooled over him. No doubt they were also the reason he knew how to kiss as well as he did. He had sex appeal, all rightβand a whole lot of experience kissing. βTurn in here,β she said a quarter of an hour later when they approached a pair of huge wrought-iron gates. Reaching forward, she pressed a button on the dashboard and the gates swung open into her driveway.
CHAPTER 9
βThis is home,β Meredith said as he pulled to a stop in front of the house.
He looked up at the imposing stone structure with its leaded glass windows while Meredith unlocked the front door. βIt looks like a museum.β
βAt least you didnβt say mausoleum,β she said, smiling over her shoulder.
βNo, but I thought it.β
Meredith was still smiling at his blunt quip as she showed him into the darkened library at the back of the house and turned on a lamp, but when he went directly to the phone on the desk and picked it up, her heart sank. She wanted him to stay, she wanted to talk, she wanted to do anything to fend off the despair that she knew would overwhelm her again when she was alone. βThereβs no reason for you to leave so soon. My father will play cards until the club closes at two A.M.β
He turned at the note of desperation in her voice. βMeredith, Iβm not a bit worried about your father for my own sake, but you have to live with him. If he comes home and finds me hereββ
βHe wonβt,β Meredith promised. βMy father wouldnβt let death interrupt his card games; heβs an obsessive card player.β
βHeβs damned obsessive about you too,β Matt said flatly, and Meredith held her breath while he hesitated before finally hanging up the phone. This was probably going to be the last pleasant evening she would have for months, and she was determined to make it last. βWould you like a brandy? Iβm afraid I canβt offer you anything to eat because the servants are already in bed.β
βBrandy will be fine.β
Meredith went over to the liquor cabinet and took out the brandy decanter. Behind her, he said, βDo the servants lock the refrigerator at night?β She paused, a brandy snifter in her hand. βSomething like that,β she evaded.
But Matt wasnβt fooledβshe realized it the moment she brought his glass over to the sofa and saw the amusement gleaming in his eyes. βYou canβt cook, can you, princess?β
βIβm sure I could,β she joked, βif someone showed me where the kitchen is, and then pointed out the stove and refrigerator.β
The corners of his mouth deepened into an answering smile, but he leaned forward and purposefully put his glass on the table. She knew exactly what he intended to do even before he caught her wrists and firmly pulled her toward him. βI know you can cook,β he said, tipping her chin up.
βWhat makes you so sure?β
βBecause,β he whispered, βless than an hour ago you set me on fire.β
His mouth was a fraction of an inch from hers when the shrill ring of the telephone made her lurch out of his arms. When she answered it, her fatherβs voice was like an arctic blast. βIβm glad to see that you had sense enough to do as I told you. And Meredith,β he added, βI was on the verge of permitting you to go to Northwestern, but you can forget about that now. Your behavior tonight is living proof that you canβt be trusted.β He hung up on her.
With shaking fingers, Meredith replaced the receiver. Her arms began to tremble and then her knees, until her whole body was quaking with futility and rage, and she braced her palms on the desk to steady herself.
Matt came up behind her and put his hands on her shoulders. βMeredith?β he said, his voice deep with concern. βWho was that? Is anything wrong?β
Even her voice shook. βThat was my father checking to make certain that I came home as ordered.β
He was silent for a moment, and then he said quietly, βWhat have you done to make him distrust you like this?β
Mattβs thinly veiled accusation tore at her heart, hacking away at her rapidly disintegrating control. βWhat have I done?β she repeated, her voice rising with hysteria. βWhat have I done?β
βYou must have given him some reason to think he has to guard you like this.β
Savage resentment boiled up inside of Meredith, erupting into a mass of churning rage. Her eyes bright with tears and some half-formed purpose, she swung around on him and slid her hands up his hard chest. βMy mother was promiscuous. She couldnβt keep her hands off other men. My father guards me because he knows Iβm like her.β
Mattβs eyes narrowed as she wrapped her arms fiercely around his neck. βWhat the hell do you think youβre doing?β
βYou know what Iβm doing,β she whispered, and before he could answer, she pressed herself against his full length and kissed him long and lingeringly.
He wanted herβMeredith knew it the moment his arms encircled her, pulling her tightly against his hardening body. He wanted her. His mouth seized hers in a hungry, consuming kiss, and she tried to do her best to make certain he didnβt change his mindβand that she couldnβt change hers. Her fingers clumsy and urgent, she tugged the studs loose from his shirtfront and opened his shirt, sliding her hands up his chest, spreading the white cloth wide apart, baring what looked to be an acre of bronzed muscle with springy dark hairs, then she closed her eyes tightly, reached behind her back and started tugging on the zipper of her dress. She wanted this, sheβd earned it, she told herself fiercely.
βMeredith?β
His quiet voice made her head jerk up, but she didnβt have the courage to lift her gaze above his chest.
βIβm flattered as hell, but Iβve never actually seen a woman rip off her clothes in the throes of passion, particularly after only one kiss.β
Defeated before sheβd begun, Meredith leaned her forehead against his chest. His hand slid over her shoulder, long fingers curving around her nape, his thumb stroking, while his other hand slid around her waist and moved her closer. Then his fingers moved down her bare back to the zipper of her dress. The bodice of a very expensive chiffon gown came loose.
Swallowing audibly, she started to lift her arms to shield herself from view, and hesitated. βIβm . . . not very good at this,β she said, raising her eyes to his.
His lids drifted down, his gaze shifting to the tops of her breasts. βArenβt you?β he whispered huskily as he bent his head.
Meredith wanted to find nirvana; she sought it in that next kiss. And she found it. Her fingers flexing against the corded muscles in his back, she kissed him with blind need, and when his parted lips moved insistently against hers, she welcomed the suggestive invasion of his tongue. She returned it, and made him gasp and clench her tighter. And then, suddenly, she wasnβt in control anymore; she wasnβt aware of anything except sensations. His mouth seized hers in stormy desire, her clothes came loose and a cold draft hit her. Her hair tumbled down over her shoulders, freed by his hands, and the room tilted as she was brought down onto the sofa beside a hard, demanding, naked male body.
And then it stopped, and Meredith surfaced a little from a dark, sweet world where she felt only his mouth and the stirring stroking of his hands over her flesh. She opened her eyes and saw him leaning up on his forearm, studying her face in the mellow glow of the desk lamp. βWhat are you doing?β she whispered, but the thin, wispy voice didnβt sound like hers.
βLooking at you.β As he said it, his gaze moved down along the sides of her breasts past her waist, then down her thighs and legs. Embarrassed, Meredith stopped him from what he was doing by touching her lips to his chest. His muscles flinched reflexively as she brushed her lips over his skin, and his hand sank slowly into the hair at her nape, lifting her forward. This time when she raised her gaze to his, he bent his head. His mouth captured hers almost roughly, his tongue parting her lips and driving into her mouth in a fiercely erotic kiss that sent flames shooting through her entire body. Leaning over her, he kissed her until she heard herself moaning softly, and then his mouth was at her breasts, making them ache while his fingers explored and tormented and made her back arch against his hand. He moved, his body shifting on top of her, his hips insistent, his lips rough and tender against the curve of her neck and cheek. His mouth returned to hers again, parting her lips; his legs wedged between hers, parting her thighs, and all the while his tongue was tangling with hers, withdrawing and plunging deep. And then he stopped.
Cradling her face between his palms, he ordered hoarsely, βLook at me.β Somehow Meredith managed to surface from her sensual daze; she forced her lids open and looked into his scorching gray eyes. The moment she did, Matt drove into her with a force that tore a low cry from her throat and made her body arch like a bow. In that split second he recognized heβd just taken her virginity, and his reaction was more violent than hers. He froze, his eyes clenched shut. His shoulders and arms taut, he stayed there inside her, unmoving. βWhy?β he demanded in a raw whisper.
She shivered at the accusation she thought she heard and misunderstood his question. βBecause I havenβt done it before.β
That answer made his eyes open and what she saw wasnβt disappointment or accusation, it was tenderness and regret. βWhy didnβt you tell me? I could have made this much easier for you.β
Spreading her fingers over his cheek, Meredith said with a soft, reassuring smile, βYou did make it easy. And perfect.β
That accomplished what nothing else had. It made him groan. He covered her lips with his and, with infinite gentleness, began to move inside her, withdrawing almost all the way and slowly plunging deep, steadily increasing the tempo of his driving strokes, giving and giving and giving until Meredith was wild beneath him. Her fingernails bit into his back and hips, clutching him to her, while the passion raging inside her built into a holocaust, and still it went on and on, until it finally exploded in long soul-destroying bursts of extravagant pleasure. Gathering her into his arms, Matt shoved his fingers into her hair, kissing her with fiery urgency, and drove into her one more time. The deep raw hunger of his kiss, the sudden surge of liquid from his body into hers, made Meredith clasp him tighter and moan with the exquisite sensation.
Her heart beating frantically, she moved onto her side with him, her face pressed against his chest, his arms tight around her. βDo you have any idea,β he whispered in a shaken, hoarse voice, his lips brushing her cheek, βhow exciting you are, and how responsive?β
Meredith didnβt answer, because the reality of what heβd done was beginning to seep through her, and she didnβt want to let it. Not now, not yet. She didnβt want anything to spoil this. She closed her eyes and listened to the lovely things he continued to say to her while he laid his hand against her cheek, idly brushing his thumb over her skin.
And then he asked something that did need a response and the magic faded, receding beyond her reach. βWhy?β he asked her quietly. βWhy did you do this tonight? With me?β
She tensed at the difficult, probing question, sighed with a feeling of loss, and pulled out of his arms, wrapping herself in the afghan lying over the end of the sofa. Sheβd known about the physical intimacy of sex, but no one had warned her about this strange, uneasy aftermath. She felt stripped bare emotionally; exposed, defenseless, awkward. βI think weβd both better get dressed,β she said nervously, βand then Iβll tell you whatever you want to know. Iβll be right back.β
In her room, Meredith put on a navy and white robe, tied the belt around her waist, and went back downstairs, still barefoot. As she passed the clock in the hall, she glanced at it. Her father would be home in an hour.
Matt was on the phone in the study, fully dressed with the exception of his tie, which heβd shoved into his pocket. βWhatβs the address here?β he asked. She told him and he relayed it to the cab company he had called. βI told them to be here in a half hour,β he said. Walking over to the coffee table in front of the sofa, he picked up his abandoned brandy glass.
βCan I get you anything else?β Meredith asked, because that question seemed like something a good hostess normally asked a guest when the evening neared its end. Or was that what a waitress asked, she wondered a little hysterically.
βIβd like an answer to my question,β he said. βWhat made you decide to do this tonight?β
She thought she heard a tautness in his voice, but his face was completely expressionless. She sighed and looked away, self-consciously tracing an inlaid square on the desk. βFor years my father has treated me like a . . . a closet nymphomaniac, and Iβve never done anything to deserve it. Tonight when you insisted he must have some reason for βguarding me,β something just snapped inside of me. I think I decided that if I was going to be treated like a tramp, I might as well have the experience of sleeping with a man. And at the same time, I had some insane idea of punishing youβand him. I wanted to show you that you were wrong.β
After several moments of ominous silence, Matt said curtly, βYou could have convinced me I was wrong by simply telling me that your father is a tyrannical, suspicious bastard. I would have believed you.β
In her heart, Meredith knew that was true, and she glanced uneasily at him, wondering if anger had been her only reason for instigating what had just happened, or if sheβd simply used anger as an excuse to experience intimately that sexual magnetism sheβd felt from him all night. Used. That was the operative word. In a strange sort of way she felt guilty for using a man she had liked enormously to retaliate against her father.
In the lengthening silence, he seemed to evaluate what sheβd said, and what she hadnβt said, and to guess what she was thinking. Whatever conclusions he drew from all that obviously didnβt please him very much, because he abruptly put down his glass and glanced at his watch. βIβll walk down to the end of the drive.β
βIβll show you out.β Polite sentences spoken between two strangers whoβd been doing the most intimate possible things together less than one hour ago. That incongruity registered on her as she straightened from the desk. At the same moment his gaze riveted on her bare feet, shot back to her face, and then ricocheted to her hair tumbling loose about her shoulders. Barefoot, hair down, and in a long robe, Meredith did not look quite the way she did in a strapless evening dress with her hair in a sophisticated chignon. She knew before he asked the question what it was going to be.
βHow old are you?β
βNot . . . quite as old as you think.β
βHow old?β he persisted.
βEighteen.β
She expected some sort of reaction to that. Instead, he looked at her for a long, hard moment, and then he did something that made no sense to her. Turning, he went over to the desk and wrote something on a slip of paper. βThis is my phone number in Edmunton,β he said calmly, handing it to her. βYou can reach me there for the next six weeks. After that, Sommers will know how to get in touch with me somehow.β
When he left, she walked upstairs, frowning at the scrap of paper in her hand. If this was Mattβs way of suggesting she give him a call sometime, it was arrogant, rude, and completely obnoxious. And a little humiliating.
For most of the following week, Meredith jumped every time the phone rang, afraid that it was going to be Matt. Just the recollection of the things theyβd done made her face burn with embarrassment, and she wanted to forget it and him.
By the following week she didnβt want to forget it at all. Once the guilt and fear of discovery had receded, she found herself thinking about him constantly, reliving the same moments sheβd wanted to forget. Lying in bed at night, with her face pressed into the pillow, she felt his lips on her cheek and neck, and she recalled each sexy, tender word heβd whispered to her with a tiny thrill. She thought about other things too, like the pleasure of being with him while they talked on the lawn at Glenmoor, and the way heβd laughed at the things she said. She wondered if he was thinking about her, and if he was, why didnβt he call . . .
When he didnβt phone the week after that, Meredith realized she was obviously very forgettable and that he hadnβt thought her βexcitingβ or βresponsiveβ at all. She went over and over the things sheβd said to Matt just before he left, wondering if something sheβd said was the reason for his silence now. She considered the possibility that she might have hurt his pride when she told him the truth about why sheβd decided to sleep with him, but she found that very hard to believe. Matthew Farrell wasnβt the least bit insecure about his sexual attractionβheβd carried on that sexual banter with her within minutes of meeting her, when they first danced. It was more likely he hadnβt called because heβd decided she was too young to bother with.
By the end of the following week, Meredith no longer wanted to hear from him. Her period was two weeks overdue, and she wished to God sheβd never met Matthew Farrell at all. As one day drifted into the next, she couldnβt think about anything except the terrifying possibility that sheβd gotten pregnant. Lisa was in Europe, so there was no one to turn to or help make the time go faster. She waited and she prayed and she promised fervently that if she wasnβt pregnant, sheβd never have intercourse again until she was married.
But either God wasnβt listening to her prayers or He was immune to bribery.
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Abducted from her convent school, headstrong Scottish beauty Jennifer Merrick does not easily surrender to Royce Westmoreland, Duke of Claymore. Known as βThe Wolf,β his very name strikes terror in the hearts of his enemies. But proud Jennifer will have nothing to do with the fierce English warrior who holds her captive, no matter what he threatens. Boldly she challenges his willβuntil the night he takes her in his powerful embrace, awakening in her an irresistible hunger. Suddenly Jennifer finds herself ensnared in a bewildering and seductive web of pride, passion, and overwhelming love. This beloved tale about two defiant hearts clashing in a furious battle of wills in the glorious age of chivalry βwill stay in your heart forever and be a classic on your shelvesβ (RT Book Reviews, Top Pick).
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CHAPTER 1
βAΒ toast to the duke of Claymore and his bride!β
Under normal circumstances, this call for a wedding toast would have caused the lavishly dressed ladies and gentlemen assembled in the great hall at Merrick castle to smile and cheer. Goblets of wine would have been raised and more toasts offered in celebration of a grand and noble wedding such as the one which was about to take place here in the south of Scotland.
But not today. Not at this wedding.
At this wedding, no one cheered and no one raised a goblet. At this wedding, everyone was watching everyone else, and everyone was tense. The brideβs family was tense. The groomβs family was tense. The guests and the servants and the hounds in the hall were tense. Even the first earl of Merrick, whose portrait hung above the fireplace, looked tense.
βA toast to the duke of Claymore and his bride,β the groomβs brother pronounced again, his voice like a thunderclap in the unnatural, tomblike silence of the crowded hall. βMay they enjoy a long and fruitful life together.β
Normally, that ancient toast brings about a predictable reaction: The groom always smiles proudly because heβs convinced heβs accomplished something quite wonderful. The bride smiles because sheβs been able to convince him of it. The guests smile because, amongst the nobility, a marriage connotes the linking of two important families and two large fortunesβwhich in itself is cause for great celebration and abnormal gaiety.
But not today. Not on this fourteenth day of October, 1497.
Having made the toast, the groomβs brother raised his goblet and smiled grimly at the groom. The groomβs friends raised their goblets and smiled fixedly at the brideβs family. The brideβs family raised their goblets and smiled frigidly at each other. The groom, who alone seemed to be immune to the hostility in the hall, raised his goblet and smiled calmly at his bride, but the smile did not reach his eyes.
The bride did not bother to smile at anyone. She looked furious and mutinous.
In truth, Jennifer was so frantic she scarcely knew anyone was there. At the moment, every fiber of her being was concentrating on a last-minute, desperate appeal to God, Who out of lack of attention or lack of interest, had let her come to this sorry pass.Β βLord,βΒ she cried silently, swallowing the lump of terror swelling in her throat,Β βif Youβre going to do something to stop this marriage, Youβre going to have to do it quickly, or in five minutes βtwill be too late! Surely, I deserve something better than this forced marriage to a man who stole my virginity! I didnβt just hand it over to him, You know!β
Realizing the folly of reprimanding the Almighty, she hastily switched to pleading:Β βHavenβt I always tried to serve You well?βΒ she whispered silently. βHavenβt I always obeyed You?β
βNOT ALWAYS, JENNIFER,βΒ Godβs voice thundered in her mind.
βNearlyΒ always,βΒ Jennifer amended frantically.Β βI attended mass every day, except when I was ill, which was seldom, and I said my prayers every morning and every evening.Β NearlyΒ every evening,βΒ she amended hastily before her conscience could contradict her again,Β βexcept when I fell asleep before I was finished. And I tried,Β I trulyΒ triedΒ to be all that the good sisters at the abbey wanted me to be. You know now hard Iβve tried! Lord,βΒ she finished desperately,Β βif youβll just help me escape from this, Iβll never be willful or impulsive again.β
βTHAT I DO NOT BELIEVE, JENNIFER,βΒ God boomed dubiously.
βNay, I swear it,βΒ she earnestly replied, trying to strike a bargain.Β βIβll do anything You want, Iβll go straight back to the abbey and devote my life to prayer andββ
βThe marriage contracts have been duly signed. Bring in the priest,β Lord Balfour commanded, and Jenniferβs breath came in wild, panicked gasps, all thoughts of potential sacrifices fleeing from her mind.
βGod,β she silently pleaded, βwhy are You doing this to me? You arenβt going to let this happen to me, are You?β
Silence fell over the great hall as the doors were flung open.
βYES, JENNIFER, I AM.β
The crowd parted automatically to admit the priest, and Jennifer felt as if her life were ending. Her groom stepped into position beside her, and Jennifer jerked an inch away, her stomach churning with resentment and humiliation at having to endure his nearness. If only she hadΒ knownΒ how one heedless act could end in disaster and disgrace. If only she hadnβt been so impulsive and reckless!
Closing her eyes, Jennifer shut out the hostile faces of the English and the murderous faces of her Scots kinsmen, and in her heart she faced the wrenching truth: Impulsiveness and recklessness, her two greatestΒ faults, had brought her to this dire endβthe same two character flaws that had led her to commit all of her most disastrous follies. Those two flaws, combined with a desperate yearning to make her father love her, as he loved his stepsons, were responsible for the debacle sheβd made of her life:
When she was fifteen, those were the things that had led her to try to avenge herself against her sly, spiteful stepbrother in what had seemed a right and honorable wayβwhich was to secretly don Merrick armor and then ride against him, fairly, in the lists. That magnificent folly had gained her a sound thrashing from her father right there on the field of honorβand only a tiny bit of satisfaction from having knocked her wicked stepbrother clean off his horse!
The year before, those same traits had caused her to behave in such a way that old Lord Balder withdrew his request for her hand, and in doing so destroyed her fatherβs cherished dream of joining the two families. And those things, in turn, were what got her banished to the abbey at Belkirk, where, seven weeks ago, sheβd become easy prey for the Black Wolfβs marauding army.
And now, because of all that, she was forced to wed her enemy; a brutal English warrior whose armies had oppressed her country, a man who had captured her, held her prisoner, taken her virginity, and destroyed her reputation.
But it was too late for prayers and promises now. Her fate had been sealed from the moment, seven weeks ago, when sheβd been dumped at the feet of the arrogant beast beside her, trussed up like a feastday partridge.
Jennifer swallowed. No, before thatβsheβd veered down this path to disaster earlier that same day when sheβd refused to heed the warnings that the Black Wolfβs armies were nearby.
But whyΒ shouldΒ she have believed it, Jennifer criedΒ in her own defense.Β βThe Wolf is marching on us!βΒ had been a terrified call of doom issued almost weekly throughout the last five years. But on that day, seven weeks ago, it had been woefully true.
The crowd in the hall stirred restlessly, looking about for a sign of the priest, but Jennifer was lost in her memories of that day.
At the time, it had seemed an unusually pretty day, the sky a cheerful blue, the air balmy. The sun had been shining down upon the abbey, bathing its Gothic spires and graceful arches in bright golden light, beaming benignly upon the sleepy little village of Belkirk, which boasted the abbey, two shops, thirty-four cottages, and a communal stone well in the center of it, where villagers gathered on Sunday afternoons, as they were doing then. On a distant hill, a shepherd looked after his flock, while in a clearing not far from the well, Jennifer had been playing hoodman-blind with the orphans whom the abbess had entrusted to her care.
And in that halcyon setting of laughter and relaxation, this travesty had begun. As if she could somehow change events by reliving them in her mind, Jennifer closed her eyes, and suddenly she was there again in the little clearing with the children, her head completely covered with the hoodmanβs hoodΒ .Β .Β .
βWhere are you, Tom MacGivern?β she called out, groping about with outstretched arms, pretending she couldnβt locate the giggling nine-year-old boy, who her ears told her was only a foot away on her right. Grinning beneath the concealing hood, she assumed the pose of a classic βmonsterβ by holding her arms high in front of her, her fingers spread like claws, and began to stomp about, calling in a deep, ominous voice, βYou canβt escape me, Tom MacGivern.β
βHa!β he shouted from her right. βYouβll noβ find me, hoodman!β
βYes, I will!β Jenny threatened, then deliberatelyΒ turned to her left, which caused gales of laughter to erupt from the children who were hiding behind trees and crouching beside bushes.
βIβve got you!β Jenny shouted triumphantly a few minutes later as she swooped down upon a fleeing, giggling child, catching a small wrist in her hand. Breathless and laughing, Jenny yanked off her hood to see whom sheβd captured, mindless of the red gold hair tumbling down over her shoulders and arms.
βYou got Mary!β the children crowed delightedly. βMaryβs the hoodman now!β
The little five-year-old girl looked up at Jenny, her hazel eyes wide and apprehensive, her thin body shivering with fear. βPlease,β she whispered, clinging to Jennyβs leg, βIβI not want to wear thβ hoodββTwill be dark inside it. Do I got to wear it?β
Smiling reassuringly, Jenny tenderly smoothed Maryβs hair off her thin face. βNot if you donβt want.β
βIβm afeert of the dark,β Mary confided unnecessarily, her narrow shoulders drooping with shame.
Sweeping her up into her arms, Jenny hugged her tightly. βEverybody is afraid of something,β she said and teasingly added, βWhy, Iβm afraid ofβof frogs!β
The dishonest admission made the little girl giggle. βFrogs!β she repeated, βI likes frogs! They donβt sceer me βtall.β
βThere, you seeββ Jenny said as she lowered her to the ground. βYouβre very brave. Braver than I!β
βLady Jenny is afeart of silly olβ frogs,β Mary told the group of children as they ran forward.
βNo she isnββ young Tom began, quick to rise to the defense of the beautiful Lady Jenny who, despite her lofty rank, was always up to anythingβincluding hitching up her skirts and wading in the pond to help him catch a fat bullfrogβor climbing up a tree, quick as a cat, to rescue little Will who was afraid to come down.
Tom silenced at Jennyβs pleading look and argued no more about her alleged fear of frogs. βIβll wear the hood,βΒ he volunteered, gazing adoringly at the seventeen-year-old girl who wore the somber gown of a novice nun, but who was not one, and who, moreover, certainly didnβtΒ actΒ like one. Why, last Sunday during the priestβs long sermon, Lady Jennyβs head had nodded forward, and only Tomβs loud, false coughing in the bench behind her had awakened her in time for her to escape detection by the sharp-eyed abbess.
βββTis Tomβs turn to wear the hood,β Jenny agreed promptly, handing Tom the hood. Smiling, she watched the children scamper off to their favorite hiding places, then she picked up the wimple and short woolen veil sheβd taken off in order to be the hoodman. Intending to go over to the communal well where the villagers were eagerly questioning some clansmen passing through Belkirk on their way to their homes from the war against the English in Cornwall, she lifted the wimple, intending to put it on.
βLady Jennifer!β One of the village men called suddenly, βCome quickβthereβs news of the laird.β The veil and wimple forgotten in her hand, Jenny broke into a run, and the children, sensing the excitement, stopped their game and raced along at her heels.
βWhat news?β Jenny asked breathlessly, her gaze searching the stolid faces of the groups of clansmen. One of them stepped forward, respectfully removing his helm and cradling it in the crook of his arm. βBe you the daughter of the laird of Merrick?β
At the mention of the name Merrick, two of the men at the well suddenly stopped in the act of pulling up a bucket of water and exchanged startled, malevolent glances before they quickly ducked their heads again, keeping their faces in shadow. βYes,β Jenny said eagerly. βYou have news of my father?β
βAye, mβlady. Heβs cominβ this way, not far behind us, wit a big band oβ men.β
βThank God,β Jenny breathed. βHow goes the battle at Cornwall?β she asked after a moment, readyΒ now to forget her personal concerns and devote her worry to the battle the Scots were waging at Cornwall in support of King James and Edward Vβs claim to the English throne.
His face answered Jennyβs question even before he said, βββTwas all but over when we left. In Cork and Taunton it looked like we might win, and the same was true in Cornwall, until the devil hisself came to take command βo Henryβs army.β
βThe devil?β Jenny repeated blankly.
Hatred contorted the manβs face and he spat on the ground. βAye, the devilβthe Black Wolf hisself, may he roast in hell from whence he was spawned.β
Two of the peasant women crossed themselves as if to ward off evil at the mention of the Black Wolf, Scotlandβs most hated, and most feared, enemy, but the manβs next words made them gape in fear: βThe Wolf is cominβ back to Scotland. Henryβs sendinβ him here with a fresh army to crush us for supportinβ King Edward. Twill be murder and bloodshed like the last time he came, only worst, you mark me. The clans are making haste to come home and get ready for the battles. Iβm thinkinβ the Wolf will attack Merrick first, before any oβ the rest of us, for βtwas your clan that took the most English lives at Cornwall.β
So saying, he nodded politely, put on his helmet, then he swung up onto his horse.
The scraggly groups at the well departed soon afterward, heading down the road that led across the moors and wound upward into the hills.
Two of the men, however, did not continue beyond the bend in the road. Once out of sight of the villagers, they veered off to the right, sending their horses at a furtive gallop into the forest.
Had Jenny been watching, she might have caught a brief glimpse of them doubling back through the woods that ran beside the road right behind her. But at the time, she was occupied with the terrified pandemonium that had broken out among the citizensΒ of Belkirk, which happened to lie directly in the path between England and Merrick keep.
βThe Wolf is coming!β one of the women cried, clutching her babe protectively to her breast. βGod haveΒ pityΒ on us.β
βββTis Merrick heβll strike at,β a man shouted, his voice rising in fear. βββTis the laird of Merrick heβll want in his jaws, but βtis Belkirk heβll devour on the way.β Suddenly the air was filled with gruesome predictions of fire and death and slaughter, and the children crowded around Jenny, clinging to her in mute horror. To the Scots, be they wealthy noble or lowly villager, the Black Wolf was more evil than the devil himself, and more dangerous, for the devil was a spirit, while the Wolf was flesh and bloodβthe living Lord of Evilβa monstrous being who threatened their existence, right here on earth. He was the malevolent specter that the Scots used to terrify their offspring into behaving. βThe Wolf will get you,β was the warning issued to keep children from straying into the woods or leaving their beds at night, or from disobeying their elders.
Impatient with such hysteria over what was, to her, more myth than man, Jenny raised her voice in order to be heard over the din. βTis more likely,β she called, putting her arms around the terrified children whoβd crowded against her at the first mention of the Wolfβs name, βthat heβll go back to his heathen king so that he can lick the wounds we gave him at Cornwall while he tells great lies to exaggerate his victory. And if he does not do that, heβll choose a weaker keep than Merrick for his attackβone heβs a chance of breeching.
Her words and her tone of amused disdain brought startled gazes flying to her face, but it wasnβt merely false bravado that had made Jenny speak so: She was a Merrick, and a Merrick never admitted to fear of any man. She had heard that hundreds of times when herΒ father spoke to her stepbrothers, and she had adopted his creed for her own. Furthermore, the villagers were frightening the children, which she refused to let continue.
Mary tugged at Jennyβs skirts to get her attention, and in a shrill little voice, she asked, βIsnβtΒ youΒ afeert of the Black Wolf, Lady Jenny?β
βOf course not!β Jenny said with a bright, reassuring smile.
βThey say,β young Tom interjected in an awed voice, βthe Wolf is as tall as a tree!β
βA tree!β Jenny chuckled, trying to make a huge joke of the Wolf and all the lore surrounding him. βIf he is, βtwould be a sight worth seeing when he tries to mount his horse! Why, βtwould takeΒ fourΒ squires to hoist him up there!β
The absurdity of that image made some of the children giggle, exactly as Jenny had hoped.
βI heert,β said young Will with an eloquent shudder, βhe tears down walls with his bare hands and drinks blood!β
βYuk!β said Jenny with twinkling eyes. βThen βtis only indigestion which makes him so mean. If he comes to Belkirk, weβll offer him some good Scottish ale instead.β
βMy pa said,β put in another child, βhe rides with a giant beside him, a Go-liath called Arik who carries a war axe and chops up childrenΒ .Β .Β .β
βI heertββ another child interrupted ominously.
Jenny cut in lightly, βLet me tell you whatΒ IΒ have heard.β With a bright smile, she began to shepherd them toward the abbey, which was out of sight just beyond a bend down the road. β7 heard,β she improvised gaily, βthat heβs so very old that he has to squint to see, just like thisββ
She screwed up her face in a comical exaggeration of a befuddled, near-blind person peering around blankly, and the children giggled.
As they walked along, Jenny kept up the same lightheartedΒ teasing comments, and the children fell in with the game, adding their own suggestions to make the Wolf seem absurd.
But despite the laughter and seeming gaiety of the moment, the sky had suddenly darkened as a bank of heavy clouds rolled in, and the air was turning bitingly cold, whipping Jennyβs cloak about her, as if nature herself brooded at the mention of such evil.
Jenny was about to make another joke at the Wolfβs expense, but she broke off abruptly as a group of mounted clansmen rounded the bend from the abbey, coming toward her down the road. A beautiful girl, clad as Jenny was in the somber gray gown, white wimple, and short gray veil of a novice nun, was mounted in front of the leader, sitting demurely sideways in his saddle, her timid smile confirming what Jenny already knew.
With a silent cry of joy, Jenny started to dash forward, then checked the unladylike impulse and made herself stay where she was. Her eyes clung to her father, then drifted briefly over her clansmen, who were staring past her with the same grim disapproval theyβd shown her for yearsβever since her stepbrother had successfully circulated his horrible tale.
Sending the children ahead with strict orders to go directly to the abbey, Jenny waited in the middle of the road for what seemed like an eternity until, at last, the group halted in front of her.
Her father, whoβd obviously stopped at the abbey where Brenna, Jennyβs stepsister, was also staying, swung down from his horse, then he turned to lift Brenna down. Jenny chafed at the delay, but his scrupulous attention to courtesy and dignity was so typical of the great man that a wry smile touched her lips.
Finally, he turned fully toward her, opening his arms wide. Jenny hurtled into his embrace, hugging him fiercely, babbling in her excitement: βFather, Iβve missed you so! βTis nearly two years since IβveΒ seen you! Are you well? You look well. Youβve scarce changed in all this time!β
Gently disentangling her arms from about his neck, Lord Merrick set his daughter slightly away from him while his gaze drifted over her tousled hair, rosy cheeks, and badly rumpled gown. Jenny squirmed inwardly beneath his prolonged scrutiny, praying that he approved of what he saw and that, since heβd obviously stopped at the abbey already, the abbessβs report had been pleasing to him.
Two years ago, her behavior had gotten her sent to the abbey; a year ago, Brenna had been sent down here for safetyβs sake while the laird was at war. Under the abbessβs firm guidance, Jenny had come to appreciate her strengths, and to try to overcome her faults. But as her father inspected her from head to toe, she couldnβt help wondering if he saw the young lady she was now or the unruly girl sheβd been two years ago. His blue eyes finally returned to her face and there was a smile in them. βYeβve become a woman, Jennifer.β
Jennyβs heart soared; coming from her taciturn father, such a comment constituted high praise. βIβve changed in other ways too, Father,β she promised, her eyes shining. βIβve changed a great deal.β
βNotΒ thatΒ much, my girl.β Raising his shaggy white brows, he looked pointedly at the short veil and wimple hanging forgotten from her fingertips.
βOh!β Jenny said, laughing and anxious to explain. βI was playing hoodman-blindΒ .Β .Β . erΒ .Β .Β . with the children, and it wouldnβt fit beneath the hood. Have you seen the abbess? What did Mother Ambrose tell you?β
Laughter sparked in his somber eyes. βShe told me,β he replied dryly, βthat yeβve a habit of sitting on yon hill and gazing off into the air, dreaming, which sounds familiar, lassie. And she told me yeβve a tendency to nod off in the midst of mass, should the priest sermonize longer than you think seemly, which also sounds familiar.β
Jennyβs heart sank at this seeming betrayal from the abbess whom she so admired. In a sense, Mother Ambrose was laird of her own grand demesne, controlling revenues from the farmlands and livestock that belonged to the splendid abbey, presiding at table whenever there were visitors, and dealing with all other matters that involved the laymen who worked on the abbey grounds as well as the nuns who lived cloistered within its soaring walls.
Brenna was terrified of the stem woman, but Jenny loved her, and so the abbessβs apparent betrayal cut deeply.
Her fatherβs next words banished her disappointment. βMother Ambrose also told me,β he admitted with gruff pride, βthat youβve a head on your shoulders befitting an abbess herself. She said youβre a Merrick through and through, with courage enough to be laird of yer own clan. But youβll noβ be that,β he warned, dashing Jennyβs fondest dream.
With an effort, Jenny kept the smile pinned to her face, refusing to feel the hurt of being deprived of that rightβa right that had been promised to her until her father married Brennaβs widowed mother and acquired three stepsons in the bargain.
Alexander, the eldest of the three brothers, would assume the position that had been promised to her. That, in itself, wouldnβt have been nearly so hard to bear if Alexander had been nice, or even fair-minded, but he was a treacherous, scheming liar, and Jenny knew it, even if her father and her clan did not. Within a year after coming to live at Merrick keep, heβd begun carrying tales about her, tales so slanderous and ghastly, but so cleverly contrived, that, over a period of years, heβd turned her whole clan against her. That loss of her clanβs affection still hurt unbearably. Even now, when they were looking through her as if she didnβt exist for them, Jenny had to stop herself from pleading with them to forgive her for things she had not done.
William, the middle brother, was like Brennaβ sweet and as timid as can beβwhile Malcolm, the youngest, was as evil and as sneaky as Alexander. βThe abbess also said,β her father continued, βthat youβre kind and gentle, but youβve spirit, tooΒ .Β .Β .β
βShe said all that?β Jenny asked, dragging her dismal thoughts from her stepbrothers. βTruly?β
βAye.β Jenny would normally have rejoiced in that answer, but she was watching her fatherβs face, and it was becoming more grim and tense than she had ever seen it. Even his voice was strained as he said, βββTis well youβve given up your heathenish ways and that youβre all the things youβve become, Jennifer.β
He paused as if unable or unwilling to continue, and Jenny prodded gently, βWhy is that, Father?β
βBecause,β he said, drawing a long, harsh breath, βthe future of the clan will depend on your answer to my next question.β
His words trumpeted in her mind like blasts from a clarion, leaving Jenny dazed with excitement and joy:Β βThe future of the clan depends on youΒ .Β .Β .β She was so happy, she could scarcely trust her ears. It was as if she were up on the hill overlooking the abbey, dreaming her favorite daydreamβthe one where her father always came to her and said,Β βJennifer, the future of the clan depends on you. Not your stepbrothers. You.βΒ It was the chance sheβd been dreaming of to prove her mettle to her clansmen and to win back their affection. In that daydream, she was always called upon to perform some incredible feat of daring, some brave and dangerous deed, like scaling the wall of the Black Wolfβs castle and capturing him single-handedly. But no matter how daunting the task, she never questioned it, nor hesitated a second to accept the challenge.
She searched her fatherβs face. βWhat would you have me do?β she asked eagerly. βTell me, and I will! Iβll do anyββ
βWill youΒ marryΒ Edric MacPherson?β
βWhaaat?β gasped the horrified heroine of Jennyβs daydream. Edric MacPherson was older than her father; a wizened, frightening man whoβd looked at her in a way that made her skin crawl ever since sheβd begun to change from girl to maiden.
βWill you, or will you noβ?β
Jennyβs delicate auburn brows snapped together. βWhy?β asked the heroine who never questioned.
A strange, haunted look darkened his face. βWe took a beating at Cornwall, lassβwe lost half our men. Alexander was killed in battle. He died like a Merrick,β he added with grim pride, βfighting to the end.β
βIβm glad for your sake, Papa,β she said, unable to feel more than a brief pang of sorrow for the stepbrother whoβd made her life into a hell. Now, as she often had in the past, she wished there were somethingΒ sheΒ could do to make him proud ofΒ her.Β βI know you loved him as if he were your own son.β
Accepting her sympathy with a brief nod, he returned to the discussion at hand: βThere were many amongst the clans who were opposed to going to Cornwall to fight for King Jamesβs cause, but the clans followed me anyway. Tis no secret to the English that βtwas my influence which brought the clans to Cornwall, and now the English king wants vengeance. Heβs sendinβ the Wolf to Scotland to attack Merrick keep.β Ragged pain edged his deep voice as he admitted, βWeβll noβ be able to withstand a siege now, not unless the MacPherson clan comes to support us in our fight. The MacPherson has enough influence with a dozen other clans to force them to join us as well.β
Jennyβs mind was reeling. Alexander was dead, and the Wolf reallyΒ was coming to attack her homeΒ .Β .Β .
Her fatherβs harsh voice snapped her out of her daze. βJennifer! Do you ken what Iβve been saying? MacPherson has promised to join in our fight, but only if youβll have him for husband.β
Through her mother, Jenny was a countess and heiress to a rich estate which marched with MacPhersonβs. βHe wants my lands?β she said almost hopefully, remembering the awful way Edric MacPhersonβs eyes had wandered down her body when heβd stopped at the abbey a year ago to pay a βsocial callβ upon her.
βAye.β
βCouldnβt we justΒ giveΒ them to him in return for his support?β she volunteered desperately, readyβ willingβto sacrifice a splendid demesne without hesitation, for the good of her people.
βHeβd not agree to that!β her father said angrily. βThereβs honor in fighting for kin, but he could noβ send his people into a fight thatβs noβ their own, and then take your lands in payment toΒ him.β
βBut, surely, if he wants my lands badly enough, thereβs some wayββ
βHe wantsΒ you.Β He sent word to me in Cornwall.β His gaze drifted over Jennyβs face, registering the startling changes that had altered her face from its thin, freckled, girlish plainness into a face of almost exotic beauty. βYeβve your motherβs look about ye now, lass, and itβs whetted the appetites of an old man. Iβd noβ ask this of you if there was any other way.β Gruffly, he reminded her, βYou used to plead wiβ me to name you laird. Ye said there was naught you wouldnaβ do fer yer clanΒ .Β .Β .β
Jennyβs stomach twisted into sick knots at the thought of committing her body, her entire life, into the hands of a man she instinctively recoiled from, but she lifted her head and bravely met her fatherβs gaze. βAye, father,β she said quietly. βShall I come with you now?β
The look of pride and relief on his face almost made the sacrifice worthwhile. He shook his head. βββTis best you stay here with Brenna. Weβve no horses to spare and weβre anxious to reach Merrick and begin preparations for battle. Iβll send word to the MacPhersonΒ that the marriage is agreed upon, and then send someone here to fetch you to him.β
When he turned to remount his horse, Jenny gave into the temptation sheβd been fighting all along: Instead of standing aside, she moved into the rows of mounted clansmen who had once been her friends and playmates. Hoping that some of them had perhaps heard her agree to marry the MacPherson and that this might neutralize their contempt of her, she paused beside the horse of a ruddy, red-headed man. βGood day to you, Renald Garvin,β she said, smiling hesitantly into his hooded gaze. βHow fares your lady wife?β
His jaw hardened, his cold eyes flickering over her. βWell enough, I imagine,β he snapped.
Jenny swallowed at the unmistakable rejection from the man who had once taught her to fish and laughed with her when she fell into the stream.
She turned around and looked beseechingly at the man in the column beside Renald. βAnd you, Michael MacCleod? Has your leg been causing you any pain?β
Cold blue eyes met hers, then looked straight ahead.
She went to the rider behind him whose face was filled with hatred and she held out her hand beseechingly, her voice choked with pleading. βGarrick Carmichael, it has been four years since your Becky drowned. I swear to you now, as I swore to you then, I did not shove her into the river. We wereΒ not quarrelingββtwas aΒ lieΒ invented by Alexander toββ
His face as hard as granite, Garrick Carmichael spurred his horse forward, and without ever looking at her, the men began passing her by.
Only old Josh, the clanβs armorer, pulled his ancient horse to a halt, letting the others go on ahead. Leaning down, he laid his callused palm atop her bare head. βI know you speak truly, lassie,β he said, and his unceasing loyalty brought the sting of tears to her eyes as she gazed up into his soft brown ones. βYe have a temper, thereβs no denyinβ it, but even when ye were but a weeΒ thing, ye kept it bridled. Garrick Carmichael and the others might oβ been fooled by Alexanderβs angelic looks, but not olβ Josh. Youβll noβ see me grievinβ oβer the loss oβ him! The clanβll be better by far witβ young William leadinβ it. Carmichael and the othersββ he added reassuringly, βtheyβll come about in their thinkinβ oβ you, once they ken yer marrying the MacPherson for their sake as well as your sireβs.β
βWhere are my stepbrothers?β Jenny asked hoarsely, changing the subject lest she burst into tears.
βTheyβre cominβ home by a different route. We couldnβt be sure the Wolf wouldnβt try to attack us while we marched, so we split up after leavinβ Cornwall.β With another pat on her head, he spurred his horse forward.
As if in a daze, Jenny stood stock-still in the middle of the road, watching her clan ride off and disappear around the bend.
βIt grows dark,β Brenna said beside her, her gentle voice filled with sympathy. βWe should go back to the abbey now.β
The abbey. Three short hours ago, Jenny had walked away from the abbey feeling cheery and alive. Now she feltβdead. βGo ahead without me. IβI canβt go back there. Not yet. I think Iβll walk up the hill and sit for a while.β
βThe abbess will be annoyed if we arenβt back before dusk, and itβs near that now,β Brenna said apprehensively. It had always been thus between the two girls, with Jenny breaking a rule and Brenna terrified of bending one. Brenna was gentle, biddable, and beautiful, with blond hair, hazel eyes, and a sweet disposition that made her, in Jennyβs eyes, the embodiment of womanhood at its best. She was also as meek and timid as Jenny was impulsive and courageous. Without Jenny, sheβd not have had a single adventureβnor ever gotten a scolding. Without Brenna to worry about and protect, Jenny would haveΒ had many more adventuresβand many more scoldings. As a result, the two girls were entirely devoted to each other, and tried to protect one another as much as possible from the inevitable results of each otherβs shortcomings.
Brenna hesitated and then volunteered with only a tiny tremor in her voice, βIβll stay with you. If you remain alone, youβll forget about time and likely be pounced upon by aβa bear in the darkness.β
At the moment, the prospect of being killed by a bear seemed rather inviting to Jenny, whose entire life stretched before her, shrouded in gloom and foreboding. Despite the fact that she truly wanted, needed, to stay outdoors and try to reassemble her thoughts, Jenny shook her head, knowing that if they stayed, Brenna would be drowning in fear at the thought of facing the abbess. βNo, weβll go back.β
Ignoring Jennyβs words, Brenna clasped Jennyβs hand and turned to the left, toward the slope of the hill that overlooked the abbey, and for the first time it was Brenna who led and Jenny who followed.
In the woods beside the road, two shadows moved stealthily, staying parallel with the girlsβ path up the hill.
By the time they were partway up the steep incline, Jenny had already grown impatient with her own self-pity, and she made a Herculean effort to shore up her flagging spirits. βWhen you think on it,β she offered slowly, directing a glance at Brenna, βββtis actually a grand and noble thing Iβve been given the opportunity to doβmarrying the MacPherson for the sake of my people.β
βYouβre just like Joan of Arc,β Brenna agreed eagerly, βleading her people to victory!β
βExcept that Iβm marrying Edric MacPherson.β
βAnd,β Brenna finished encouragingly, βsuffering a worse fate than she did!β
Laughter widened Jennyβs eyes at this depressing remark, which her well-meaning sister delivered with such enthusiasm.
Encouraged by the return of Jennyβs ability to laugh, Brenna cast about for something else with which to divert and cheer her. As they neared the crest of the hill, which was blocked by thick woods, she said suddenly, βWhat did Father mean about your having your motherβs βlook about youβ?β
βI donβt know,β Jenny began, diverted by a sudden, uneasy feeling that they were being watched in the deepening dusk. Turning and walking backward, she looked down toward the well and saw the villagers had all returned to the warmth of their hearths. Drawing her cloak about her, she shivered in the biting wind, and without much interest, she added, βMother Abbess said my looks are a trifleΒ brazenΒ and that I must guard against the effect I will have on males when I leave the abbey.β
βWhat does all that mean?β
Jenny shrugged without concern. βI donβt know.β Turning and walking forward again, Jenny remembered the wimple and veil in her fingertips and began to put the wimple back on. βWhat do I look like to you?β she asked, shooting a puzzled glance at Brenna. βI havenβt seen my face in two years, except when I caught a reflection of it in the water. Have I changed much?β
βOh yes,β Brenna laughed. βEven Alexander wouldnβt be able to call you scrawny and plain now, or say that your hair is the color of carrots.β
βBrenna!β Jenny interrupted, thunderstruck by her own callousness. βAre you much grieved by Alexanderβs death? He was your brother andββ
βDonβt talk of it any more,β Brenna pleaded shakily. βI cried when Father told me, but the tears were few and I feel guilty because I didnβt love him as I ought. Not then and not now. I couldnβt. He was soβmean-spirited. Itβs wrong to speak ill of the dead,Β yet I canβt think of muchΒ goodΒ to say of him.β Her voice trailed off, and she pulled her cloak about her in the damp wind, gazing at Jenny in mute appeal to change the subject.
βTell me how I look, then,β Jenny invited quickly, giving her sister a quick, hard hug.
They stopped walking, their way blocked by the dense woods that covered the rest of the slope. A slow, thoughtful smile spread across Brennaβs beautiful face as she studied her stepsister, her hazel eyes roving over Jennyβs expressive face, which was dominated by a pair of large eyes as clear as dark blue crystal beneath gracefully winged, auburn brows. βWell, youβreβyouβre quite pretty!β
βGood, but do you see anythingΒ unusualΒ about me?β Jenny asked, thinking of Mother Ambroseβs words as she put her wimple back on and pinned the short woolen veil in place atop it. βAnything at all which might make a male behave oddly?β
βNo,β Brenna stated, for she saw Jenny through the eyes of a young innocent. βNothing at all.β A man would have answered very differently, for although Jennifer Merrick wasnβt pretty in the conventional way, her looks were both stiking and provocative. She had a generous mouth that beckoned to be kissed, eyes like liquid sapphires that shocked and invited, hair like lush, red-gold satin, and a slender, voluptuous body that was made for a manβs hands.
βYour eyes are blue,β Brenna began helpfully, trying to describe her, and Jenny chuckled.
βThey were blue two years ago,β she said. Brenna opened her mouth to answer, but the words became a scream that was stifled by a manβs hand that clapped over her mouth as he began dragging her backward into the dense cover of the woods.
Jenny ducked, instinctively expecting an attack from behind, but she was too late. Kicking and screaming against a gloved male hand, she was plucked from her feet and hauled into the woods.Β Brenna was tossed over the back of her captorβs horse like a sack of flour, her limp limbs attesting to the fact that sheβd fainted, but Jenny was not so easily subdued. As her faceless adversary dumped her over the back of his horse, she threw herself to the side, rolling free, landing in the leaves and dirt, crawling on all fours beneath his horse, then scrambling to her feet. He caught her again, and Jenny raked her nails down his face, twisting in his hold. βGodβs teeth!β he hissed, trying to hold onto her flailing limbs. Jenny let out a blood-chilling scream, at the same moment she kicked as hard as she could, landing a hefty blow on his shin with the sturdy, black boots which were deemed appropriate footware for novice nuns. A grunt of pain escaped the blond man as he let her go for a split second. She bolted forward and might even have gained a few yards if her booted foot hadnβt caught under a thick tree root and sent her sprawling onto her face, smacking the side of her head against a rock when she landed.
βHand me the rope,β the Wolfs brother said, a grim smile on his face as he glanced at his companion. Pulling his limp captiveβs cloak over her head, Stefan Westmoreland yanked it around her body, using it to pin her arms at her sides, then took the rope from his companion and tied it securely around Jennyβs middle. Finished, he picked up his human bundle and tossed it ignominiously over his horse, her derriΓ¨re pointing skyward, then he swung up into the saddle behind her.
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Elizabeth Cameron, the Countess of Havenhurst, possesses a rare gentleness and fierce courage to match her exquisite beauty. But her reputation is shattered when she is discovered in the arms of Ian Thornton, a notorious gambler and social outcast.Β A dangerously handsome man of secret wealth and mysterious lineage, Ianβs interest in Elizabeth may not be all that it seems. His voyage to her heart is fraught with intrigue, scandal, and a venomous revenge.Β As a twisting path of secrets takes them from Londonβs drawing rooms to the awe-inspiring Scottish Highlands, Elizabeth must learn the truth: is Ian merely a ruthless fortune hunter at heart? βWell-developed main characters with a compelling mutual attraction give strength and charm to this romance set in nineteenth-century Great Britainβ (Publishers Weekly).
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β¦CHAPTER 13
Drawing a long breath, Elizabeth clasped her shaking hands behind her back and decided to try for a truce. βMr. Thornton,β she began quietly, βmust there be enmity between us? I realize my coming here is anΒ .Β .Β . an inconvenience,Β but it was your faultΒ .Β .Β . your mistake,β she corrected cautiously, βthat brought us here. And you must surely see that we have been even more inconvenienced than you.β Encouraged by his lack of argument, she continued. βTherefore, the obvious solution is that we should both try to make the best of things.β
βThe obvious solution,β he countered, βis that I should apologize for βinconveniencingβ you, and then you should leave as soon as I can get you to a carriage or a wagon.β
βI canβt!β she cried, fighting to recover her calm.
βWhy the hell not?β
βBecauseβwellβmy uncle is a harsh man who wonβt like having his instructions countermanded. I was supposed to stay a full sennight.β
βIβll write him a letter and explain.β
βNo!β Elizabeth burst out, imagining her uncleβs reaction if the third man also sent her packing straightaway. He was no fool. Heβd suspect. βHeβll blame me, you see.β
Despite Ianβs resolution not to give a damn what her problems were, he was a little unnerved by her visible fright and by her description of her uncle as βharsh.β Based on her behavior two years ago, he had no doubt Elizabeth Cameron had done much to earn a well-deserved beating from her unfortunate guardian. Even so, Ian had no wish to be the cause of the old man laying a strap to that smooth white skin of hers. What had happened between them was folly on his part, but it had been over long ago. He was about to wed a beautiful, sensual woman who wanted him and who suited him perfectly. Why should he treat Elizabeth as if he harbored any feelings for her, including anger?
Elizabeth sensed that he was wavering a little, and she pressed home her advantage, using calm reason: βSurely nothing that happened between us should make us behave badly to each other now. I mean, when you think on it, it was nothing to us but a harmless weekend flirtation, wasnβt it?β
βObviously.β
βNeither of us was hurt, were we?β
βNo.β
βWell then, thereβs no reason why we should not be cordial to each other now, is there?β she demanded with aΒ bright, beguiling smile. βGood heavens, if every flirtation ended in enmity, no one in theΒ tonΒ would be speaking to anyone else!β
She had neatly managed to put him in the position of either agreeing with her or else, by disagreeing, admitting that she had been something more to him than a flirtation, and Ian realized it. Heβd guessed where her calm arguments were leading, but even so, he was reluctantly impressed with how skillfully she was maneuvering him into having to agree with her. βFlirtations,β he reminded her smoothly, βdonβt normally end in duels.β
βI know, and IΒ amΒ sorry my brother shot you.β
Ian was simply not proof against the appeal in those huge green eyes of hers. βForget it,β he said with an irritated sigh, capitulating to all she was asking. βStay the seven days.β
Suppressing the urge to twirl around with relief, she smiled into his eyes. βThen could we have a truce for the time Iβm here?β
βThat depends.β
βOn what?β
His brows lifted in mocking challenge. βOn whether or not you can make a decent breakfast.β
βLetβs go in the house and see what we have.β
With Ian standing beside her Elizabeth surveyed the eggs and cheese and bread, and then the stove. βI shall fix something right up,β she promised with a smile that concealed her uncertainty.
βAre you sure youβre up to the challenge?β Ian asked, but she seemed so eager, and her smile was so disarming, that he almost believed she knew how to cook.
βI shall prevail, youβll see,β she told him brightly, reaching for a wide cloth and tying it around her narrow waist.
Her glance was so jaunty that Ian turned around to keep himself from grinning at her. She was obviously determined to attack the project with vigor and determination, and he was equally determined not to discourage her efforts. βYou do that,β he said, and he left her alone at the stove.
An hour later, her brow damp with perspiration, Elizabeth grabbed the skillet, burned her hand, and yelped as she snatched a cloth to use on the handle. She arrangedΒ the bacon on a platter and then debated what to do with the ten inch biscuit that had actually been four small biscuits when sheβd placed the pan in the oven. Deciding not to break it into irregular chunks, she placed the entire biscuit neatly in the center of the bacon and carried the platter over to the table, where Ian had just seated himself. Returning to the stove, she tried to dig the eggs out of the skillet, but they wouldnβt come loose, so she brought the skillet and spatula to the table. βIβI thought you might like to serve,β she offered formally, to hide her growing trepidation over the things she had prepared.
βCertainly,β Ian replied, accepting the honor with the same grave formality with which sheβd offered it; then he looked expectantly at the skillet. βWhat have we here?β he inquired sociably.
Scrupulously keeping her gaze lowered, Elizabeth sat down across from him. βEggs,β she answered, making an elaborate production of opening her napkin and placing it on her lap. βIβm afraid the yolks broke.β
βIt doesnβt matter.β
When he picked up the spatula Elizabeth pinned a bright, optimistic smile on her face and watched as he first tried to lift, and then began trying toΒ pryΒ the stuck eggs from the skillet. βTheyβre stuck,β she explained needlessly.
βNo, theyβreΒ bonded,βΒ he corrected, but at least he didnβt sound angry. After another few moments he finally managed to pry a strip loose, and he placed it on her plate. A few moments more and he was able to gouge another piece loose, which he placed on his own plate.
In keeping with the agreed-upon truce they both began observing all the polite table rituals with scrupulous care. First Ian offered the platter of bacon with the biscuit centerpiece to Elizabeth. βThank you,β she said, choosing two black strips of bacon.
Ian took three strips of bacon and studied the flat brown object reposing on the center of the platter. βI recognize the bacon,β he said with grave courtesy, βbut what is that?β he asked, eyeing the brown object. βIt looks quite exotic.β
βItβs a biscuit,β Elizabeth informed him.
βReally?β he said, straight-faced. βWithout any shape?β
βI call it aβaΒ panΒ biscuit,β Elizabeth fabricated hastily.
βYes, I can see why you might,β he agreed. βIt rather resembles the shape of a pan.β
Separately they surveyed their individual plates, trying to decide which item was most likely to be edible. They arrived at the same conclusion at the same moment; both of them picked up a strip of bacon and bit into it. Noisy crunching and cracking sounds ensuedβlike those of a large tree breaking in half and falling. Carefully avoiding each otherβs eyes, they continued crunching away until theyβd both eaten all the bacon on their plates. That finished, Elizabeth summoned her courage and took a dainty bite of egg.
The egg tasted like tough, salted wrapping paper, but Elizabeth chewed manfully on it, her stomach churning with humiliation and a lump of tears starting to swell in her throat. She expected some scathing comment at any moment from her companion, and the more politely he continued eating, the more she wished heβd revert to his usual unpleasant self so that sheβd at least have the defense of anger. Lately everything that happened to her was humiliating, and her pride and confidence were in tatters. Leaving the egg unfinished, she put down her fork and tried the biscuit. After several seconds of attempting to break a piece off with her fingers she picked up her knife and sawed away at it. A brown piece finally broke loose; she lifted it to her mouth and bitβbut it was so tough her teeth only made grooves in the surface. Across the table she felt Ianβs eyes on her, and the urge to weep doubled. βWould you like some coffee?β she asked in a suffocated little voice.
βYes, thank you.β
Relieved to have a moment to compose herself, Elizabeth arose and went to the stove, but her eyes blurred with tears as she blindly filled a mug with freshly brewed coffee. She brought it over to him, then sat down again.
Sliding a glance at the defeated girl sitting with her head bent and her hands folded in her lap, Ian felt a compulsive urge to either laugh or comfort her, but since chewing was requiring such an effort, he couldnβt do either. Swallowing the last piece of egg, he finally managed to say, βThat wasΒ .Β .Β . erΒ .Β .Β . quite filling.β
Thinking perhaps he hadnβt found it so bad as she had,Β Elizabeth hesitantly raised her eyes to his. βI havenβt had a great deal of experience with cooking,β she admitted in a small voice. She watched him take a mouthful of coffee, saw his eyes widen with shockβand he began toΒ chewΒ the coffee.
Elizabeth lurched to her feet, squared her shoulders, and said hoarsely, βI always take a stroll after breakfast. Excuse me.β
Still chewing, Ian watched her flee from the house, then he gratefully got rid of the mouthful of coffee grounds. Elizabethβs breakfast had cured Ianβs hunger, in fact, the idea of ever eating again made his stomach chum as he started for the bam to check on Mayhemβs injury.
He was partway there when he saw her off to the left, sitting on the hillside amid the bluebells, her arms wrapped around her knees, her forehead resting atop them. Even with her hair shining like newly minted gold in the sun, she looked like a picture of heartbreaking dejection. He started to turn away and leave her to moody privacy; then, with a sigh of irritation, he changed his mind and started down the hill toward her.
A few yards away he realized her shoulders were shaking with sobs, and he frowned in surprise. Obviously there was no point in pretending the meal had been good, so he injected a note of amusement into his voice and said, βI applaud your ingenuityβshooting me yesterday would have been too quick.β
Elizabeth started violently at the sound of his voice. Snapping her head up, she stared off to the left, keeping her tear-streaked face averted from him. βDid you want something?β
βDessert?β Ian suggested wryly, leaning slightly forward,Β trying to see her face. He thought he saw a morose smile touch her lips, and he added, βI thought we could whip up a batch of cream and put it on the biscuit. Afterward we can take whatever is left, mix it with the leftover eggs, and use it to patch the roof.β
A teary chuckle escaped her, and she drew a shaky breath but still refused to look at him as she said, βIβm surprised youβre being so pleasant about it.β
βThereβs no sense crying over burnt bacon.β
βI wasnβt crying over that,β she said, feeling sheepish and bewildered. A snowy handkerchief appeared before her face, and Elizabeth accepted it, dabbing at her wet cheeks.
βThen why were you crying?β
She gazed straight ahead, her eyes focused on the surrounding hills splashed with bluebells and hawthorn, the handkerchief clenched in her hand. βI was crying for my own ineptitude, and for my inability to control my life,β she admitted.
The word βineptitudeβ startled Ian, and it occurred to him that for the shallow little flirt he supposed her to be she had an exceptionally fine vocabulary. She glanced up at him then, and Ian found himself gazing into a pair of green eyes the amazing color of wet leaves. With tears still sparkling on her long russet lashes, her long hair tied back in a girlish bow, and her full breasts thrusting against the bodice of her gown, she was a picture of alluring innocence and intoxicating sensuality. Ian jerked his gaze from her breasts and said abruptly, βIβm going to cut some wood so weβll have it for a fire tonight. Afterward Iβm going to do some fishing for our supper. I trust youβll find a way to amuse yourself in the meantime.β
Startled by his sudden brusqueness, Elizabeth nodded and stood up, dimly aware that he did not offer his hand to assist her. Heβd already started to walk away when he turned and added, βDonβt try to clean the house. Jake will be back before evening with women to do that.β
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βJudith McNaught not only spins dreams but makes them come trueβ (RT Book Reviews) in this sensual and moving tale of a tempestuous marriage facing its ultimate test. Alexandra Lawrence, an innocent country girl, and Jordan Townsende, the rich and powerful Duke of Hawthorne, have always had a stormy relationship. But when she is swept into the endlessly fascinating world of London society, free-spirited Alexandra becomes ensnared in a tangled web of jealousy, revenge, and overwhelming passion. But behind her husbandβs cold, haughty mask, there lives a tender, vital, sensual manβ¦the man Alexandra married. Now, she will fight for his very life and the rapturous bond they alone can share.
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β¦CHAPTER 7
βI WONβT DO IT,Β I tell you,β Alexandra burst out, her cheeks flushed with angry color. She glowered at the seamstresses who for three days and nights had been measuring, pinning, sighing, and cutting on the rainbow of fabrics which were now strewn about the room in various stages of becoming day dresses, riding habits, walking costumes, and dressing gowns. She felt like a stuffed mannikin who was permitted no feelings and no rest, whose only purpose was to stand still and be pinned, prodded, and poked, while the duchess looked on, criticizing Alexandraβs every mannerism and movement.
For three entire days she had repeatedly asked to speak with her future husband, but the duke had been βotherwise occupiedβ or so Ramsey, the stony-faced butler, had continually informed her. Occasionally she had glimpsed him in the library talking with gentlemen until late in the afternoon. She and Mary Ellen were served their meals in Alexandraβs room, while he apparently preferred the more interesting company of his grandmother. βOtherwise occupied,β she had now concluded, obviously meant that he didnβt wish to be bothered with her.
After three days of this, Alexandra was tense, irritable, andβmuch to her horrorβvery frightened. Her mother and Uncle Monty were as good as lost to her. Even though they were supposedly staying at an inn a few miles away, they were not permitted to call at Rosemeade. Life yawned before her, a lonely, gaping hole where she would be deniedΒ the companionship of her family and Mary Ellen and even the old servants who had been her friends since babyhood.
βThis is a complete farce!β Alexandra said to Mary Ellen, stamping her foot in frustrated outrage and glaring at the seamstress who had just finished pinning the hem of the lemon-yellow muslin gown Alexandra was wearing.
βStand still, young lady, and cease your theatrics,β her grace snapped frigidly, walking into the room.
For three days the duchess hadnβt spoken a single personal word to her, except to criticize, lecture, instruct, or command. βTheatricsββ Alexandra burst out, as rage swept through her, hot and satisfying. βIf you thinkΒ thatΒ was a theatric, wait until you hear the rest of what I have to say!β The duchess turned as if she intended to leave and, for Alexandra, that was the last straw. βI suggest you wait a moment and let me finish, maβam.β
The duchess turned then, lifting her aristocratic brows, waiting.
The sheer arrogance of her pose made Alexandra so angry that her voice shook. βKindly tell your invisible grandson that the wedding is off, or, if he chooses to materialize, you may send him to me andΒ IβllΒ tell him so.β Afraid she would burst into tears, which she knew the old woman would only mock, she ran from the room, along the balcony and down the staircase.
βWhat,β asked the butler as he opened the front door for her, βshall I tell his graceβshould he inquire as to your whereabouts?β
Pausing in her headlong flight, Alexandra looked Ramsey right in the eye and mimicked, βTell him Iβm βotherwise occupied.βββ
An hour later, as she wandered through the rose garden, her hysteria had cooled to a steely determination. Irritably, she bent and plucked a lovely pink rose and raised it to her nose, inhaling its scent, then she began absently snapping the petals off, one by one, her thoughts in a turmoil. Pink rose petals floated down about her skirts, joining those of the red roses, the white, and the yellow which she had also unconsciously shredded.
βBased on the message you left for me with Ramsey,β said a deep, unperturbed voice behind her, βI gather youβre displeased about something?β
Alexandra whirled in surprise, her relief at finally being able to speak to him eclipsed by the growing panic sheβd been trying unsuccessfully to stifle for days. βIβm displeased aboutΒ everything.β
His amused glance slid to the rose petals strewn about her skirts. βIncluding the roses, evidently,β he observed, feeling slightly guilty for ignoring her these last several days.
Alexandra followed the direction of his gaze, flushed with embarrassment, and said with a mixture of distress and frustration, βThe roses are beautiful, butββ
ββBut you were bored with the way they looked when they had their petals on, is that it?β
Realizing that she was being drawn into a discussion about flowers when her entire life was in chaos, Alexandra drew herself up and said with quiet, implacable firmness, βYour grace, I am not going to marry you.β
He shoved his hands into his pockets and regarded her with mild curiosity. βReally? Why not?β
Trying to think of the best way to explain, Alexandra ran a shaky hand through her dark curls and Jordanβs gaze lifted, watching the unconscious grace of her gestureβ really studying her for the first time. Sunlight glinted in her hair, gilding it with a golden sheen, and turned her magnificent eyes a luminous, turquoise green. The yellow of her gown flattered her creamy complexion and the peach tint glowing at her cheeks.
βWould you please,β Alexandra said in a long-suffering voice, βstop looking at me in that peculiar, appraising way, as if youβre trying to dissect my features and discover all my flaws?β
βWas I doing that?β Jordan asked absently, noting for the first time her high cheekbones and the soft fullness of her lips. As he gazed at that arresting, delicately carved face with its winged brows and long, sooty eyelashes, he couldnβt imagine how heβd ever mistaken her for a lad.
βYouβre playing Pygmalion with my life, and I donβt like it.β
βIβm what?β Jordan demanded, his attention abruptly diverted from her fascinating face.
βIn mythology, Pygmalion wasββ
βIβm familiar with the myth, Iβm merely surprised that a female would be familiar with the classics.β
βYou must have a very limited experience with my sex,β Alexandra said, surprised. βMy grandfather said most women are every bit as intelligent as men.β
She saw his eyes take on the sudden gleam of suppressed laughter and assumed, mistakenly, that he was amused by her assessment of female intelligence rather than her remark about his inexperience with women. βPlease stop treating me as if I havenβt a wit in my head! Everyone in your house does thatβeven your servants are haughty and behave oddly to me.β
βIβll instruct the butler to put wool in his ears and pretend to be deaf,β Jordan teased, βand Iβll order the footmen to wear blinders. Will that make you feel more at home?β
βWill you kindly take me seriously!β
Jordan sobered instantly at her imperious tone. βIβm going to marry you,β he said coolly. βThatβs serious enough.β
Now that she had decided not to marry him, and had told him so, the sharp pain of her decision was lessened a little by the discovery that she no longer felt intimidated and uncomfortable with him. βDo you realize,β she said with a winsome smile as she tilted her head to the side, βthat you become positively grimΒ when you say the word βmarryβ?β When he said nothing, Alexandra laid her hand on his sleeve, as if he was her friend, and gazed into his unfathomable grey eyes, seeing the cynicism lurking in their depths. βI donβt mean to pry, your grace, but are you happy with lifeβwith your life, I mean?β
He looked irritated by her question, but he answered it. βNot particularly.β
βThere you see! We would never suit. Youβre disenchanted with life, but Iβm not.β The quiet inner joy, the courage and indomitable spirit Jordan had sensed in her the night they met, was in her voice now as she lifted her face to the blue sky, her entire being radiant with optimism, innocence, and hope. βI love life, even when bad things happen to me. I canβt stop loving it.β
Transfixed, Jordan stared at her as she stood against a backdrop of vibrant roses and distant green hillsβa pagan maiden addressing the heavens in a sweet, soft voice: βEvery season of the year comes with a promise that something wonderful is going to happen to me someday.Β Iβve had that feeling ever since my grandfather died. Itβs as if heβs telling me to wait for it. In winter, the promise comes with the smell of snow in the air. In summer, I hear it in the boom of thunder and the lightning that streaks across the sky in blue flashes. Most of all, I feel it now, in springtime, when everything is green and blackββ
Her voice trailed off and Jordan repeated blankly, βBlack?β
βYes, blackβyou know, like tree trunks when theyβre wet, and freshly tilled fields that smell likeββ She inhaled, trying to recall the exact scent.
βDirt,β Jordan provided unromantically.
She dropped her gaze from the heavens and looked at him. βYou think me foolish,β she sighed. Stiffening her spine and ignoring the sharp stab of longing she felt for him, she said with calm dignity, βWe cannot possibly wed.β
Jordanβs dark eyebrows drew together over incredulous grey eyes. βYouβve decided that, merely because I donβt happen to think wet dirt smells like perfume?β
βYou havenβt understood a word Iβve said,β Alexandra said desperately. βThe fact of the matter is that if I marry you, youβll make me as unhappy as you areβand if you make me unhappy, Iβll undoubtedly retaliate by making you unhappy, and in a few years, weβll both be as sour as your grandmother. Donβt you dare laugh,β she warned when his lips twitched.
Taking her arm, Jordan walked with her along the flagstone path that separated the rose beds and led to an arbor filled with trees decked out in spring blossoms. βYouβve failed to take one vital fact into consideration: From the moment I carried you into the inn, nothing in your life could ever be the same again. Even if your mother was only bluffing about putting us both through a public trial, your reputation is already destroyed.β Stopping at the entrance to the arbor, he leaned against the trunk of an oak tree and said in a detached, impersonal voice, βIβm afraid you have no choice except to do me the honor of becoming my wife.β
Alexandra chuckled, diverted by his ever-present, courteous formality, even now when she was bluntly refusing his hand in marriage. βMarrying an ordinary girl from Morsham is hardly an βhonorβ for a duke,β she reminded him with cheerful, artless candor, βand despite what you soΒ glibly said when we last parted, you are not my βservant.β Why do you say those things to me?β
He grinned at her infectious merriment. βHabit,β he admitted.
She tipped her head to the side, an enchanting, spirited girl with the wit and courage to spar with him. βDo you never say what youΒ reallyΒ mean?β
βRarely.β
Alex nodded sagely. βApparently, speaking oneβs mind is a privilege reserved for what your grandmother disdainfully refers to as βthe lower classes.β Why do you always seem to be on the verge of laughing at me?β
βFor some unfathomable reason,β he replied in an amused drawl, βI like you.β
βThatβs nice, but it isnβt enough to base a marriage on,β Alexandra persisted, returning to her original concern. βThere are other, essential things likeββ Her voice trailed off in horrified silence.Β Like love,Β she thought. Love was the only essential.
βLike what?β
Unable to choke out the word, Alexandra hastily looked away and shrugged noncommittally.
Love,Β Jordan silently filled in with a resigned sigh, longing to return to his interrupted meeting with his grandmotherβs bailiff. Alexandra wanted love and romance. Heβd forgotten that even innocent, sheltered girls of her tender years would undoubtedly expect a little ardor from their affianced husbands. Adamantly unwilling to stand out here like a besotted fool and try to persuade her to marry him with tender words he didnβt mean, he decided a kiss would be the quickest, most effective, and most expedient way to fulfill his duty and neutralize her misgivings, so that he could resume his meeting.
Alex jumped nervously when his hand suddenly lifted and cupped her cheek, forcing her to give up her embarrassed study of the entrance to the arbor.
βLook at me,β he said in a low, velvety, unfamiliar voice that sent tingles of apprehensive excitement darting up her spine.
Alexandra dragged her eyes to his tanned face. Although no one had ever attempted to seduce or kiss her before, she took one look at the slumberous expression in his heavy-liddedΒ eyes andΒ knewΒ something was in the wind. Instantly wary, she demanded without preamble: βWhat are you thinking?β
His fingers splayed sensuously across her cheek, and he smiledβa slow, lazy smile that made her heart leap into her throat. βIβm thinking about kissing you.β
Alexandraβs fevered imagination promptly ran away with itself as she recalled the novels sheβd read. When kissed by the man they secretly loved, the heroines invariably swooned, or abandoned their virtue, or blurted out professions of undying love. Terrified that she would make just such a cake of herself, Alexandra gave her head an emphatic shake. βNo, really,β she croaked. βIβI donβt think you should. Not just now. Itβs very nice of you to offer, but not just now. Perhaps another time when Iββ
Ignoring her protests, and struggling to hide his amusement, Jordan put his fingertips beneath her chin and tilted her face up for his kiss.
He closed his eyes. Alexandraβs opened wide. He lowered his head. She braced herself to be overcome with ardor. He touched his lips lightly to hers. And then it was over.
Jordan opened his eyes and looked at her to assess her reaction. It wasΒ not the naively rapturous one he expected to see. Alexandraβs eyes were wide with bewilderment andβ yesβdisappointment!
Relieved that she hadnβt made a fool of herself like the heroines of the novels, Alexandra wrinkled her small nose. βIsΒ thatΒ all there is to kissing?β she asked the nobleman whose fiery kisses purportedly made maidens despise their virginity and married women forget their vows.
For a moment, Jordan didnβt move; he studied her with heavy-lidded, speculative grey eyes. Suddenly Alexandra saw something exciting and alarming kindle in those silvery eyes. βNo,β he murmured, βthereβs more,β and his hands encircled her arms, drawing her so close that her breasts almost touched his chest.
His conscience, which Jordan had assumed was long dead, chose that unlikely moment to suddenly assert itself after years of silence.Β You are seducing a child, Hawthorne!Β it warned in acid disgust. Jordan hesitated, more from surprise at the unexpected presence of that long-forgotten inner voice than from guilt at his actions.Β You are deliberatelyΒ seducing a gullible child into doing your bidding because you donβt want to bother taking the time to reason with her.
βWhat are you thinking now?β Alexandra asked warily.
Several evasions occurred to him, but recalling that sheβd scorned polite platitudes, he decided to be truthful. βIβm thinking that Iβm committing the unforgivable act of seducing a child.β
Alexandra, who was relieved rather than disappointed that his kiss had not affected her, felt laughter bubble up inside of her. βSeducing me?β she repeated with a merry chuckle and shook her head, sending her curly hair into fetching disarray. βOh, no, you may put your mind at ease on that score. I think I must be made of sterner stuff than most females who swoon from a kiss and abandon their virtue. I,β she finished candidly, βwas not at all affected by our kiss. Not,β she added charitably, βthat I thought it was gruesome, for it wasnβt, I assure you. It wasΒ .Β .Β . quite nice.β
βThank you,β Jordan said, straight-faced. βYouβre very kind.β Tucking her hand firmly into the crook of his arm, he turned and led her a few steps into the arbor.
βWhere are we going?β she inquired conversationally.
βOut of sight of the house,β he replied dryly, stopping beneath the branches of an apple tree covered with blossoms. βChaste pecks are permissible between an engaged couple in the rose garden; however, more passionate kissing must be done with more discretion, in the arbor.β
Alexandra, who was misled by the matter-of-fact tone of this lecture, failed to instantly absorb the import of his words. βItβs amazing!β she said, laughing up at him. βThere are rules for absolutely everything amongst the nobility. Are there books with all this written down?β But before he could answer, she gasped, βK-kiss me passionately? Why?β
Jordan glanced toward the entrance of the arbor to make certain they were private, then he turned the full seductive force of his silver gaze and lazy smile on the girl standing before him. βItβs my vanity,β he teased in a low voice. βIt chafes at the idea that you nearly dozed off in the middle of my last kiss. Now, letβs see if I can wake you up.β
For the second time in minutes, Jordanβs heretofore silent conscience was outraged. It roared at him:Β You bastard, what do you think youβre doing?
But this time, Jason didnβt hesitate for even a moment.Β He already knew exactlyΒ what he was doing. βNow then,β he said, smiling reassuringly into her enormous blue-green eyes as he matched his actions to his words, βa kiss is a thing to be shared. Iβll put my hands on your arms, thus, and draw you close.β
Puzzled by so much fuss over a kiss, Alexandra glanced down at the strong, long fingers gently imprisoning her upper arms, then at the front of his fine white shirt, before she finally raised her embarrassed gaze to his. βWhere do my hands go?β
Jordan squelched his shout of laughter, as well as the suggestive reply that automatically sprang to his lips. βWhere would you like to put them?β he asked instead.
βIn my pockets?β Alexandra suggested hopefully.
Jordan, who suddenly felt more in the mood for a hearty laugh than a seduction, was nevertheless determined to continue. βThe point I was trying to make,β he explained mildly, βis that itβs perfectly all right for you to touch me.β
I donβt want to,Β she thought frantically.
You will,Β he silently promised with an inner smile, correctly interpreting her mutinous expression. Tipping her chin up, he gazed into those wide, luminous eyes of hers, and tenderness began to unfold within himβa sensation that had been as foreign to him as the voice of his conscience until he met this unspoiled, unpredictable, artless child-woman. He felt, for the moment, as if he was gazing into the eyes of an angel, and he touched her smooth cheek with unconscious reverence. βHave you any idea,β he murmured softly, βhow enchanting you areβand how rare?β
The words he spoke, combined with the touch of his fingertips against her cheek, and the deep, compelling timbre of his voice, had the seductive impact Alexandra had dreaded his kiss would have. She felt as if she were beginning to melt and float inside. She couldnβt pull her gaze from his hypnotic grey eyes; she didnβt want to try. Without realizing what she was doing, she raised her shaking fingertips to his hard jaw, touching his cheek as he was touching hers. βI think,β she whispered achingly, βthat you are beautiful.β
βAlexandraββ The softly spoken word contained a poignant tenderness she hadnβt heard in his voice before,Β and it made her want to tell him everything in her heart. Unaware of the stimulating effect of her caressing fingers and candid turquoise eyes, she continued in the same aching voice, βI think you are as beautiful as Michelangeloβs Davidββ
βDonβtββ he whispered achingly, and his lips took hers in a kiss that was nothing at all like the first one. His mouth slanted over hers with fierce tenderness, while his hand curved around her nape, his fingers stroking her sensitive skin, and as his other arm encircled her waist, moving her tightly to him. Lost in a sea of pure sensation as his lips tasted and courted hers, Alexandra slid her hands up his hard chest and wrapped her arms around his neck, clinging to him for support, innocently and unconsciously molding her body to his length. The moment she did, the seducer became the seduced: Desire exploded in Jordanβs body, and the girl in his arms became an enticing woman. Automatically, he deepened the kiss, his mouth moving with hungry, persuasive insistence on hers, while Alexandra clung tighter to him, sliding her fingers into the crisp hair above his collar, her entire body racked with jolt after jolt of wild pleasure. He kissed her long and lingeringly, then he touched his tongue to her trembling lips, coaxing them to part, insisting, and when they did, his tongue slid between them, filling her mouth. His hand shifted from her back to her midriff, sliding upward toward her breasts.
Whether from fear or desire, Alexandra moaned softly, and the sound somehow penetrated his aroused senses, dousing his desire and dragging him reluctantly back to reality.
Jordan dropped his hands to her narrow waist and raised his head, staring down into her intoxicating young face, unable to believe the passion she had unexpectedly evoked in him.
Dizzy with love and desire, Alexandra felt the heavy thudding of his heart beneath her hand. Gazing up at the firm sensual mouth which had gently, and then fiercely, explored hers, she raised her eyes to his smoldering grey ones.
And she knew.
Something Wonderful had happened. This magnificent,Β handsome, complicated, sophisticated man was her promised gift from fate. He was hers to love.
Bravely ignoring the painful memories of her equally complicated, handsome, sophisticated fatherβs treatment, Alexandra accepted fateβs gift with all the humble gratitude in her bursting heart. Unaware that sanity had returned to Jordan and the expression in his eyes had changed from desire to irritation, Alexandra raised her shining eyes to his. Quietly, without emphasis or shame, she softly said, βI love you.β
Jordan had been expecting something like that the moment she raised her eyes to his. βThank you,β he said, trying to pass her statement off as a casual compliment rather than an avowal he did not want to hear. Mentally he shook his head at how incredibly, disarmingly romantic she was. And how naive. What she felt, he knew, was desire. Nothing more. There was no such thing as loveβthere were only varying degrees of desire, which romantic women and foolish men called βlove.β
He knew he ought to end her infatuation with him right now by telling her bluntly that his own feelings did not match hers and, moreover, that he did not want her to feel as she did about him. That was what heΒ wantedΒ to do. However, his conscience, which was suddenly making a damned nuisance of itself after a silence of decades, would not let him wound her. Even he, callous and cynical and impatient with this nonsense as he now felt, was not callous enough, or cynical enough to deliberately hurt a child who was looking at him with the adoration of a puppy.
So much did she remind him of a puppy that he reacted automatically and, reaching out, he rumpled her thick, silky hair. With smiling gravity, he said, βYou will spoil me with so much flattery,β then he glanced toward the house, impatient to return to his work. βI have to finish going over my grandmotherβs accounts this afternoon and tonight,β he said abruptly. βIβll see you in the morning.β
Alexandra nodded and watched him walk out of the arbor. In the morning, she would be his wife. He had not reacted at all as sheβd hoped he would, when she told him she loved him, but it didnβt matter. Not then. Then she had enough love bursting into bloom in her heart to sustain her.
βAlex?β Mary Ellen rushed into the arbor, her face alive with eager curiosity. βI watched from the windows. You were in here ever so long. Did he kiss you?β
Alexandra sank down on a white, ornamental iron bench beneath a plum tree and chuckled at her friendβs avid expression. βYes.β
Mary Ellen eagerly sat down beside her. βAnd did you tell him you love him?β
βYes.β
βWhat did he do?β she demanded gleefully. βWhat did he say?β
Alexandra shot her a rueful smile. βHe said, βthank you.βββ
*Β Β *Β Β *
Firelight danced gaily in the hearth, banishing the chill of a spring night and casting shadows that cavorted and bobbed on the walls like sprites at an autumn festival. Propped against a pile of pillows in her huge bed, Alexandra watched the entertainment, her expression pensive. Tomorrow was her wedding day.
Drawing her knees up, she wrapped her arms around her legs, staring into the fire. Despite her thrilling discovery that she had fallen in love with her husband-to-be, she was not foolish enough to think she understood him, nor was she naive enough to believe she knew how to make him happy.
She was certain of only two things: She wanted to make him happy and somehow, some way, she would discover the means to do it. The awesome weight of that responsibility was heavy on her mind, and she wished devoutly she had a better notion of what being the wife of a nobleman entailed.
Her knowledge of marriage was limited and not very helpful. Her own father had been like a charming, elegant, eagerly awaited stranger who, when he deigned to visit them, was greeted with eager adoration by his wife and daughter.
Propping her chin on her knees, Alexandra remembered with a pang of pain how she and her mother had fussed over him for as long as he remained, hanging on to his words and following him around, as eager to please him as if he were a god and they his willing worshipers. Humiliation shot through her when she imagined how dull and provincial andΒ gullible she and her mother must have seemed to him. How he must have laughed at their eager adoration!
With brave determination, Alexandra shifted her thoughts to her own marriage. She was quite certain the duke wouldnβt like being treated by his wife with the extreme deference her own mother had shown her father. His grace seemed to enjoy it when she spoke her mind, even if she said something outrageous. Sometimes, she could make him laugh out loud. But how to go on for the next forty years with him?
The only other marriages she had witnessed firsthand were peasant marriages, and in those marriages the wife cooked and cleaned and sewed for her husband. The idea of doing those things for the duke filled her with quiet longing, even while she knew the notion was sheer foolish sentimentality. This house was crawling with servants who anticipated the occupantsβ needs in advance and took steps to make certain their every wish was carried out almost before they thought of it.
With an audible sigh, Alexandra accepted the fact that the Duke of Hawthorne didnβt need her to look after his needs in the way ordinary country-bred wives looked after their husbandsβ. Even so, she couldnβt help conjuring up a wonderful vision of herself, seated across from him in a chair before the fire, her fingers nimbly adding stitches to one of his snowy white shirts. Wistfully, she imagined the look of gratitude and pleasure on his ruggedly handsome face as he watched her mend his shirt. How grateful he would beΒ .Β .Β .
A smothered laugh escaped her as she reconsidered her utter lack of talent with a needle. If she didnβt prick her finger and bleed all over his shirt, she would surely sew the armhole closed or something equally disastrous. The picture of cozy marital bliss faded and her expression became determined.
Every instinct she possessed told her that the duke was a highly complex man, and she hated her youthful inexperience. On the other hand, she was not a featherbrain, despite the fact that his grace seemed to regard her as an amusing child. When necessary, she could draw on a wealth of common sense and practicality. Hadnβt she managed toΒ hold her household together from the time she was fourteen?
Now she had a new challenge ahead of her. She needed to make herself fit to be the Duke of Hawthorneβs wife. His grandmother had already, in the last several days, made a hundred critical remarks about Alexandraβs manners and mannerisms, and although Alex had bridled over what seemed to her be an excessive emphasis on superficial matters of conduct and convention, she secretly intended to learn everything she needed to know. She would make certain her husband never had reason to be ashamed of her.
My husband,Β Alexandra thought as she snuggled down into the pillows. That huge, handsome, elegant aristocrat was going to be her husbandΒ .Β .Β .
β¦CHAPTER 8
Lounging in a big wingback chair the next morning, Anthony studied his cousin with a combination of admiration and disbelief. βHawk,β he chuckled, βI swear to God, what everyone says about you is trueβyouΒ donβtΒ have a nerve in your entire body. This is your wedding day, andΒ IβmΒ more nervous about it than you are.β
Partially dressed in a frilled white shirt, black trousers, and a silver-brocade waistcoat, Jordan was simultaneously carrying on a last-minute meeting with his grandmotherβs estate manager and pacing slowly back and forth across his bedchamber, glancing over a report on one of his business ventures. One step behind him, his beleaguered valet followed doggedly in his wake, smoothing a tiny wrinkle from his finely tailored shirt and brushing microscopic specks of lint from the legs of his trousers.
βHold still, Jordan,β Tony said, laughing with sympathy for the valet. βPoor Mathison is going to drop dead in his tracks from exhaustion.β
βHmm?β Jordan paused to glance inquiringly at Tony, and the stalwart valet seized his chance, snatched up a splendidly tailored black jacket, and held it up so Jordan had little choice but to slide his arms into the sleeves.
βDo you mind telling me how you can be so damned nonchalant about your own marriage? YouΒ areΒ aware that youβre getting married in fifteen minutes, arenβt you?β
Dismissing the estate manager with a nod, Jordan laid aside the report he was reading, and finally shrugged intoΒ the jacket Mathison was still holding out to him, then he turned to the mirror and ran a hand over his jaw to verify the closeness of his shave. βI donβt think of it as getting married,β he said dryly. βI think of it as adopting a child.β
Anthony smiled at the joke and Jordan continued more seriously, βAlexandra will make no demands on my life, nor will my marriage to her require any real changes. After stopping in London to see Elise, Iβll take Alexandra down to Portsmouth and weβll sail along the coast so that I can see how the new passenger ship weβve designed handles, then Iβll drop her off at my house in Devon. Sheβll like Devon. The house there isnβt so large as to completely overwhelm her. Naturally, Iβll return there to see her from time to time.β
βNaturally,β Anthony said wryly.
Without bothering to answer that, Jordan picked up the report heβd been reading and continued scanning it.
βYour beauteous ballerina is not going to like this, Hawk,β Tony put in after a few minutes.
βSheβll be reasonable,β Jordan said absently.
βSo!β the duchess said tautly, sweeping into the room wearing an elegant brown satin gown trimmed in cream lace. βYou truly mean to go through with this mockery of a marriage. You actually intend to try to pass that countrified chit off on Society as a young lady of breeding and culture.β
βOn the contrary,β Jordan said blandly. βI mean to install her in Devon and leave the last part of that toΒ you.Β Thereβs no rush, however. Take a year or two to teach her what she needs to know in order to take her place as my duchess.β
βI couldnβt accomplish that feat in aΒ decade,β his grandmother snapped.
Until then, he had tolerated her objections without rancor, but that remark seemed to push him too far, and his voice took on the cutting edge that intimidated servants and socialites alike. βHow difficult can it be to teach an intelligent girl to act like a vapid, vain henwit!β
The indomitable old woman maintained her stony dignity, but she studied her grandsonβs steely features with something akin to surprise. βThat is how you see females of your own class, then? Vapid and vain?β
βNo,β Jordan said curtly. βThat is how I see them whenΒ they are Alexandraβs age. Later, most of them become much less appealing.β
Like your mother,Β she thought.
Like my mother,Β he thought.
βThat is not true of all females.β
βNo,β Jordan agreed without conviction or interest. βPossibly not.β
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