Kicking off our week with more looks into Judith McNaught’s incredibly awesome books! Β This time we have Miracles, Once and Always, Perfect and Someone to Watch Over Me.
I remember the first time I read Perfect … McNaught had both my heart and stomach in knots, especially with the ending. Β That was when I knew her contemporary stories were going to be just as good as her historicals.
If you haven’t already make sure you check out the previous excerpt stops. Β You’re bound to find something that’ll make you happy.
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MiraclesΒ (in A Holiday of Love)
9781501145711
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Now available for the first time ever as an e-novella, New York Times bestselling author Judith McNaughtβs short historical romance Miraclesβwhich ties up ends left open in the Westmoreland Dynasty Sagaβis available for the first time ever as a standalone e-novella. In Regency London, world-weary lord Nicki du Ville receives an outrageous proposal from Julianna Skeffington, who is Sheridan Bromleighβs charge from Until You.
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β¦Chapter 1-3
THE ROAR OF MUSIC ANDΒ voices began to recede as Julianna Skeffington fled down the terraced steps of a brightly lit country house in which 600 members of Polite Society were attending a masquerade ball. Ahead of her, the formal gardens were aglow with flaring torches and swarming with costumed guests and liveried servants. Beyond the gardens, a large hedge maze loomed in the shadows, offering far better places to hide, and it was there that Julianna headed.
Pressing the hooped skirts of her Marie Antoinette costume closer to her sides, she plunged into the crowd, wending her way as swiftly as possible past knights in armor, court jesters, highwaymen, and an assortment of kings, queens, and Shakespearean characters, as well as a profusion of domestic and jungle creatures.
She saw a path open through the crowd and headed for it, then had to step aside to avoid colliding with a large leafy βtreeβ with red silk apples dangling from its branches. The tree bowed politely to Julianna as it paraded past her, one of its branches curved around the waist of a lady decked out as a milkmaid complete with bucket.
She did not have to slow her pace again until she neared the center of the garden, where a group of musicians was stationed between a pair of Roman fountains, providing music for dancing couples. Excusing herself, she stepped around a tall man disguised as a black tomcat who was whispering in the pink ear of a petite gray mouse. He stopped long enough to cast an appreciative eye over the low bodice of Juliannaβs white ruffled gown, then he smiled boldly into her eyes and winked before returning his attention to the adorable little mouse with the absurdly long whiskers.
Staggered by the abandoned behavior she was witnessing tonight, particularly out here in the gardens, Julianna stole a quick glance over her shoulder and saw that her mother had emerged from the ballroom. She stood on the terraced steps, holding an unknown male by the arm, and slowly scanned the gardens. She was looking for Julianna. With the instincts of a bloodhound, her mother turned and looked straight in Juliannaβs direction.
That familiar sight was enough to make Julianna break into a near run, until she came to the last obstacle in her route to the maze: a large group of particularly boisterous men who were standing beneath a canopy of trees, laughing uproariously at a mock jester who was trying unsuccessfully to juggle apples. Rather than walk in front of their line of vision, thus putting herself in plain view of her mother, she decided it was wiser to go around behind them.
βIf you please, sirs,β she said, trying to sidle between the trees and a row of masculine backs. βI must pass.β Instead of moving quickly out of her way, which common courtesy dictated they should, two of them glanced over their shoulders at her, then theyΒ turned fully around without giving her any extra space.
βWell, well, well, what have we here?β said one of them in a very young and very inebriated voice as he braced his hand on the tree near her shoulder. He shifted his gaze to a servant, who was handing him a glass brimming with some sort of liquor, then he took it and thrust it toward her. βSome βfreshment for you, maβam?β
At the moment Julianna was more worried about escaping her motherβs notice than being accosted by a drunken young lord who could barely stand up and whose companions would surely prevent him from behaving more abominably than he was now. She accepted the glass rather than make a scene, then she ducked under his arm, walked quickly past the others, and hurried toward her destination, the drink forgotten in her hand.
βForget about her, Dickie,β she heard his companion say. βHalf the opera dancers and the demimonde are here tonight. You can have most any female who takes your eye. That one didnβt want to play.β
Julianna remembered hearing that some of the Tonβs high sticklers disapproved of masqueradesβparticularly for gently bred young ladiesβand after what sheβd seen and heard tonight she certainly understood why. With their identities safely concealed behind costumes and masks, members of Polite Society behaved likeΒ .Β .Β . like common rabble!
INSIDE THE MAZE, JULIANNA TOOKΒ the path to the right, darted around the first corner, which happened to turn right, then she pressed her back into the shrubberyβs prickly branches. With her free hand, she tried to flatten the layers of white lace flounces that adorned the hem of her skirts and the low bodice of her gown, but they stood out like quivering beacons in the breezy night.
Her heart racing from emotion, not exertion, she stood perfectly still and listened, separated from the garden by a single tall hedge but out of sight of the entrance. She stared blindly at the glass in her hand and felt angry futility at her inability to prevent her mother from disgracing herself or ruining Juliannaβs life.
Trying to divert herself, Julianna lifted the glass to her nose and sniffed, then she shuddered a little at the strong aroma. It smelled like the stuff her papa drank. Not the Madeira he enjoyed from morning until supper, but the golden liquid he drank after supperβfor medicinal purposes, to calm his nerves, he said.
Juliannaβs nerves were raw. A moment later she heard her motherβs voice come from the opposite sideΒ of the leafy barrier, making her heart hammer with foreboding.
βJulianna, are you out here, dear?β her mother called.
βLord Makepeace is with me, and he is most eager for an introductionΒ .Β .Β .β
Julianna had the mortifying vision of a reluctant Lord Makepeaceβwhoever he wasβbeing dragged mercilessly by the arm through every twist and turn, every corner and cranny, of the twisting maze and torch lit gardens by her determined mother. Unable to endure the awkwardness and embarrassment of one more introduction to some unfortunate, and undoubtedlyΒ unwilling,Β potential suitor whom her mother had commandeered, Julianna backed so far into the scratchy branches that they poked into the pale blond curls of the elaborate coiffure that had taken a maid hours to create.
Overhead, the moon obligingly glided behind a thick bank of clouds, plunging the maze into inky darkness, while her mother continued her shamelessly dishonest monologueβa few feet away on the other side of the hedge.
βJulianna is such a delightfully adventurous girl,β Lady Skeffington exclaimed, sounding frustrated, not proud. βIt is just like her to wander into the gardens to do a bit of exploring.β
Julianna mentally translated her motherβs falsehoods into reality:Β Julianna is an annoying recluse who has to be dragged from her books and her scribbling. It is just like her to hide in the bushes at a time like this.
βShe was so very popular this Season, I cannot think how you havenβt encountered her at some tonnish function or another. In fact, I actually had to insist she restrict her social engagements to no moreΒ than ten each week so that she could have enough rest!β
Julianna hasnβt received ten invitations to social events in the past year, let alone in a single week, but I need an excuse for why you havenβt met her before. With a little luck, youβll believe that rapper.
Lord Makepeace wasnβt that gullible. βReally?β he murmured, in the noncommittal voice of one who is struggling between courtesy, annoyance, and disbelief. βShe sounds an oddβerΒ .Β .Β . unusual female if she doesnβt enjoy social engagements.β
βI never meant to imply such a thing!β Lady Skeffington hastened to say. βJulianna enjoys balls and soirees above all things!β
Julianna would rather have a tooth extracted.
βI truly believe the two of you would deal famously together.β
I intend to get her off our hands and well wed, my good man, and you have the prerequisites for a husband: You are male, of respectable birth, and adequate fortune.
βShe is not at all the sort of pushing female one encounters too often these days.β
She wonβt do a thing to show herself off to advantage.
βOn the other hand, she has definite attributes that no male could miss.β
To make certain of it tonight, I insisted she wear a costume so revealing that it is better suited to a married flirt than to a girl of eighteen.
βBut she is not at all fast.β
Despite the low dΓ©colletage on her gown, you must not evenΒ tryΒ to touch her without asking for her hand first.
Lord Makepeaceβs desire for freedom finally overcame the dictates of civility. βI really must return to the ballroom, Lady Skeffington. IβI believe I have the next dance with Miss Topham.β
The realization that her prey was about to escapeβand into the clutches of the Seasonβs most popular debutanteβdrove Juliannaβs mama to retaliate by telling the greatest lie of her matchmaking life. Shamelessly inventing a nonexistent relationship between Julianna and the most eligible bachelor in England, she announced, βItβs just as well we return to the ball! I believe Nicholas DuVille himself has claimed Juliannaβs next waltz!β
Lady Skeffington must have hurried after the retreating lord because their voices became more distant. βMr. DuVille has repeatedly singled our dear Julianna out for particular attention. In fact, I have reason to believe his sole reason for coming here this evening was so that he could spend a few moments with her! No, really, sir, it is the truth, though I shouldnβt like for anyone but you to know it.Β .Β .Β .β
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Further down the maze, the Baron of Penwarrenβs ravishing young widow stood with her arms wrapped around Nicholas DuVilleβs neck, her eyes laughing into his as she whispered, βPlease donβt tell me Lady Skeffington actually coercedΒ youΒ into dancing with her daughter, Nicki. NotΒ you,Β of all people. If she has, and you do it, you wonβt be able to walk into a drawing room in England without sending everyone into whoops. If you hadnβt been in Italy all summer, youβd know itβs become a game of wits among the bachelors to thwart that odious creature. Iβm perfectly serious,β Valerie warned as his only reaction was one of mild amusement, βthat woman would resort to anything to get a rich husband for her daughter and secure her own position in Society! Absolutely anything!β
βThank you for the warning, chΓ©rie,β Nicki said dryly. As it happens, I had a brief introduction to Lady Skeffingtonβs husband shortly before I left for Italy. I have not, however, set eyes on the motherΒ orΒ the daughter, let alone promised to dance with either of them.β
She sighed with relief. βI couldnβt imagine how you could have been that foolish. Julianna is a remarkably pretty thing, actually, but sheβs not at all in your usual style. Sheβs very young, very virginal, and I understand she has an odd habit of hiding behind draperies βor some such.β
βShe sounds delightful,β Nicki lied with a chuckle.
βShe is nothing like her mama, in any case.β She paused for an eloquent little shudder to illustrate what she was about to say next. βLady Skeffington is so eager to be a part of Society that she positively grovels. If she werenβt so encroaching and ambitious, sheβd be completely pathetic.β
βAt the risk of appearing hopelessly obtuse,β Nicki said, losing patience with the entire discussion, βwhy in hell did you invite them to your masquerade?β
βBecause, darling,β Valerie said with a sigh, smoothing her fingers over his jaw with the familiarity of shared intimacies, βthis past summer, little Julianna somehow became acquainted with the new Countess of Langford, as well as her sister-in-law, the Duchess of Claymore. At the beginning of the Season, the countess and the duchess made it known they desire little Julianna to be welcome amongst the Ton, then they both left for Devon with their husbands. Since no one wants to offend the Westmore lands, and since Lady Skeffington offends all of us, we all waited until the very last week of the Season to do our duty and invite them to something. Unluckily, of the dozens of invitations Lady Skeffington received for tonight, mine was the one she acceptedβprobably because she heardΒ youΒ were going to be here.β
She stopped suddenly, as if struck by a delightful possibility. βEveryone has been longing to discoverΒ how Julianna and her obnoxious mama happened to become acquainted with the countess and the duchess, and I would wagerΒ you know the answer, donβt you! Gossip has it that you wereΒ extremelyΒ well acquainted with both ladies before they were married.β
To Valerieβs astonishment, his entire expression became distant, shuttered, and his words conveyed a chilly warning. βDefine what you mean by βextremely well acquainted,β Valerie.β
Belatedly realizing that she had somehow blundered into dangerous territory, Valerie made a hasty strategic retreat to safer ground. βI meant only that you are known to be a close friend of both ladies.β
Nicki accepted her peace offering with a slight nod and allowed her to retreat in dignity, but he did not let the matter drop completely. βTheir husbands areΒ alsoΒ close friends of mine,β he said pointedly, though that was rather an exaggeration. He was on friendly terms with Stephen and Clayton Westmoreland, but neither man was particularly ecstatic about their wifeβs friendship with Nickiβa situation that both ladies had laughingly confided would undoubtedly continue βuntil you are safely wed, Nicki, and as besotted with your own wife as Clayton and Stephen are with us.β
βSince you arenβt yet betrothed to Miss Skeffington,β Valerie teased softly, pulling his attention back to her as she slid her fingers around his nape, βthere is nothing to prevent us from leaving by the side of this maze and going to your bedchamber.β
From the moment sheβd greeted him in the house, Nicki had known that suggestion was going to come, and he considered it now in noncommittal silence. There was nothing stopping him from doing that. Nothing whatsoever, except an inexplicable lack of interest in what he knew from past trysts with ValerieΒ would be almost exactly one hour and thirty minutes of uninhibited sexual intercourse with a highly skilled and eager partner. That exercise would be preceded by a glass and a half of excellent champagne, and followed by half a glass of even better brandy. Afterward, he would pretend to be disappointed when she felt obliged to return to her own bed βto keep the servants from gossiping.β Very civilized, very considerate, veryΒ predictable.
Lately, the sheer predictability of his lifeβand everyone in it, including himselfβwas beginning to grate on him. Whether he was in bed with a woman or gambling with friends, he automatically did and said all the properβand improperβthings at the appropriate time. He associated with men and women of his own class who were all as bland and socially adept as he was.
He was beginning to feel as if he were a damned marionette, performing on a stage with other marionettes, all of whom danced to the same tune, written by the same composer.
Even when it came to illicit liaisons such as the one Valerie was suggesting, there was a prescribed ritual to be followed that varied only according to whether the lady was wed or not, and whether he was playing the role of seducer or seduced. Since Valerie was widowed and had assumed the role of seducer tonight, he knew exactly how she would react if he declined her suggestion. First she would poutβbut very prettily; then she would cajole; and then she would offer enticements. He, being the βseduced,β would hesitate, then evade, and then postpone until she gave up, but he would never actually refuse. To do so would be unforgivably rudeβa clumsy misstep in the intricate social dance they all performed to perfection.
Despite all that, Nicki waited before answering, halfΒ expecting his body to respond favorably to her suggestion, even though his mind was not. When that didnβt happen, he shook his head and took the first step in the dance: hesitation. βI should probably sleep first, chΓ©rie. I had a trying week, and Iβve been up for the last two days.β
βSurely you arenβt refusing me, are you, darling?β she asked. Pouting prettily.
Nicki switched smoothly to evasion. βWhat about your party?β
βIβd rather be with you. I havenβt seen you in months, and besides, the party will go on without me. My servants are trained to perfection.β
βYour guests are not,β Nicki pointed out, still evading since she was still cajoling.
βTheyβll never know weβve left.β
βThe bedchamber you gave me is next to your motherβs.β
βShe wonβt hear us even if you break the bed as you did the last time we used that chamber. Sheβs deaf as a stone.β Nicki was about to proceed to the postponement stage, but Valerie surprised him by accelerating the procedure and going straight to enticements before he could utter his lines in this trite little play that had become his real life. Standing on tiptoe, she kissed him thoroughly, her hands sliding up and down his chest, her parted lips inviting his tongue.
Nicki automatically put his arm around her waist and complied, but it was an empty gesture born of courtesy, not reciprocity. When her hands slid lower, toward the waistband of his trousers, he dropped his arm and stepped back, suddenly revolted as well as bored with the entire damned charade. βNot tonight,β he said firmly.
Her eyes silently accused him of an unforgivable breach of the rules. Softening his voice, he took her byΒ the shoulders, turned her around, and gave her an affectionate pat on the backside to send her on her way. βGo back to your quests, chΓ©rie.β Already reaching into his pocket for a thin cheroot, he added with polite finality, βIβll follow you after a discreet time.β
UNAWARE THAT SHE WAS NOTΒ alone in the cavernous maze, Julianna waited in tense silence to be absolutely certain her mother wasnβt going to return. After a moment she gave a ragged sigh and dislodged herself from her hiding place.
Since the maze seemed like the best place to hide for the next few hours, she turned left and wandered down a path that opened into a square grassy area with an ornate stone bench in the center.
Morosely, she contemplated her situation, looking for a way out of the humiliating and untenable trap she was in, but she knew there was no escape from her motherβs blind obsession with seeing Julianna wed to someone of βreal consequenceββnow, while the opportunity existed. Thus far all that had prevented her mother from accomplishing this goal was the fact that no βeligibleβ suitor βof real consequenceβ had declared himself during the few weeks Julianna had been in London.
Unfortunately, just before theyβd left London to come here, her mother had succeeded in wringing an offer of marriage from Sir Francis Bellhaven, a repulsive, elderly, pompous knight with pallid skin, protruding hazel eyes that seemed to delve down Juliannaβs bodice, and thick pale lips that never failed to remind her of a dead goldfish. The thought of being bound for an entire evening, let alone the rest of her life, to Sir Francis was unendurable. Obscene. Terrifying.
Not that she was going to have any choice in the matter. If she wanted a real choice, then hiding in here from other potential suitors her mother commandeered was the last thing she ought to be doing. She knew it, but she couldnβt make herself go back to that ball. She didnβt evenΒ wantΒ a husband. She was already eighteen years old, and she had other plans, other dreams, for her life, but they didnβt coincide with her motherβs and so they werenβt going to matter. Ever. What made it all so much more frustrating was that her mother actuallyΒ believedΒ she was acting in Juliannaβs best interests and that she knew what was ultimately best for her.
The moon slid out from behind the clouds, and Julianna stared at the pale liquid in her glass. Her father said a bit of brandy never hurt anyone, that it eased all manner of ailments, improved digestion, and cured low spirits. Julianna hesitated, and then in a burst of rebellion and desperation, she decided to test the latter theory. Lifting the glass, she pinched her nostrils closed, tipped her head back, and took three large swallows. She lowered the glass, shuddering and gasping. And waited. For an explosion of bliss. Seconds passed, then one minute. Nothing. All she felt was a slight weakness in her knees and a weakening of her defenses against the tears of futility brimming in her eyes.
In deference to her shaky limbs, Julianna stepped over to the stone bench and sat down. The bench had obviously been occupied earlier that evening, because there was a half-empty glass of spirits on the end of it and several empty glasses beneath it. After a moment she took another sip of brandy and gazed into the glass, swirling the golden liquid so that it gleamed in the moonlight as she considered her plight.
How she wished her grandmother were still alive! Grandmama would have put a stop to Juliannaβs motherβs mad obsession with arranging a βsplendid marriage.β Sheβd have understood Juliannaβs aversion to being forced into marriage with anyone. In all the world, her fatherβs dignified mother was the only person who had ever seemed to understand Julianna. Her grandmother had been her friend, her teacher, her mentor.
At her knee Julianna had learned about the world, about people; there and there alone she was encouraged to think for herself and to say whatever she thought, no matter how absurd or outrageous it might seem. In return, her grandmother had always treated her as an equal, sharing her own unique philosophies about anything and everything, from Godβs purpose for creating the earth to myths about men and women.
Grandmother Skeffington did not believe marriage was the answer to a womanβs dreams, or even that males were more noble or more intelligent than females! βConsider for a moment my own husband as an example,β she said with a gruff smile one wintry afternoon just before the Christmas when Julianna was fifteen. βYou did not know your grandfather, God rest his soul, but if he had a brain with which to think, I never saw the evidence of it. Like all his forebears, he couldnβt tally two figures in his head or write an intelligent sentence, and he had less sense than a suckling babe.β
βReally?β Julianna said, amazed and a little appalled by this disrespectful assessment of a deceased man who had been her grandmotherβs husband and Juliannaβs grandsire.
Her grandmother nodded emphatically. βThe Skeffington men have all been like thatβunimaginative, slothful clods, the entire lot of them.β
βBut surely you arenβt saying Papa is like that,β Julianna argued out of loyalty. βHeβs your only living child.β
βI would never describe your papa as a clod,β she said without hesitation. βI would describe him as a muttonhead!β
Julianna bit back a horrified giggle at such heresy, but before she could summon an appropriate defense, her grandmother continued: βThe Skeffington women, on the other hand, have often displayed streaks of rare intelligence and resourcefulness. Look closely and you will discover that it is generally females who survive on their wits and determination, not males. Men are not superior to women except in brute strength.β
When Julianna looked uncertain, her grandmother added smugly, βIf you will read that book I gave you last week, you will soon discover that women were not always subservient to men. Why, in ancient times, we had the power and the reverence. We were goddesses and soothsayers and healers, with the secrets of the universe in our minds and the gift of life in our bodies. We chose our mates, not the other way around. Men sought our counsel and worshiped at our feet and envied our powers. Why, we were superior to them in every way. We knew it, and so did they.β
βIf we were truly the more clever and the more gifted,β Julianna said when her grandmother lifted her brows, looking for a reaction to that staggering information, βthen how did we lose all that power andΒ respect and let ourselves become subservient to men?β
βTheyΒ convincedΒ us we neededΒ theirΒ brute strength forΒ ourΒ protection,β she said with a mixture of resentment and disdain. βThen they βprotectedβ us right out of all our privileges and rights. TheyΒ trickedΒ us.β
Julianna found an error in that logic, and her brow furrowed in thought. βIf that is so,β she said after a moment, βthen they couldnβt have been quite so dull-witted as you think. They had to be very clever, did they not?β
For a split second her grandmother glowered at her, then she cackled with approving laughter. βA good point, my dear, and one that bears considering. I suggest you write that thought down so that you may examine it further. Perhaps you will write a book of your own on how males have perpetrated that fiendish deception upon females over the centuries. I only hope you will not decide to waste your mind and your talents on some ignorant fellow who wants you for that face of yours and tries to convince you that your only value is in breeding his children and looking after his wants. You could make a difference, Julianna. I know you could.β
She hesitated, as if deciding something, then said, βThat brings us to another matter I have been wishing to discuss with you. This seems like as good a time as will come along.β
Grandmother Skeffington got up and walked over to the fireplace on the opposite wall of the cozy little room, her movements slowed by advancing age, her silver hair twisted into a severe coil at her neck. Bracing one hand on the evergreen boughs sheβd arranged on the mantel, she bent to stir the coals. βAs you know, I have already outlived a husband and one son. I have lived long, and I am fully prepared to endΒ my days on this earth whenever my time arrives. Although I shall not always be here for you, I hope to compensate for that by leaving something behind for youΒ .Β .Β . an inheritance that is for you to spend. It isnβt much.β
The subject of her grandmotherβs death had never come up before, and the mere thought of losing her made Juliannaβs chest tighten with dread.
βAs I said, it isnβt much, but if you are extremely thrifty, it could allow you to live very modestly in London for quite a few years while you experience more of life and hone your writing skills.β
In her heart Julianna argued frantically that life without her grandmother was unthinkable, that she had no wish to live in London, and that their shared dream that she might actually become a noteworthy writer was only an impossible fantasy. Afraid that such an emotional outburst would offend the woman, Julianna remained seated upon the footstool in front of her grandmotherβs favorite overstuffed chair, inwardly a mass of raw emotions, outwardly controlled, calmly perusing a book. βHave you nothing to say to my plans for you, child? I rather expected to see you leap with joy. Some small display of enthusiasm would be appropriate here in return for the economies Iβve practiced in order to leave you this tiny legacy.β
She was prodding, Julianna knew, trying to provoke her into either a witty rejoinder or an unemotional discussion. Julianna was very good at both after years of practice, but she was as incapable of discussing her grandmotherβs death with humor as she was with impersonal calm. Moreover, she was vaguely wounded that her grandmother could talk of leaving her forever without any indication of regret.
βI must say you donβt seem very grateful.β
Juliannaβs head snapped up, her violet eyes sparklingΒ with angry tears. βI am not at all grateful, Grandmama, nor do I wish to discuss this now. It is nearly Christmas, a time for joyousββ
βDeath is a fact of life,β her grandmother stated flatly. βIt is pointless to cower from it.β
βBut you areΒ myΒ whole life,β Julianna burst out because she couldnβt stop herself. βAndβand I donβt like it in the least that youβyou can speak to me of money as if itβs a recompense for your death.β
βYou think me cold and callous?β
βYes, I do!β
It was their first harsh argument, and Julianna hated it.
Her grandmother regarded her in serene silence before asking, βDo you know what I shall miss when I leave this earth?β
βNothing, evidently.β
βI shall miss one thing and one thing alone.β When Julianna didnβt ask for an explanation, her grandmother provided it: βI shall miss you.β
The answer was in such opposition to her unemotional voice and bland features that Julianna stared dubiously at her.
βI shall miss your humor and your confidences and your amazing gift for seeing the logic behind both sides of any issue. I shall particularly miss reading what youβve written each day. You have been the only bright spot in my existence.β
As she finished, she walked forward and laid her cool hand on Juliannaβs cheek, brushing away the tears trickling from the corner of her eye. βWe are kindred spirits, you and I. If you had been born much sooner, we would have been bosom friends.β
βWeΒ areΒ friends,β Julianna whispered fiercely as she placed her own hand over her grandmotherβs and rubbed her cheek against it. βWe will be friends forever and always! When you areΒ .Β .Β . gone, I shall still confide in you and write for youβshall write letters to you as if you had merely moved away!β
βWhat a diverting idea,β her grandmother teased. βAnd will you also post them to me?β
βOf course not, but youβll know what I have written nonetheless.β
βWhat makes you think that?β she asked, genuinely puzzled.
βBecause I heard you tell the vicar very bluntly that it is illogical to assume that the Almighty intends to let us lie around dozing until Judgment Day. You said that, having repeatedly warned us that we shall reap what we sow, God is moreΒ likely to insist we observe what we have sown from a muchΒ wider viewpoint.β
βI do not think it wise, my dear, for you to put more credence in my theological notions than in those of the good vicar. I shouldnβt like for you to waste your talent writing to me after Iβm gone, instead of writing something for the living to read.β
βI shanβt be wasting my time,β Julianna said with a confident smile, one of their familiar debates over nonsense lifting her spirits. βIf I write you letters, I have every faith you will contrive a way to read them wherever you may be.β
βBecause you credit me with mystical powers?β
βNo,β Julianna teased, βbecause you cannot resist correcting myΒ spelling!β
βImpertinent baggage,β her grandmother huffed, but she smiled widely and her fingers spread, linking with Juliannaβs for a tight, affectionate squeeze.
The following year, on the eve of Christmas, her grandmother died, holding Juliannaβs hand one last time. βIβll write to you, Grandmama.β Julianna wept as her grandmotherβs eyes closed forever. βDonβt forget to watch for my letters. DonβtΒ forget.β
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Victoria Seaton, a blithe and fiercely independent orphan, leaves her home in America to travel across the vast Atlantic to claim her long-lost inheritance: a labyrinthine English estate named Wakefield. There she encounters her distant cousin, the notorious, proud, and mysterious Lord Jason Fielding. Drawn to his magnetic charisma, Victoria canβt help but suspect that like her, he harbors a dark and painful past. Neither Victoria or Jason are able to resist one anotherβs charm but, in a moment of blinding anguish, Victoria discovers the shocking truth that lays at the heart of their loveβa love she had dreamed would triumph.
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β¦Chapters 2-3
βVICTORIA, ARE YOU ABSOLUTELY CERTAINΒ your mother never mentioned either the Duke of Atherton or the Duchess of Claremont to you?β
Victoria tore her thoughts from aching memories of her parentsβ funeral and looked at the elderly, white-haired physician seated across from her at the kitchen table. As her fatherβs oldest friend, Dr. Morrison had taken on the responsibility of seeing the girls settled, as well as of trying to care for Dr. Seaton’s patients until the new physician arrived. βAll Dorothy or I ever knew was that Mama was estranged from her family in England. She never spoke of them.β
βIs it possible your father had relatives in Ireland?β
βPapa grew up in an orphansβ home there. He had no relatives.β She stood up restlessly. βMay I fix you some coffee, Dr. Morrison?β
βStop fussing over me and go sit outside in the sunshine with Dorothy,β Dr. Morrison chided gently. βYouβre pale as a ghost.β
βIs there anything you need, before I go?β Victoria persisted.
βI need to be a few years younger,β he replied with a grimΒ smile as he sharpened a quill. βI’m too old to carry the burden of your fatherβs patients. I belong back in Philadelphia with a hot brick beneath my feet and a good book on my lap. How Iβm to carry on here for four more months until the new physician arrives, I canβt imagine.β
βIβm sorry,β Victoria said sincerely. βI know itβs been terrible for you.β
βItβs been a great deal worse for you and Dorothy,β the kindly old doctor said. βNow, run along outside and get some of this fine winter sunshine. Itβs rare to see a day this warm in January. While you sit in the sun, Iβll write these letters to your relatives.β
A week had passed since Dr. Morrison had come to visit the Seatons, only to be summoned to the scene of the accident where the carriage bearing Patrick Seaton and his wife had plunged down a riverbank, overturning. Patrick Seaton had been killed instantly. Katherine had regained consciousness only long enough to try to answer Dr. Morrisonβs desperate inquiry about her relatives in England. In a feeble whisper, she had said, β.Β .Β . GrandmotherΒ .Β .Β . Duchess of Claremont.β
And then, just before she died, she had whispered another nameβCharles. Frantically Dr. Morrison had begged her for his complete name, and Katherineβs dazed eyes had opened briefly. βFielding,β she had breathed. β.Β .Β . DukeΒ .Β .Β . ofΒ .Β .Β . Atherton.β
βIs he a relative?β he demanded urgently.
After a long pause, sheβd nodded feebly. βCousinββ
To Dr. Morrison now fell the difficult task of locating and contacting these heretofore unknown relatives to inquire whether either of them would be willing to offer Victoria and Dorothy a homeβa task that was made even more difficult because, as far as Dr. Morrison could ascertain, neither the Duke of Atherton nor the Duchess of Claremont had any idea the girls existed.
With a determined look upon his brow, Dr. Morrison dipped the quill in the inkwell, wrote the date at the top of the first letter, and hesitated, his brow furrowed in thought. βHow does one properly address a duchess?β he asked the empty room. After considerable contemplation, he arrived at a decision and began writing.
Dear Madam Duchess,
It is my unpleasant task to advise you of the tragic death of your granddaughter, Katherine Seaton, and to further advise you that Mrs. Seatonβs two daughters, Victoria and Dorothy, are now temporarily in my care. However, I am an old man, and a bachelor besides. Therefore, Madam Duchess, I cannot properly continue to care for two orphaned young ladies.
Before she died, Mrs. Seaton mentioned only two namesβyours and that of Charles Fielding. I am, therefore, writing to you and to Sir Fielding in the hope that one or both of you will welcome Mrs. Seatonβs daughters into your home. I must tell you that the girls have nowhere else to go. They are sadly short of funds and in dire need of a suitable home.
Dr. Morrison leaned back in his chair and scrutinized the letter while a frown of concern slowly formed on his forehead. If the duchess was unaware of the girlsβ existence, he could already foresee the old ladyβs possible unwillingness to house them without first knowing something about them. Trying to think how best to describe them, he turned his head and gazed out the window at the girls.
Dorothy was seated upon the swing, her slim shoulders drooping with despair. Victoria was determinedly applying herself to her sketching in an effort to hold her grief at bay.
Dr. Morrison decided to describe Dorothy first, for she was the easiest.
Dorothy is a pretty girl, with light yellow hair and blue eyes. She is sweet-dispositioned, well-mannered, and charming. At seventeen, she is nearly of an age to marry, but has shown no particular inclination to settle her affections on any one young gentleman in the district.Β .Β .Β .
Dr. Morrison paused and thoughtfully stroked his chin. In truth, many young gentlemen in the district were utterly smitten with Dorothy. And who could blame them? She was pretty and gay and sweet. She was angelic, Dr. MorrisonΒ decided, pleased that he had hit upon exactly the right word to describe her.
But when he turned his attention to Victoria, his bushy white brows drew together in bafflement, for although Victoria was his personal favorite, she was far harder to describe. Her hair was not golden like Dorothyβs, nor was it truly red; rather, it was a vivid combination of both. Dorothy was a pretty thing, a charming, demure young lady who turned all the local boysβ heads. She was perfect material for a wife: sweet, gentle, soft-spoken, and biddable. In short, she was the sort of female who would never contradict or disobey her husband.
Victoria, on the other hand, had spent a great deal of time with her father and, at eighteen, she possessed a lively wit, an active mind, and a startling tendency to think for herself.
Dorothy would think as her husband told her to think and do what he told her to do, but Victoria would think for herself and very likely do asΒ sheΒ thought best.
Dorothy was angelic, Dr. Morrison decided, but Victoria wasΒ .Β .Β . not.
Squinting through his spectacles at Victoria, who was resolutely sketching yet another picture of the vine-covered garden wall, he stared at her patrician profile, trying to think of the words to describe her. Brave, he decided, knowing she was sketching because she was trying to stay busy rather than dwell on her grief. And compassionate, he thought, recalling her efforts to console and cheer her fatherβs sick patients.
Dr. Morrison shook his head in frustration. As an old man, he enjoyed her intelligence and her sense of humor; he admired her courage, spirit, and compassion. But if he emphasized those qualities to her English relatives, they would surely envision her as an independent, bookish, unmarriageable female whom they would have on their hands forever. There was still the possibility that when Andrew Bainbridge returned from Europe in several months, he would formally request Victoriaβs hand, but Dr. Morrison wasnβt certain. Victoriaβs father and Andrewβs mother had agreed that, before the young couple became betrothed, their feelings for one another should be tested during this six-month period while Andrew took an abbreviated version of the Grand Tour.
Victoriaβs affection for Andrew had remained strong and constant, Dr. Morrison knew, but Andrewβs feelings for her were apparently wavering. According to what Mrs. Bainbridge had confided to Dr. Morrison yesterday, Andrew seemed to be developing a strong attraction to his second cousin, whose family he was currently visiting in Switzerland.
Dr. Morrison sighed unhappily as he continued to gaze at the two girls, who were dressed in plain black gowns, one with shining golden hair, the otherβs gleaming pale copper. Despite the somberness of their attire, they made a very fetching picture, he thought fondly. A picture! Seized by inspiration, Dr. Morrison decided to solve the whole problem of describing the girls to their English relatives by simply enclosing a miniature of them in each letter.
That decision made, he finished his first letter by asking the duchess to confer with the Duke of Atherton, who was receiving an identical letter, and to advise what they wished him to do in the matter of the girlsβ care. Dr. Morrison wrote the same letter to the Duke of Atherton; then he composed a short note to his solicitor in New York, instructing that worthy gentleman to have a reliable person in London locate the duke and the duchess and deliver the letters to them. With a brief prayer that either the duke or the duchess would reimburse him for his expenditures, Dr. Morrison stood up and stretched.
Outside in the garden, Dorothy nudged the ground with the toe of her slipper, sending the swing twisting listlessly from side to side. βI still cannot quite believe it,β she said, her soft voice filled with a mixture of despair and excitement. βMama was the granddaughter of a duchess! What does that make us, Tory? Do we have titles?β
Victoria sent her a wry glance. βYes,β she said. βWe are βPoor Relations.βββ
It was the truth, for although Patrick Seaton had been loved and valued by the grateful country folk whose ills he had treated for many years, his patients had rarely been able to pay him with coin, and he had never pressed them to do so. They repaid him instead with whatever goods and services they were able to provideβwith livestock, fish, and fowl for his table, with repairs to his carriage and to his home, with freshly baked loaves of bread and baskets of juicy, handpicked berries. As a result, the Seaton family had never wanted for food, but money was ever in short supply, as evidenced by the oft-mended, hand-dyed gowns Dorothy and Victoria were both wearing. Even the house they lived in had been provided by the villagers, just as they provided one for Reverend Milby, the minister. The houses were loaned to the occupants in return for their medical and pastoral services.
Dorothy ignored Victoriaβs sensible summation of their status and continued dreamily, βOur cousin is a duke, and our great-grandmother is a duchess! I still cannot quite believe it, can you?β
βI always thought Mama was something of a mystery,β Victoria replied, blinking back the tears of loneliness and despair that misted her blue eyes. βNow the mystery is solved.β
βWhat mystery?β
Victoria hesitated, her sketching pencil hovering above her tablet. βI only meant that Mama was different from every other female I have ever known.β
βI suppose she was,β Dorothy agreed, and lapsed into silence.
Victoria stared at the sketch that lay in her lap while the delicate lines and curves of the meandering roses sheβd been drawing from her memory of last summer blurred before her moist eyes. The mystery was solved.Β NowΒ she understood a great many things that had puzzled and troubled her. Now she understood why her mother had never mingled comfortably with the other women of the village, why she had always spoken in the cultured tones of an English gentlewoman and stubbornly insisted that, at least in her presence, Victoria and Dorothy do the same. Her heritage explained her motherβs insistence that they learn to read and speak French in addition to English. It explained her fastidiousness. It partially explained the strange, haunted expression that crossed her features on those rare occasions when she mentioned England.
Perhaps it even explained her strange reserve with her own husband, whom she treated with gentle courtesy, but nothing more. Yet she had, on the surface, been an exemplary wife. She had never scolded her husband, never complained about her shabby-genteel existence, and never quarreled with him. Victoria had long ago forgiven her mother for not loving her father. Now that she realized her mother must have been reared in incredible luxury, she was also inclined to admire her uncomplaining fortitude.
Dr. Morrison walked into the garden and beamed an encouraging smile at both girls. βIβve finished my letters and I shall send them off tomorrow. With luck, we should have your relativesβ replies in three monthsβ time, perhaps less.β He smiled at both girls, pleased at the part he was trying to play in reuniting them with their noble English relatives.
βWhat do you think theyβll do when they receive your letters, Dr. Morrison?β Dorothy asked.
Dr. Morrison patted her head and squinted into the sunshine, drawing upon his imagination. βTheyβll be surprised, I suppose, but they wonβt let it showβthe English upper classes donβt like to display emotion, Iβm told, and theyβre sticklers for formality. Once theyβve read the letters, theyβll probably send polite notes to each other, and then one of them will call upon the other to discuss your futures. A butler will carry in teaββ
He smiled as he envisioned the delightful scenario in all its detail. In his mind he pictured two genteel English aristocratsβwealthy, kindly peopleβwho would meet in an elegant drawing room to partake of tea from a silver tray before they discussed the future of their heretofore unknownβbut cherishedβyoung relatives. Since the Duke of Atherton and the Duchess of Claremont were distantly related through Katherine they would, of course, be friends, allies.Β .Β .Β .
βHER GRACE, THEΒ DOWAGERΒ DUCHESSΒ of Claremont,β the butler intoned majestically from the doorway of the drawing room where Charles Fielding, Duke of Atherton, was seated. The butler stepped aside and an imposing old woman marched in, trailed by her harassed-looking solicitor. Charles Fielding looked at her, his piercing hazel eyes alive with hatred.
βDonβt bother to rise, Atherton,β the duchess snapped sarcastically, glaring at him when he remained deliberately and insolently seated.
Perfectly still, he continued to regard her in icy silence. In his mid fifties, Charles Fielding was still an attractive man, with thick, silver-streaked hair and hazel eyes, but illness had taken its toll on him. He was too thin for his tall frame and his face was deeply etched with lines of strain and fatigue.
Unable to provoke a response from him, the duchess rounded on the butler. βThis room is too hot!β she snapped, rapping her jeweled-handled cane upon the floor. βDraw the draperies and let in some air.β
βLeave them!β Charles barked, his voice seething with the loathing that the mere sight of her evoked in him.
The duchess turned a withering look in his direction. βI have not come here to suffocate,β she stated ominously.
βThen get out.β
Her thin body stiffened into a rigid line of furious resentment. βI have not come here to suffocate,β she repeated through tightly clenched teeth. βI have come here to inform you of my decision regarding Katherineβs girls.β
βDo it,β Charles snapped, βandΒ thenΒ get out!β
Her eyes narrowed to furious slits and the air seemed to crackle with her hostility, but instead of leaving, she slowly lowered herself into a chair. Despite her advanced years, the duchess sat as regally erect as a queen, a purple turban perched upon her white head in place of a crown, a cane in her hand instead of a scepter.
Charles watched her with wary surprise, for he had been certain sheβd insisted upon this meeting only so she could have the satisfaction of telling him to his face that the disposition of Katherineβs children was none of his business. He had not expected her to sit down as if she had something more to say.
βYou have seen the girlsβ miniature,β she stated.
His gaze dropped to the miniature in his hand and his long fingers tightened convulsively, protectively around it. Naked pain darkened his eyes as he stared at Victoria. She was the image of her motherβthe image of his beautiful, beloved Katherine.
βVictoria is the image of her mother,β her grace snapped suddenly.
Charles lifted his gaze to hers and his face instantly hardened. βI am aware of that.β
βGood. Then you will understand why I will not have that girl in my house. Iβll take the other one.β Standing up as if her business had been concluded, she glanced at her solicitor. βSee that Dr. Morrison receives a bank draft to cover his expenses, and another draft to cover ship passage for the younger girl.β
βYes, your grace,β her solicitor said, bowing. βWill there be anything more?β
βThere will be a great dealΒ more,βΒ she snapped, her voice strained and tight. βI shall have to launch the girl into society, I shall have to provide a dowry for her. I shall have to find her a husband, Iββ
βWhat about Victoria?β Charles interrupted fiercely. βWhat do you plan to do about the older girl?β
The duchess glowered at him. βIβve already told youβthat one reminds me of her mother, and I wonβt have her in my house. If you want her, you can take her. You wanted her mother rather badly, as I recall. And Katherine obviously wanted youβeven when she was dying, she still spoke your name. You can shelter Katherineβs image instead. It will serve you right to have to look at the chit.β
Charlesβs mind was still reeling with joyous disbelief when the old duchess added arrogantly, βMarry her off to anyone you pleaseβanyoneΒ exceptΒ that nephew of yours. Twenty-two years ago, I wouldnβt countenance an alliance between your family and mine, and I still forbid it. Iββ As if something had just occurred to her, she broke off abruptly, her eyes beginning to gleam with malignant triumph. βI shall marry Dorothy to Winston’s son!β she announced gleefully. βI wanted Katherine to marry the father, and she refused because of you. Iβll marry Dorothy to the sonβIβll have that alliance with the Winstons after all!β A slow, spiteful smile spread across her wrinkled face, and she laughed at Charlesβs pinched expression. βAfter all these years, Iβm still going to pull off the most splendid match in a decade!β With that, she swept out of the room, followed by her solicitor.
Charles stared after her, his emotions veering between bitterness, hatred, and joy. That vicious old bitch had just inadvertently given him the one thing he wanted more than life itselfβshe had given him Victoria, Katherineβs child. Katherineβs image. A happiness that was almost past bearing surged through Charles, followed almost immediately by boiling wrath. That devious, heartless, conniving old woman was going to have an alliance with the Winstonsβexactly asΒ she had always wanted. She had been willing to sacrifice Katherineβs happiness to have that meaningless alliance, and now she was going to succeed.
The rage Charles felt because she, too, was gaining what she had always wanted nearly eclipsed his own joy at getting Victoria. And then suddenly a thought occurred to him. With narrowed eyes, he contemplated it, mulled it over, studied it. And slowly he began to smile. βDobson,β he said eagerly to his butler. βBring me quill and parchment. I want to write out a betrothal announcement. See that it is delivered to theΒ TimesΒ at once.β
βYes, your grace.β
Charles looked up at the old servant, his eyes burning with feverish jubilation. βShe was wrong, Dobson,β he announced. βThat old bitch was wrong!β
βWrong, your grace?β
βYes, wrong! Sheβs not going to pull off the most splendid match in a decade. IΒ am!β
~
It was a ritual. Each morning at approximately 9 oβclock, Northrup the butler opened the massive front door of the Marquess of Wakefieldβs palatial country mansion and was handed a copy of theΒ TimesΒ by a footman who had brought it from London.
After closing the door, Northrup crossed the marble foyer and handed the newspaper to another footman stationed at the bottom of the grand staircase. βHis lordshipβs copy of theΒ Times,βΒ he intoned.
This footman carried the paper down the hall and into the dining room where Jason Fielding, Marquess of Wakefield, was customarily finishing his morning meal and reading his mail. βYour copy of theΒ Times, my lord,β the footman murmured diffidently as he placed it beside the marquessβs coffee cup and then removed his plate. Wordlessly, the marquess picked up the paper and opened it.
All of this was performed with the perfectly orchestrated and faultlessly executed precision of a minuet, for Lord Fielding was an exacting master who demanded that his estates and townhouses run as smoothly as well-oiled machines.
His servants were in awe of him, regarding him as a cold, frighteningly unapproachable deity whom they strove desperately to please.
The eager London beauties whom Jason took to balls, operas, playsβand bedβfelt much the same way about him,Β for he treated most of them with little more genuine warmth than he did his servants. Nevertheless, the ladies eyed him with unveiled longing wherever he went, for despite his cynical attitude, there was an unmistakable aura of virility about Jason that made feminine hearts flutter.
His thick hair was coal black, his piercing eyes the green of India jade, his lips firm and sensually molded. Tough, rugged strength was carved into every feature of his sun-bronzed face, from his straight dark brows to the arrogant jut of his chin and jaw. Even his physical build was overpoweringly masculine, for he was six feet two inches tall, with wide shoulders, narrow hips, and firmly muscled legs and thighs. Whether he was riding a horse or dancing at a ball, Jason Fielding stood out among his fellow men like a magnificent jungle cat surrounded by harmless, domesticated kittens.
As Lady Wilson-Smyth once laughingly remarked, Jason Fielding was as dangerously attractive as sinβand undoubtedly just as wicked.
That opinion was shared by many, for anyone who looked into those cynical green eyes of his could tell there wasnβt an innocent or naive fiber left in his lithe, muscular body. Despite thatβor more accurately,Β becauseΒ of itβthe ladies were drawn to him like pretty moths to a scorching flame, eager to experience the heat of his ardor or bask in the dazzling warmth of one of his rare, lazy smiles. Sophisticated, married flirts schemed to occupy his bed; younger ladies of marriageable age dreamed of being the one to thaw his icy heart and bring him to his knees.
Some of the more sensible members of theΒ tonΒ remarked that Lord Fielding had good reason to be cynical where women were concerned. Everyone knew that his wifeβs behavior when she first came to London four years ago had been scandalous. From the moment she arrived in town, the beautiful Marchioness of Wakefield had indulged in one widely publicized love affair after another. She had repeatedly cuckolded her husband; everyone knew itβincluding Jason Fielding, who apparently didnβt care.Β .Β .Β .
The footman paused beside Lord Fieldingβs chair, an ornate sterling coffeepot in his hand. βWould you care for more coffee, my lord?β
His lordship shook his head and turned to the next page of theΒ Times.Β The footman bowed and retreated. He had not expected Lord Fielding to answer him aloud, for the master rarely deigned to speak to any of his servants. He did not know most of their names, or anything about them, nor did he care. But at least he was not given to ranting and raving, as many of the nobility were. When displeased, the Marquess merely turned the chilling blast of his green gaze on the offender and froze him. Never, not even under the most extreme provocation, did Lord Fielding raise his voice.
Which was why the amazed footman nearly dropped his silver coffeepot when Jason Fielding slammed his hand down on the table with a crash that made the dishes dance and thundered,Β βThat son of a bitch!βΒ Leaping to his feet, he stared at the open newspaper, his face a mask of fury and disbelief. βThat conniving, schemingβHeβs the only one who would dare!β With a murderous glance at the thunder-struck footman, he stalked out of the room, grabbed his cloak from his butler, stormed out of the house, and headed straight for the stables.
Northrup closed the front door behind him and rushed down the hall, his black coattails flapping. βWhat happened to his lordship?β he demanded, bursting into the dining room.
The footman was standing beside Lord Fieldingβs recently vacated chair, staring raptly at the open newspaper, the forgotten coffeepot still suspended from one hand. βI think it was somethin β he read in theΒ Times,βΒ he breathed, pointing to the announcement of the engagement of Jason Fielding, Marquess of Wakefield, to Miss Victoria Seaton. βI didnβt know his lordship was planninβ to wed,β the footman added.
βOne wonders if his lordship knew it either,β Northrup mused, gaping in astonishment at the newspaper. Suddenly realizing that he had so forgotten himself as to gossip with an underling, Northrup swept the paper from the table and closed it smartly. βLord Fieldingβs affairs are no concern of yours, OβMalley. Remember that if you wish to stay on here.β
Two hours later, Jasonβs carriage came to a bone-jarring stop in front of the Duke of Athertonβs London residence. AΒ groom ran forward and Jason tossed the reins to him, bounded out of the carriage, and strode purposefully up the front steps to the house.
βGood day, my lord,β Dobson intoned as he opened the front door and stepped aside. βHis grace is expecting you.β
βIβll bet he damned well is!β Jason bit out scathingly. βWhere is he?β
βIn the drawing room, my lord.β
Jason stalked past him and down the hall, his long, quick strides eloquent of his turbulent wrath as he flung open the drawing room door and headed straight toward the dignified, gray-haired man seated before the fire. Without preamble, he snapped, βYou, I presume, are responsible for that outrageous announcement in theΒ Times?β
Charles boldly returned his stare. βI am.β
βThen you will have to issue another one to rescind it.β
βNo,β Charles stated implacably. βThe young woman is coming to England and you are going to marry her. Among other things, I want a grandson from you, and I want to hold him in my arms before I depart this world.β
βIf you want a grandson,β Jason snarled, βall you have to do is locate some of your other by-blows. Iβm sure youβll discover theyβve sired youΒ dozensΒ of grandsons by now.β
Charles flinched at that, but his voice merely lowered ominously. βI want a legitimateΒ grandson to present to the world as my heir.β
βA legitimate grandson,β Jason repeated with freezing sarcasm. βYou want me, your illegitimate son, to sire you aΒ legitimateΒ grandson. Tell me something: with everyone else believing Iβm your nephew, how do you intend to claim my son as your grandchild?β
βI would claim him as my great-nephew, butΒ IΒ would know heβs my grandson, and thatβs all that matters.β Undaunted by his sonβs soaring fury, Charles finished implacably, βI want an heir from you, Jason.β
A pulse drummed in Jasonβs temple as he fought to control his wrath. Bending low, he braced his hands on the arms of Charlesβs chair, his face only inches away from the older manβs. Very slowly and very distinctly, he enunciated, βI have told you before, and Iβm telling you for the last time,Β that I will never remarry. Do you understand me? /Β will never remarry!β
βWhy?β Charles snapped. βYou arenβt entirely a woman-hater. Itβs common knowledge that youβve had mistresses and that you treat them well. In fact, they all seem to tumble into love with you. The ladies obviously like being in your bed, and you obviously like having them thereββ
βShut up!β Jason exploded.
A spasm of pain contorted Charlesβs face and he raised his hand to his chest, his long fingers clutching his shirt. Then he carefully returned his hand to his lap.
Jasonβs eyes narrowed, but despite his suspicion that Charles was merely feigning the pain, he forced himself to remain silent as his father continued. βThe young lady Iβve chosen to be your wife should arrive here in about three months. I will have a carriage waiting at the dock so that she may proceed directly to Wakefield Park. For the sake of propriety, I will join the two of you there and remain with you until the nuptials have been performed. I knew her mother long ago, and Iβve seen a likeness of Victoriaβyou wonβt be disappointed.β He held out the miniature. βCome now, Jason,β he said, his voice turning soft, persuasive, βarenβt you the slightest bit curious about her?β
Charles’s attempt at cajolery hardened Jason’s features into a mask of granite. βYouβre wasting your time. I wonβt do it.β
βYouβll do it,β Charles promised, resorting to threats in his desperation. βBecause if you donβt, Iβll disinherit you. Youβve already spent half a million pounds of your money restoring my estates, estates that will never belong to you unless you marry Victoria Seaton.β
Jason reacted to the threat with withering contempt. βYour precious estates can burn to the ground for all I care. My son is deadβI no longer have any use for legacies.β
Charles saw the pain that flashed across Jasonβs eyes at the mention of his little boy, and his tone softened with shared sorrow. βIβll admit that I acted precipitously in announcing your betrothal, Jason, but I had my reasons. Perhaps I canβt force you to marry Victoria, but at least donβt set your mind against her. I promise you that youβllΒ find no fault with her. Here, I have a miniature of her and you can see for yourself how beautifulΒ .Β .Β . Charlesβs voice trailed off as Jason turned on his heel and stalked from the room, slamming the door behind him with a deafening crash.
Charles glowered at the closed door. βYouβll marry her, Jason,β he warned his absent son. βYouβll do it if I have to hold a gun to your head.β
He glanced up a few minutes later as Dobson came in carrying a silver tray laden with a bottle of champagne and two glasses. βI took the liberty of selecting something appropriate for the occasion,β the old servant confided happily, putting the tray on the table near Charles.
βIn that case you should have selected hemlock,β Charles said wryly. βJason has already left.β
The butlerβs face fell. βAlready left? But I didnβt have an opportunity to felicitate his lordship on his forthcoming nuptials.β
βWhich is fortunate indeed,β Charles said with a grim chuckle. βI fear heβd have loosened your teeth.β
When the butler left, Charles picked up the bottle of champagne, opened it, and poured some into a glass. With a determined smile, he lifted his glass in a solitary toast: βTo your forthcoming marriage, Jason.β
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β¦Chapter 16 – 20
Snow clung to Zackβs hair and swirled around his feet as he bent his head into the wind. Several trucks roared past him, the drivers ignoring his upraised thumb, and he fought down a panicky premonition of impending doom. Traffic was heavy on the highway, but everybody was evidently in a hurry to reach their destination before the storm struck, andΒ they werenβt stopping for anything. Up ahead at the intersection was an old-fashioned gas station/cafe with two cars in the large parking lotβa blue Blazer and a brown station wagon. Carrying his duffel bags, he walked up the driveway and when he passed the cafe, he glanced carefully through the large front window at the occupants. There was a lone woman in one booth and a mother with two young children in the other. He swore under his breath because both cars belonged to women, and they werenβt likely to pick up hitchhikers. Without slowing his pace, Zack continued toward the end of the building, where their two cars were parked, wondering if the keys were in the ignitions. Even if they were, he knew it was insanity to steal one of those cars because heβd have to drive it right past the front window of the cafe in order to get out of the parking lot. If he did that, whoever owned the car would have the cops on the phone, describing him and his vehicle, before he got out of the damned parking lot. Whatβs more, from up here, they could see which way he went on the interstate. Maybe he could try to bribe one of the women in the cafe to give him a ride when she came out.
If money didnβt persuade her to agree, he had a gun that could convince her. Christ! There had to be a better way to get out of here than that.
In front of him and below, trucks roared down the interstate making mini blizzards with their wheels. He glanced at his watch. Nearly an hour had passed since Hadley had gone into his meeting. He didnβt dare try hitchhiking on that interstate any more. Heβd be visible down there from the overpass for a mile. If Sandini had followed instructions, Hadley would be sounding an alert to the local cops in about five minutes. As if his thought had caused it to happen, a local sheriffβs car suddenly appeared on the overpass, slowed down, then turned into the cafeβs parking lot fifty yards away from Zackβs hiding spot, coming toward him.
Instinctively, Zack crouched down, pretending that heΒ was inspecting the tire on the Blazer, and then inspiration struckβtoo late perhaps, but maybe not. Yanking the switchblade out of the duffel bag, he rammed it into the side of the Blazerβs tire, ducking to one side to avoid the explosion of air. From the corner of his eye, he watched the patrol car glide to a stop behind him. Instead of demanding to know what Zack was doing loitering around the cafe with duffel bags, the local sheriff rolled down his car window and drew the obvious conclusion. βLooks like you got a flat thereββ
βSure as hell,β Zack agreed, slapping the side of the tire, careful not to look over his shoulder. βMy wife tried to warn me this tire had a leakββ The rest of his words were drowned out by the sudden frantic squawking of the police radio, and without another word, the cop wheeled the patrol car into a screeching turn, accelerated sharply, and roared out of the parking lot with its siren wailing. A moment later, Zack heard more sirens coming from every direction, and then he saw the patrol cars racing across the overpass, their warning lights revolving.
The authorities, Zack knew, were now aware that an escaped convict was on the loose. The hunt had begun.
Inside the cafe, Julie finished her coffee and groped in her purse for money to pay the check. Her visit with Mr. Vernon had gotten her more than sheβd expected, including an invitation to spend more time with his wife and him that she hadnβt been able to refuse. She had a five-hour drive in front of her, longer with all this snow, but she had a fat check in her purse and enough excitement about that to make the miles fly past. She glanced at her watch, picked up the thermos sheβd brought in from the car to be filled with coffee, smiled at the children eating with their mother in the adjoining booth, and walked up to the cash register to pay her bill.
As she emerged from the building, she stopped in surprise as a squad car suddenly made a frantic U-turn in front of her, turned on its siren, then shot out of the parking lot ontoΒ the highway, its rear end fishtailing in the thin blanket of snow. Distracted by that, she didnβt notice the dark-haired man squatting beside the rear wheel of her car on the driverβs side until she almost stumbled over him. He stood up abruptly, towering over her from a height of about 6β2β, and she took a startled, cautious step backward, her voice shaky with alarm and suspicion. βWhat are you doing there?β she demanded, frowning at her own image as it was reflected back at her from the silvery lenses of his aviator sunglasses.
Zack actually managed a semblance of a smile because his mind had finally started working, and he now knew exactly how he was going to get her to offer him a ride. Imagination and the ability to improvise had been two of his biggest assets as a director. Nodding toward her rear tire, which was very obviously flat, he said, βIβm planning to change your tire for you if you have a jack.β
Julieβs breath came out in a rush of chagrin. βIβm sorry for being so rude, but you startled me. I was watching that squad car tearing out of here.β
βThat was Joe Loomis, a local constable,β Zack improvised smoothly, deliberately making it sound as if the cop was a friend of his. βJoe got another call and had to leave, or heβd have given me a hand with your tire.β
Julieβs fears were completely allayed, and she smiled at him. βThis is very kind of you,β she said, opening the tailgate of the Blazer and looking for a jack. βThis is my brotherβs car. The jack is somewhere in here, but Iβm not sure where.β
βThere,β Zack said, quickly locating the jack and taking it out. βThis will only take a few minutes,β he added. He was in a hurry, but no longer fighting down panic. The woman already thought he was friendly with the local sheriff, so sheβd naturally think he was trustworthy, and after he changed her tire, sheβd oweΒ him a ride. Once they were on the road, the police wouldnβt give them a second glance because theyβd be looking for a man who was travelingΒ alone. For now, if anyone noticed him, he would appear to be an ordinary husband changing a tire while his wife looked on. βWhere are you headed?β he asked her, using the jack.
βEast toward Dallas for a long way and then south,β Julie said, admiring his easy skill with the heavy vehicle. He had an unusually nice voice, uncommonly deep and smooth, and a strong, square jawline. His hair was dark brown and very thick, but poorly cut, and she wondered idly what he looked like without the concealing barrier of those reflective sunglasses. Very handsome, she decided, but it wasnβt his good looks that kept drawing her eyes back to his profile, it was something else, something illusive that she couldnβt pinpoint. Julie shrugged the feeling off, and cradling the thermos in her arm, she embarked on polite conversation. βDo you work around here?β
βNot any more. I was supposed to start a new job tomorrow, but I have to be there by seven in the morning or theyβll give it to someone else.β He finished jacking the car up and began loosening the lug bolts on the tire, then he nodded toward the nylon duffel bags that Julie hadnβt seen before because they had somehow gotten shoved under her car. βA friend of mine was supposed to pick me up here two hours ago and give me a ride part of the way,β he added, βbut I guess something happened and he isnβt going to make it.β
βYouβve been waiting out here for two hours?β Julie exclaimed. βYou must be frozen.β
He kept his face averted, apparently concentrating on his task, and Julie restrained the peculiar urge to try to bend down and get a longer, closer look at him. βWould you like a cup of coffee?β
βIβd love one.β
Rather than use up what was in the thermos, Julie headed back into the cafe. βIβll get it for you. How do you drink it?β
βBlack,β Zack said, fighting to keep his frustration in check. She was heading southeast from Amarillo, whereasΒ his destination was four hundred miles to the northwest. He stole a glance at his watch and began working even faster. Nearly an hour and a half had passed since he walked away from the wardenβs car, and his risk of capture was increasing every moment he stayed around Amarillo. Regardless of which way the woman was going, he had to go with her. Putting some miles between himself and Amarillo was all that mattered now. He could ride with her for an hour and double back via a different route later.
The waitress needed to brew another pot of coffee, and by the time Julie returned to her car with the steaming paper cup, her rescuer had nearly finished changing the tire. Snow was already two inches deep on the ground and the biting wind was gathering force, whipping the sides of her coat open and making her eyes water. She saw him rub his bare hands together and thought of the new job that was waiting for him tomorrowβif he could get there. She knew jobs in Texas, especially blue-collar jobs, were scarce, and based on his lack of a car, he was probably badly in need of money. His jeans were new, she realized, noticing for the first time the telltale vertical crease down the front of the legs when he stood up. He had probably bought them in order to make a good impression on his future employer, she decided, and the thought of him doing that sent sympathy pouring through her.
Julie had never before offered a hitchhiker a ride; the risks were far too high, but she decided to do it this time, not only because heβd changed her tire or because he seemed nice, but also because of a simple pair of jeansβnew jeans. New jeans, stiff and spotless, obviously purchased by a jobless man who was pinning all his hopes on a brighter future that wasnβt going to materialize unless someone gave him a ride at least partway to his destination so he could start to work.
βIt looks like youβre finished,β Julie said, walking up to him. She held the cup of coffee out to him and he took it in hands that were red from the cold. There was an aloofness about him that made her hesitate to offer him money, but on the chance heβd prefer that to a ride, she offered anyway. βIβd like to pay you for changing the tire,β she began, and when he curtly shook his head, she added, βIn that case, can I give you a ride? Iβm going to take the interstate east.β
βIβd appreciate the ride,β Zack said, accepting her offer with a brief smile as he quickly reached down and pulled the nylon duffel bags out from under the car. βIβm heading east, too.β
When they got into the car, he told her his name was Alan Aldrich. Julie introduced herself as Julie Mathison, but to make certain he realized she was offering him a ride and nothing more, she carefully addressed him the next time she spoke as Mr. Aldrich. He picked up her cue and thereafter called her Miss Mathison.
Julie relaxed completely after that. The formality of Miss Mathison was completely reassuring, and so was his immediate acceptance of their situation. But when he remained absolutely silent and distant thereafter, she began to wish she hadnβt insisted on formality. She knew she wasnβt good at hiding her thoughts, therefore heβd probably realized at once that she was putting him in his placeβa needless insult, considering that heβd shown her only gallant kindness by changing her tire.
THEYβD KEN ON THE ROADΒ for fully ten minutes before Zack felt the strangling tension in his chest begin to dissolve, and he drew a long, full breathβhis first easy breath in hours. No, months. Years. Futility and helplessness had raged in him for so long that he felt almost lightheaded without them. A red car roared past them, cutΒ across their lane to exit the interstate, lost traction, and spun around, missing the Blazer by inchesβand then only because the young woman beside him handled the four-wheel-drive vehicle with surprising skill. Unfortunately, she also drove too damned fast, with the daredevil aggressiveness and fearless disregard of danger that was uniquely and typically Texan in his experience.
He was wishing there was some way he could suggest she let him drive, when she said in a quietly amused voice, βYou can relax now. Iβve slowed down. I didnβt mean to scare you.β
βI wasnβt afraid,β he said with unintentional curtness.
She glanced sideways at him and smiled, a slow, knowing smile. βYouβre holding onto the dashboard with both hands. Thatβs usually a dead giveaway.β
Two things struck Zack at once: Heβd been in prison so long that lighthearted banter between adult members of the opposite sex had become completely awkward and alien to him and Julie Mathison had a breathtaking smile. Her smile glowed in her eyes and lit up her entire face, transforming what was merely a pretty face into one that was captivating. Since wondering about her was infinitely preferable to worrying about things he couldnβt yet control, Zack concentrated on her. She wore no makeup except for a little lipstick, and there was a freshness about her, a simplicity in the way she wore her thick, shiny brown hair, all of which had made him think she was in her late teens or very early twenties. On the other hand, she seemed too confident and self-assured for a twenty-year-old. βHow old are you?β he asked bluntly, then winced at the brusque tactlessness of the question. Obviously if they didnβt catch him and send him back to prison, he was going to have to relearn some things heβd thought were bred into himβlike rudimentary courtesy and conversational etiquette with women.
Instead of being irritated by the question, she flashed him another one of those mesmerizing smiles of hers and said in a voice laced with amusement, βIβm twenty-six.β
βMy God!β Zack heard himself blurt, then he closed hisΒ eyes in disgusted disbelief at his gaucheness. βI mean,β he explained, βyou donβt look that old.β
She seemed to sense his discomfiture, because she laughed softly and said, βProbably because Iβve only been twenty-six for a few weeks.β
Afraid to trust himself to say anything spontaneous, he watched the windshield wipers carve a steady half-moon in the snow on the windshield while he reviewed his next question for any trace of the tastelessness that had marred his previous words. Feeling this one was safe, he said, βWhat do you do?β
βIβm a schoolteacher.β
βYou donβt look like one.β
Inexplicably, the laughter rekindled in her eyes and he saw her bite back a smile. Feeling completely disoriented and confused by her unpredictable reactions, he said a little curtly, βDid I just say something funny?β
Julie shook her head and said, βNot at all. Thatβs what most older people say.β
Zack wasnβt certain whether sheβd referred to him as being βolderβ because he actually looked like an antique to her or if it was a joking retaliation for his ill-advised remarks about her age and appearance. He was puzzling over that when she asked what he did for a living, and he answered with the first occupation that seemed to suit what heβd already told her about himself.
βIβm in construction.β
βReally? My brotherβs in construction work, tooβa general contractor. What sort of construction work do you do?β
Zack barely knew which end of a hammer to use on a nail, and he sorely wished heβd picked a more obscure job or, better yet, had remained completely silent. βWalls,β he replied vaguely. βI do walls.β
She took her eyes from the road, which alarmed him, and regarded him intently, which alarmed him even more. βWalls?β she repeated sounding puzzled. Then she explained, βI meant, do you have a specialty?β
βYes. Walls,β Zack said shortly, angry with himself for having begun such a conversation. βThatβs my specialty. I put up walls.β
Julie realized she must have misunderstood him the first time. βDrywall!β she exclaimed ruefully. βOf course. Youβre a drywall taper?β
βRight.β
βIn that case, Iβm surprised you have any trouble finding work. Good tapers are usually in great demand.β
βIβmΒ notΒ aΒ goodΒ one,β Zack stated flatly, making it clear he wasnβt interested in continuing that conversation.
Julie choked back a startled laugh at his answer and his tone and concentrated on the road. He was a very unusual man. She couldnβt decide whether she liked him and was glad of his companyΒ .Β .Β . or not. And she couldnβt get over the uneasy feeling that he reminded her of someone. She wished she could see his face without those sunglasses so she could figure out who it was. The city vanished in the rearview mirror and the sky turned the heavy, ominous gray of an early dusk. Silence hung in the car and fat snow smacked her windshield, slowly gaining an edge on the carβs windshield wipers. Theyβd been on the road for about a half hour when Zack glanced in the outside rearview mirror on his sideβand his blood froze. A half mile behind them, and closing fast, was a police car with its red and blue lights rotating furiously.
A second later, he heard the siren begin to wail.
The woman beside him heard it, too; she glanced in the rearview mirror and took her foot off of the gas pedal, slowing the Blazer and angling it onto the shoulder. Zack reached into his jacket pocket, his hand closing on the butt of the automatic, although he had no precise idea at that moment exactly what he meant to do if the cop tried to pull them over. The squad car was so close now, he could see there were not one, but two cops in the front seat. They pulled around the BlazerΒ .Β .Β .
And kept going.
βThere must be an accident up there,β she said as they crested the hill and came to a stop behind what looked like a five-mile traffic jam on the snowy interstate. A moment later two ambulances came tearing around them.
Zackβs rush of adrenalin subsided, leaving him shaken and limp. He felt as if heβd suddenly exceeded his capacity to react with violent emotion to anything whatsoever, which was probably due to his having been trying to execute for two days a carefully thought-out escape plan that should have been a guaranteed success by virtue of its sheer simplicity. And would have been if Hadley hadnβt postponed his trip to Amarillo. Everything else that had gone wrong was a result of that. He wasnβt sure even now if his contact was still in his Detroit hotel, waiting for Zackβs call before he rented a car to drive to Windsor. And until Zack was further away from Amarillo, he didnβt dare stop to find a telephone. Moreover, although Colorado was only 130 miles from Amarillo, with a tiny piece of Oklahomaβs Panhandle in between, he needed to be traveling northwest to get there. Instead, he was now heading southeast. Thinking his Colorado map might also contain a small piece of the Oklahoma and Texas panhandles, he decided to occupy his time productively by looking for a new route from here to there. Twisting around in his seat, he said, βI think Iβll have a look at a map.β
Julie naturally assumed he was checking his route to whatever Texas town his new job was located in. βWhere are you heading?β she asked.
βEllerton,β he replied, sending her a brief smile as he reached past the folded down back seat for his duffel bag near the tailgate. βI interviewed for the job in Amarillo, but Iβve never been out to the site,β he added so she wouldnβt ask questions about the place.
βI donβt think Iβve ever heard of Ellerton.β Several minutes later, when he neatly refolded the map with its typewritten sheet on the top, Julie said, βDid you find Ellerton?β
βNo.β To dissuade her from asking any further questions about the location of a nonexistent town, he flashed the typewritten sheet at her as he bent over the seat to put it back into his duffel. βI have detailed instructions right here, so Iβll find it.β
She nodded, but her gaze was on the exit up ahead. βI think Iβll get off the interstate here and take a side road to get past the accident.β
βGood idea.β The exit turned out to be a rural road that ran roughly parallel with the interstate then began angling off to the right. βThis might not have been a good idea after all,β she said several minutes later when the narrow blacktop road began to wind steadily further away from the main highway.
Zack didnβt immediately reply. At the intersection up ahead, there was a deserted gas station and at the edge of the empty lot near the road was an open phone booth. βIβd like to make a phone call if you wouldnβt mind stopping. It wonβt take more than a couple of minutes.β
βI donβt mind at all.β Julie pulled the Blazer to a stop underneath the street lamp near the phone booth and watched him walk across the headlightβs beams. Dusk had descended even earlier than usual, and the storm seemed to be outrunning them, dumping snow with surprising force, even for the blustery Texas Panhandle. Deciding to exchange her bulky coat for a cardigan sweater that would be more comfortable while she drove, she turned on the radio, hoping for a weather forecast, then she got out of the car, walked around to the tailgate, and opened it.
With the tailgate down she could hear the Amarillo announcer extolling the wisdom of buying a new car at Wilson Ford:
βBob Wilson will meet any price, anywhere, anytimeΒ .Β .Β .β he enthused.
Listening for a mention of the weather, she took off her coat, pulled her tan mohair sweater out of her suitcase, and glanced at the map that was sticking out of his duffel bag.Β Since she didnβt have a map with her and wasnβt entirely sure what route would intersect with the interstate or if she was taking her passenger so far out of his way that heβd prefer to try to hitchhike with someone else, she decided to look at his map. She glanced at him in the phone booth, intending to hold up the map and ask his permission, but his shoulder was turned to her and he seemed to be speaking into the phone. Deciding he couldnβt possibly object, Julie folded the typewritten instructions back and opened the map heβd been studying. Spreading it across the tailgate, she held the ends down while the wind tried to whip them out of her hands. It took a full moment before she realized it wasnβt a map of Texas, but of Colorado. Puzzled, she glanced at the neatly typed instructions attached to the map: βExactly 26.4 miles after youβve passed the town of Stanton,β it said, βyouβll come to an unmarked crossroads. After that, begin looking for a narrow dirt road that branches off from the right and disappears into the trees about fifteen yards off the highway. The house is at the end of that road, about five miles from your turnoff, and is not visible from the highway or any side of the mountain.β
Julieβs lips parted in surprise. He was heading not for a job in some unknown Texas town, but for a house in Colorado?
On the radio, the announcer finished his commercial and said,Β βWeβll have an update on the storm coming our way, but first, hereβs some late breaking news from the sheriffs departmentΒ .Β .Β .β
Julie scarcely heard him, she was staring at the tall man using the phone, and she felt again that strange, slithering uneaseΒ .Β .Β . of shadowy familiarity. Heβd kept his shoulder turned to her, but heβd removed his sunglasses and was holding them in his hand now. As if he sensed she was staring at him, he twisted his head toward her. His eyes narrowed on the open map in her hands at the same instant Julie had her first clear, brightly lit view of his face without the concealing sunglasses.
βAt approximately four oβclock this afternoon,β said the voice on the radio, βPrison officials discovered that convicted murderer Zachary Benedict escaped while in Amarilloββ
Momentarily paralyzed, Julie stared at that rugged, harsh face of his.
And she recognized it.
βNo!β she cried as he dropped the phone and started running toward her. She bolted around her side of the car, yanking her door open and diving across the front seat, slapping at the lock on the passenger door a split second after he yanked the door open and grabbed for her wrist. With a strength born of pure terror, she managed to wrench her arm free and throw herself sideways through her open door. She hit the ground on her hip, scrambled to her feet, and started running, her feet sliding on the slippery snow, screaming for someone to help, knowing there was no one around to hear her. He caught her before sheβd run five yards and yanked her around and back, trapping her against the side of the Blazer. βHold still and shut up!β
βTake the car!β Julie cried. βTake it and leave me here.β
Ignoring her, he looked over his shoulder at the map of Colorado that had blown against a rusty trash container fifteen feet away when she dropped it. As if in slow motion, Julie watched him remove a shiny black object from his pocket and point it at her, while he backed toward the map and picked it up. A gun. God in heaven, he had a gun!
Her entire body began to tremble uncontrollably while she listened in a kind of hysterical disbelief to the newscasterβs voice belatedly confirming that fact as the news bulletin came to an end: βBenedict is believed to be armed and he is dangerous. If seen, his whereabouts should be reported immediately to the Amarillo police. Citizens should not attempt to approach him. A second escaped convict, Dominic Sandini, has been apprehended and taken into custodyΒ .Β .Β .β
Her knees threatened to buckle as she watched him coming toward her with a gun in one hand and the map and directions blowing from his other hand. Headlights crested the hill a quarter of a mile away, and he slid the gun back into his pocket to keep it out of sight, but he kept his hand there with it. βGet into the car,β he ordered.
Julie flashed a look over her left shoulder at the approaching pickup truck, frantically calculating the impossible odds of outrunning a bullet or even being able to attract the notice of the vehicleβs driver before Zachary Benedict shot her down. βDonβt try it,β he warned in a deadly voice.
Her heart thundering against her ribs, she watched the pickup turn left at the crossroads, but she didnβt disobey his order. Not here, not yet. Instinct warned her that this deserted stretch of road was too isolated to succeed in anything but getting killed.
βGet moving!β He took her arm and headed her to the open door on the driverβs side. Cloaked in the deepening dusk of a snowy winter evening, Julie Mathison walked unsteadily beside a convicted murderer who was holding a gun on her. She had the chilling sensation they were both living a scene from one of his own moviesβthe one where the hostage got killed.
HERΒ HANDS SHOOK SO VIOLENTLYΒ she had to grope for the keys in the ignition, and when she tried to start the car she nearly flooded the engine because even her legs were jerking with fright. He watched her unemotionally from the passenger seat. βDrive,β he snapped when the engine was started. Julie managed to turn the car around and guide it to the end of the parking lot, but she stopped at the main road, her mind so paralyzed with terror that she couldnβt think of the words to ask the obvious question.
βI said drive!β
βWhichΒ way?βΒ she cried, hating the timid, pleading soundΒ of her voice and loathing the animal beside her for making her experience this uncontrollable terror.
βBack the way we came.β
βB-back?β
βYou heard me.β
Rush hour traffic on the snowbound interstate near the city limits was moving at a crawl. Inside the car, the tension and silence were suffocating. Trying desperately to calm her rampaging nerves while she watched for some chance to escape, Julie lifted her shaking hand to change the radio station, fully expecting him to order her not to do it. When he said nothing, she turned the dial and heard a disk jockeyβs voice exuberantly introducing the next country/ western song. A moment later the car was filled with the cheerful sounds of βAll My Exβs Live in Texas.β
While George Strait sang, Julie looked around at the occupants of the other cars, homeward bound after a long day. The man in the Explorer beside her was listening to the same radio station, his fingers tapping on the steering wheel, keeping time with the melody. He glanced her way, saw her looking at him, and nodded sociably, then he returned his gaze to the front. She knew he hadnβt seen anything abnormal. Everything looked perfectly normal to him, and if he were sitting where she was in the Blazer, it would have seemed perfectly normal. George Strait was singing, just like normal, and the expressway was crowded with motorists who were eager to get home, just like normal, and the snow was beautiful, just like normal. Everything was normal.
Except for one thing.
An escaped murderer was sitting in the seat beside her, holding a gun on her. It was the cozy normalcy of appearances juxtaposed against the demented reality of her situation that suddenly shoved Julie from paralysis to action. Traffic began to move, and her desperation gave birth to inspiration: Theyβd already passed several cars in ditches on both sides of the road. If she could fake a skid toward the ditch on the right and if she could throw the steering wheel to the left just as they went into the ditch, her door shouldΒ remain usable while his might very well be trapped. It would work in her own car, but she wasnβt sure how the Blazerβs four-wheel drive would respond.
Beside her, Zack saw her gaze flick repeatedly to the side of the road. He sensed her mounting panic and knew that fear was going to drive her to try something desperate at any moment. βRelax!β he ordered.
Julieβs capacity for fear suddenly reached its limits and her emotions veered crazily from terror to fury. βRelax!β she exploded in a shaking voice, whipping her head around and glaring at him. βHow in Godβs name do you expect me to relax when youβre sitting there with a gun aimed at me? You tell me that!β
She had a point, Zack thought, and before she attempted something else that might actually get him captured, he decided that helping her to relax was in both of their best interests. βJust stay calm,β he instructed.
Julie stared straight ahead. Traffic was thinning out slightly, picking up some speed, and she began to calculate the feasibility of ramming the Blazer into the cars around her in an attempt to cause a major pileup. Such an action would cause the police to be summoned. That would be very good.
But she and the other innocent motorists involved in the collision would likely end up being shot by Zachary Benedict.
That would be very bad.
She was wondering if his gun had a full clip of nine shells in it and whether he would actually massacre helpless people, when he said in a calm, condescending voice that adults use on hysterical children, βNothing is going to happen to you, Julie. If you do as youβre told, youβll be fine. I need transportation to the state line, and you have a car, itβs as simple as that. Unless this car is so important to you that you want to risk your life to get me out of it, all you have to do is drive and not attract anyoneβs attention. If a cop spots us, thereβs going to be shooting, and youβll be in the middle of it. So just be a good girl and relax.β
βIf you want me to relax,β she retorted, goaded past allΒ endurance by his patronizing tone and her strained nerves, βthen you letΒ meΒ hold that gun, and Iβll show you relaxed!β She saw his brows snap together, but when he didnβt make a retaliatory move, she almost believed that he truly didnβt intend to harm herβso long as she didnβt jeopardize his escape. That possibility had the perverse effect of subduing her fears and simultaneously unleashing her frustrated fury at the torment heβd already put her through. βFurthermore,β she continued wrathfully, βdonβt speak to me like Iβm a child and donβt call me Julie! I wasΒ Ms. MathisonΒ to you when I thought you were a nice, decent man who needed a job and whoβd bought those d-damned jeans to impress your em-employer. If it hadnβt been for those damned j-jeans, I wouldnβt be in this messββ To Julieβs horror, she felt the sudden sting of tears, so she shot him what she hoped was a disdainful look and then glared fixedly out the windshield.
Zack lifted his brows and regarded her in impassive silence, but inwardly he was stunned and reluctantly impressed by her unexpected show of courage. Turning his head, he looked at the traffic opening up ahead of them and at the thick, falling snow that had seemed like a curse a few hours ago but had actually diverted the attention of the police who had to deal with stranded motorists before they could begin to search for him. Last, he considered the stroke of luck that had put him not in the small rented car that had been towed away while he watched, but in a heavy four-wheel-drive vehicle that could easily navigate in the snow without getting bogged down on the less traveled route he intended to take up into the Colorado mountains. All of the delays and complications that had infuriated him for the last two days had turned out to be bonuses, he realized. He was going to make it to Coloradoβthanks to Julie Mathison.Β Ms.Β Mathison, he corrected himself with an inner grin as he relaxed back in his seat. His flash of amusement vanished as quickly as it had come, because there was something about that newscast heβd heard earlier that was belatedly beginning to worry him: Dominic Sandini hadΒ been referred to as βanother escaped convictβ who βwas apprehended and taken into custody.β If Sandini had stuck to the plan, then Warden Hadley should have been crowing to the press about the loyalty of one of his trustees rather than referring to Sandini as an apprehended convict.
Zack told himself that the information on the newscast had simply been jumbled, which accounted for the mistake about Sandini, and he forced himself to concentrate on the irate young teacher beside him instead. Although he desperately needed her and her car right now, she was also a serious complication to his plans. She probably knew he was heading for Colorado; moreover, she might have seen enough of that map and the directions with it to be able to tell the police the vicinity of Zackβs hideaway. If he left her at the Texas-Oklahoma border or a little further north at the Oklahoma-Colorado border, sheβd be able to tell the authorities where he was going and exactly what kind of car he was driving as well. By now, his face was already plastered all over every television screen in the country, so he couldnβt possibly hope to rent or buy another car without being recognized. Furthermore, he wanted the police to believe heβd managed to fly to Detroit and cross into Canada.
Julie Mathison seemed to be both a godsend and a disastrous kink in his plans. Rather than curse fate for saddling him with her and the deadly threat to his freedom that she represented, he decided to give fate an opportunity to work out this problem and to try to help them both relax. Reaching behind him for the thermos of coffee, he thought back to her last remarks and came up with what seemed like a good conversational opening. In a carefully offhand, nonthreatening tone, he inquired sociably, βWhatβs wrong with my jeans?β
She gaped at him in blank confusion. βWhat?β
βYou said something about my βdamned jeansβ being the only reason you offered me a ride,β he explained, filling the top of the thermos with coffee. βWhatβs wrong with my jeans?β
Julie swallowed an hysterical surge of angry laughter. She was concerned about her life, and he was concerned about making a fashion statement!
βWhat,β he repeated determinedly, βdid you mean?β
She was on the verge of an angry retort when two things occurred to her at onceβthat it was insane to deliberately antagonize an armed man and that if she could make him relax his guard by indulging in small talk with him, her chances to either escape or get out of this alive would be vastly improved. Trying to inject a polite, neutral tone into her voice, she drew a long breath and said without taking her eyes from the road, βI noticed your jeans were new.β
βWhat did that have to do with your deciding to offer me a ride?β
Bitterness at her own gullibility filled Julieβs voice. βSince you didnβt have a car and you implied you didnβt have a job, I assumed you must be having a hard time financially. Then you said you were hoping to get a new job, and I noticed the crease in your jeansΒ .Β .Β .β Her voice trailed off when she realized with a disgusted jolt that instead of the nearly destitute man sheβd thought him to be he was actually a mega millionaire movie star.
βGo on,β he prodded, his voice tinged with puzzlement.
βI leapt to the obvious conclusion, for heavenβs sake! I figured youβd bought new jeans so you could make a good impression on your employer, and I imagined how important that must have been to you while you were buying them in the store and how much hope you must have been feeling when you bought them, and I-I couldnβt bear the thought that your hope was going to be trashed if I didnβt offer you a ride. So even though Iβve never picked up a hitchhiker in my life, I couldnβt stand to see you miss having your chance.β
Zack was not only stunned, he was unwillingly touched. Kindness like hers, a kindness that also required some kind of personal risk or sacrifice, had been absent from his existence for all the years heβd spent in prison. And even before that, he realized. Shoving the unsettling thought aside, he said, βYou envisioned all that from a crease in aΒ pair of jeans? Youβve got one hell of an imagination,β he added with a sardonic shake of his head.
βIβm obviously a bad judge of character, too,β Julie said bitterly. From the corner of her eye, she saw his left arm swing toward her and she jumped, muffling a scream before she realized he was only holding out a cup of coffee from the thermos. In a quiet tone that almost seemed to carry an apology for adding to her fright, he said, βI thought this might help.β
βIβm not in the slightest danger of falling asleep at the wheel, thanks to you.β
βDrink some anyway,β Zack ordered, determined to ease her terror even while he knew his presence was the source of it. βIt willββ he hesitated, feeling at a loss for words, and added, βIt will make things seem more normal.β
Julie turned her head and gaped at him, her expression making it eloquently clear she found his βconcernβ for her not only completely revolting, but insane. She was on the verge of telling him that, but she remembered the gun in his pocket, so she took the coffee in a shaking hand and turned away from him, sipping it and staring at the road ahead.
Beside her, Zack watched the telltale trembling of the coffee cup as she raised it to her lips, and he felt a ridiculous urge to apologize for terrifying her like this. She had a lovely profile he thought, studying her face in the light of the dashboard, with a small nose and stubborn chin and high cheekbones. She also had magnificent eyes, he decided, thinking of the way theyβd shot sparks at him a few minutes ago. Spectacular eyes. He felt a sharp stab of guilty shame for using and frightening this innocent girl whoβd been trying to be a good Samaritanβand because he had every intention of continuing to use her, he felt like the animal everybody believed he was. To silence his conscience, he resolved to make things as easy on her as he possibly could, which led him to decide to engage her in further conversation.
Heβd noticed she wore no wedding ring, which meant she wasnβt married. He tried to remember what peopleβcivilizedΒ people on the βoutsideββtalked about for idle conversation, and he finally said, βDo you like teaching?β
She turned again, her incredible eyes wide with suppressed antagonism. βDo you expect me,β she uttered in disbelief, βto engage in politeΒ small talkΒ with you?β
βYes!β he snapped, irrationally angry at her reluctance to let him make amends. βI do. Start talking!β
βI love teaching,β Julie shot back shakily, hating how easily he could intimidate her. βHow far do you intend for me to drive you?β she demanded as they passed a sign that said the Oklahoma border was twenty miles away.
βOklahoma,β Zack said, half-truthfully.
WEβRE INΒ OKLAHOMA,β JULIE POINTEDΒ out the instant they drove past the sign announcing they were there.
He shot her a look of grim amusement. βI see that.β
βWell? Where do you want to get out?β
βKeep driving.β
βKeep driving?β she cried in nervous fury. βNow look, you miserableβIβm not driving you all the way to Colorado!β
Zack had his answer, she knew where he was going.
βI wonβt do it!β Julie warned shakily, unaware that she had just sealed her fate. βI canβt.β
With an inner sigh at the battle she was bound to wage, he said, βYes, Ms. Mathison, you can. And you will.β
His unflappable calm was the last straw. βGo to hell!β Julie cried, swinging the steering wheel hard to the right before he could stop her and sending the vehicle careening onto the shoulder as she slammed on the brakes and brought it to a lurching stop. βTake the car!β she pleaded. βTake it and leave me here. I wonβt tell anyone Iβve seen you or where youβre going. I swear I wonβt tell anyone.β
Zack reined in his temper and tried to soothe her with an attempt at levity. βIn the movies, people always promise that same thing,β he remarked conversationally, glancing over his shoulder at the cars flying past. βIβve always thought it sounded asinine.β
βThis isnβt the movies!β
βBut you do agree that itΒ isΒ an absurd promise,β he argued with a slight smile. βYou know it is. Admit it, Julie.β
Shocked that he was apparently trying toΒ teaseΒ her as if they were friends, Julie stared at him in furious silence, knowing he was right about the promise being ridiculous, but refusing to admit it.
βYou canβt really expect me to believe,β he continued, his voice softening a little, βthat youβd let me get away with kidnapping you and stealing your car and then be so grateful to me for doing both that youβd keep a promise to me you made under extreme duress? Doesnβt that sound a little insane to you?β
βDo you expect me to debate psychology with you when my whole life is at stake!β she burst out.
βI realize youβre afraid, but your life isnβt at stake unless you put it there. You arenβt in any danger unless you create it.β
Perhaps it was exhaustion or the low timbre of his voice or the steadiness of his gaze, but as Julie looked at his solemn features, she found herself almost believing him.
βI donβt want you to get hurt,β he continued, βand you wonβt, as long as you donβt do anything that attracts attention to me and alerts the lawββ
βIn which case,β Julie interrupted bitterly, snapping out of her trance, βyou will blow my brains out with your gun. Thatβs very comforting, Mr. Benedict. Thank you.β
Zack held his temper in check and explained, βIf the cops catch up with me, theyβll have to kill me, because Iβm not going to surrender. Given the vigilante mentality of mostΒ cops, thereβs a good chance youβll be hurt or killed in the fray. I donβt want that to happen. Can you understand that?β
Furious with herself for being subdued by empty gentle words from a ruthless murderer, Julie jerked her gaze from his and stared out the front window. βDo you actually think you can convince me youβre Sir Galahad and not a depraved monster?β
βEvidently not,β he said irritably.
When she refused to look at him again, Zack gave an impatient sign and said curtly, βStop sulking and start driving. I need to find a roadside telephone at one of these exits.β
The moment his voice chilled, Julie realized how foolish sheβd been to ignore his βfriendlyβ overture and antagonize him. What she probably ought to be doing, she belatedly decided as she pulled back out onto the highway, was fooling him into believing she was resigned to going along with him. As the snowflakes danced in front of her headlights, her mind began to calm and she thought carefully about possible ways out of her predicament, because it now seemed horribly likely that he was going to force her to drive him through Colorado as well as Oklahoma. Finding a means to foil his plan and get away became not only a necessity, but a downright challenge. To do that, she knew she had to be objective and to keep all traces of fright and fury from clouding her thoughts. She should be able to do that, Julie reminded herself bracingly. After all, she was no sheltered, unworldly, pampered hothouse flower. Sheβd spent the first eleven years of her life on the streets of Chicago and done just fine! Chewing on her lower lip, she decided to try to think of her ordeal as if it were merely a plot in one of the mystery novels she loved to read. Sheβd always felt some of the heroines in those novels behaved with sublime stupidity, which was what sheβd been doing by antagonizing her captor, she decided. A clever heroine would do the opposite, sheβd be devious and find ways to make Benedict relax his guard completely. If he did that, herΒ chances to escapeβand get him returned to prison where he belongedβwould be dramatically increased. To accomplish that goal, she could try to pretend she was coming to think of this nightmare as an adventure, maybe she could even pretend to be on the side of her captor, which would require a stellar performance, but she was willing to try.
Despite her grave misgivings about her ability to succeed, Julie suddenly felt a welcome calm and determination sweep through her, banishing her fear and leaving her head clearer. She waited several moments before speaking, so that her capitulation wouldnβt seem too sudden and suspicious to him, then she drew a steadying breath and tried to inject a rueful note into her voice: βMr. Benedict,β she said, actually managing to cast him a slight, sideways smile, βI appreciate what you said about not intending to hurt me. I didnβt mean to be sarcastic. I was afraid, thatβs all.β
βAnd now you arenβt afraid?β he countered, his voice laced with skepticism.
βWell, yes,β Julie hastened to assure him. βBut not nearly so much. Thatβs what I meant.β
βMay I inquire what brought about this sudden transformation? What were you thinking about while you were so quiet?β
βA book,β she said because it seemed safe. βA mystery.β
βOne youβve read? Or one youβre thinking about writing?β
Her mouth opened, but no words came out, and then she realized heβd inadvertently handed her the perfect means to his own defeat. βIβve always wanted to write a mystery someday,β she improvised madly, βand it occurred to me that this could be, well, first-hand research.β
βI see.β
She darted another glance at him and was startled by the warmth of his smile. This devil could charm a snake, she realized, recalling that same smile from the days when it had flashed across movie screens and raised the temperature of the entire female audience.
βYou are a remarkably brave young woman, Julie.β
She choked her irate demand to be called Ms. Mathison. βActually, Iβm the worldβs greatest coward, Mr.ββ
βMy name is Zack,β he interrupted, and in his impassive tone she sensed a return of his suspicion.
βZack,β she hastily agreed. βYouβre quite right. We ought to use first names, since weβre apparently going to be together forβ?β
βA while,β he provided, and Julie made a Herculean effort to conceal her frustrated fury at his oblique reply.
βA while,β she agreed, careful to keep her tone neutral. βWell, thatβs probably long enough for you to help me with some preliminary research,β she hesitated, thinking of what to ask him. βWould you, well, consider giving me some insight into what prison is really like. That would be helpful for my story.β
βWould it?β
He was scaring the hell out of her with the subtle, ever-changing nuances in his voice. Never before had she known a man or woman who could convey so much with imperceptible changes in his voice, nor had she heard a voice like his in her life. It had a rich baritone timbre that could switch instantly and unaccountably from polite to amused to icy and ominous. In answer to his question, Julie nodded vigorously, trying to counteract his skeptical tone by injecting energy and conviction in her own. βAbsolutely.β In a flash of inspiration, she realized that if he thought she might be on his side, heβd be even more likely to lower his guard. βIβve heard that a lot of innocent people get sent to prison. Were you innocent?β
βEvery convict claims heβs innocent.β
βYes, but are you?β she persisted, dying for him to say he was so she could pretend to believe him.
βThe jury said I was guilty.β
βJuries have been wrong before.β
βTwelve honest, upstanding citizens,β he replied in a voice suddenly iced with loathing, βdecided I was.β
βIβm sure they tried to be objective.β
βBullshit!β he said so furiously that Julieβs hands tightened on the steering wheel under a fresh onslaught of fear and dread. βThey convicted me of being rich and famous!β he snapped. βI watched their faces during the trial, and the more the district attorney raved about my privileged life and the amoral standards of Hollywood, the more that jury wanted my blood! The whole damned, sanctimonious, God-fearing bunch of them knew there was a βreasonable doubtβ I didnβt commit that murder and thatβs why they didnβt recommend the death penalty. Theyβd all watched too much Perry Masonβthey figured if I didnβt do it, I should be able to prove who did.β
Julie felt the perspiration break out on her palms at the rage in his voice. Now, more than ever before, she realized how imperative it was to make him believe she sympathized with him. βBut you werenβt guilty, were you? You just couldnβt prove who really murdered your wife, is that it?β she persevered in a trembling voice.
βWhat difference does it make?β he snapped.
βIt m-makes a difference to me.β
For a moment he studied her in frozen silence and then his voice made one of its abrupt, compellingly soft turns. βIf it truly makes a difference to you, then no, I didnβt kill her.β
He was lying, of course. He had to be. βI believe you.β Trying to heap more reassurances on him, she added, βAnd if you are innocent, then you have every right to try to escape from prison.β
His answer was an uncomfortably long silence during which she felt his piercing gaze examining every feature on her face, then he said abruptly, βThe sign said thereβs a phone up ahead. Pull over when you see it.β
βAll right.β
The telephone was beside the road and Julie pulled off into the drive. She was watching the outside rearview mirror in hopes of seeing a trucker or some other driver she could flag down but there was little traffic on the snowy road. His voice made her snap her head around just as he pulled herΒ car keys from the ignition. βI hope,β he said in a sardonic voice, βyou wonβt think I doubt your word about believing Iβm innocent and wanting to see me escape. Iβm simply taking the car keys because I happen to be a very cautious man.β
Julie amazed herself by managing to shake her head and say convincingly, βI donβt blame you.β With a brief smile, he got out of the car, but he kept his hand in his pocket with the gun as a deliberate menacing reminder to her, and he left the passenger door open, undoubtedly so he could see what she was doing while he made his call. Short of trying to outrun him and a possible bullet, Julie had no hope of escaping right now, but she could start preparing for the future. As he stepped into the snow, she said with all the meekness she could muster, βWould you mind if I get a pen and paper out of my purse so that I can make some notes while youβre on the phoneβyou know, jot down feelings and things so that I can use them in my book?β Before he could refuse, which he looked about to do, she reached cautiously for her purse on the back seat while pointing out reasons he shouldnβt deny her request. βWriting always calms my nerves,β she said, βand you can search my purse, if you like. Youβll see I donβt have another set of keys or any weapons.β To prove it she opened the purse and handed it to him. He gave her an impatient, preoccupied look that made her feel as if he didnβt believe her story about writing a novel for a moment and was simply going along with it to keep her docile.
βGo ahead,β he said, handing the purse to her. As he turned away, Julie pulled out a small note pad and her pen. Keeping an eye on his back, she watched him pick up the telephone and put coins in it, then she quickly wrote the same message on three different slips of paper:Β CALL POLICE. IβVE BEEN KIDNAPPED.Β From the comer of her eye, she saw him watching her and she waited until he turned away to talk to whoever he was calling, then she tore off the first three sheets, folded them in half and tucked them into the outside pocket of her purse where she couldΒ easily reach them. She opened the notebook again and stared at it, her mind frantically searching for ways to pass the notes to people who could aid her. Struck with a plausible idea, she stole a glance at him to be sure he wasnβt looking, then she quickly took one of the notes from her purse and folded it into a ten-dollar bill from her wallet.
She had a plan, she was executing it, and the knowledge that she was now taking some control of her future banished much of her lingering fear and panic. The rest of her newfound calm owed itself to something besides having a plan in mind. The feeling came from an instinctive but unshakable conviction that one thing Zachary Benedict had said was true: He did not want to harm her. Therefore, he wasnβt going to shoot her in cold blood. In fact, if she tried to escape now, she was certain he would chase her, but he wouldnβt shoot her unless it looked as if she were going to flag down a passing car. Since there were no cars coming, Julie saw no point in flinging open her door and making a break for it right nowβnot when he could outrun her, and all she would gain was to put him permanently on his guard. Better by far to appear to cooperate and lull him into relaxing as much as possible. Zachary Benedict might be an ex-con, but she wasnβt the gullible, easily intimidated coward sheβd been acting like until now. Once, sheβd had to live by her wits, she reminded herself bracingly. While he was a pampered teenage movie idol, Julie was lying and stealing and surviving on the streets! If she concentrated on that now, sheβd be able to hold her own with him, she was absolutely positive! Well,Β almost positive. So long as she kept her head, she had an excellent chance of winning this contest of wits. Taking her notebook out, she began jotting down saccharine comments about her kidnapper in case he asked to see what sheβd written. Finished, she reread her absurd commentary:
Zachary Benedict is fleeing from unjust imprisonment caused by a biased jury. He seems to be an intelligent,Β kind, warm manβa victim of circumstances. I believe in him.
The commentary was, she decided with an inner grimace, the worst piece of pure fiction ever written. So engrossed was she that she experienced only a momentary jolt of dread when she realized heβd finished his call and was climbing into the car. Quickly closing the notebook and shoving it into her purse, she asked politely, βDid you talk to whoever it is youβre trying to call?β
His eyes narrowed sharply on her smile and she had an uneasy feeling she was overdoing her βcomradelyβ performance. βNo. Heβs still there, but he isnβt in his room. Iβll try again in a half hour or so.β Julie was digesting that tidbit of useless information when he reached for her purse and took out her notebook. βJust a precaution,β he said in a sardonic voice as he flipped open the notebook. βYou understand, Iβm sure?β
βI understand,β Julie averred, caught between nervous hilarity and chagrin as she watched his jaw slacken when he read what sheβd written.
βWell?β she said, widening her eyes with sham innocence. βWhat do you think?β
He closed the notebook and slid it back into her purse. βI think youβre too gullible to be turned loose in the world if you actually believe all that.β
βIβm very gullible,β she eagerly assured him, turning on the ignition and pulling out onto the highway. If he thought her stupid and naive, that was great, terrific.
FOR THE NEXT HALF HOUR, they drove in silence with only an occasional desultory comment about the bad weather and worsening driving conditions, but Julie was watching the side of the road for a billboard that would enable her to put her plan into action. Any billboard that advertised a fast food restaurant at an approaching exit would do. When she finally saw one, her heart doubled its beat. βI know you probably donβt want to stop and go into a restaurant, but Iβm starving,β she said carefully, pleasantly. βThat sign says thereβs a McDonaldβs up ahead. We could get some food at the drive-through window.β
He glanced at the clock and started to shake his head, so she hastily added, βI have to eat something every couple of hours because I haveΒ .Β .Β .β she hesitated a split second, thinking frantically for the right medical term for a problem she didnβt have βΒ .Β .Β . hypoglycemia! Iβm sorry, but if I donβt eat something, I get very ill and faint andΒ .Β .Β .β
βFine, weβll stop there.β
Julie almost shouted with nervous triumph when she pulled off on the exit ramp and the McDonaldβs golden arches came into view. The restaurant was between two open lots with a kiddy playground on the side of it. βWeβre stopping just in time,β she added, βbecause Iβm feeling so dizzy that I wonβt be able to drive much longer.β
Ignoring his narrowed look, Julie flipped on the turn indicator and pulled into the McDonaldβs entrance. Despite the storm, there were several cars in the parking lot, though not nearly so many as Julie wished there were, and she could see a few families seated at the tables inside the restaurant. Following the directions on the sign, she drove aroundΒ behind the restaurant to the drive-through window and stopped at the speaker. βWhat would you like?β she asked.
Before his imprisonment, Zack wouldnβt have stopped at a fast-food restaurant like this if he had to go all day without eating. Now he discovered his mouth was watering at the thought of a simple hamburger and french fries. Freedom did that, he decided after telling Julie what he wanted to eat. Freedom made the air smell fresher and food sound better. It also made a man more tense and suspicious, because there was something about his captiveβs over bright smile that was making him extremely wary. She looked so fresh and ingenuous with those big blue eyes and soft smile, but sheβd switched much too quickly from terrified captive to furious hostage to her current attitude of friendly ally.
Julie repeated their order into the microphoneβtwo cheeseburgers, two french fries, two Cokes.
βThatβll be $5.09,β the voice said over the microphone. βPlease drive around to the first window.β
As she pulled up alongside the first window, she saw him dig into his pocket for money, but she shook her head adamantly, already reaching into her purse. βIβll buy,β she said, managing to look straight into his eyes. βItβs my treat. I insist.β
After a momentβs hesitation, he took his hand out of his pocket, but his dark brows drew together into a baffled frown. βThatβs very sporting of you.β
βThatβs me. Iβm a good sport. Everyone always says so,β she babbled mindlessly, removing the folded ten-dollar bill with her handwritten note saying that she was being kidnapped folded inside of it. Unable to meet his unnerving gaze any longer, Julie hastily looked away and focused all her attention on the teenage girl in the drive-through window, who was regarding her with bored impatience. The girlβs name tag said her name was Tiffany.
βThatβll be $5.09,β Tiffany said.
Julie held out the ten-dollar bill and stared hard at the girl, her face beseeching. Her life depended on this bored-looking teenager with a frizzy ponytail. As if in slow motion,Β Julie saw her unfold the ten-dollar billΒ .Β .Β . The small notepaper floated to the groundΒ .Β .Β . Tiffany bent and picked it up, popping her gumΒ .Β .Β . She straightenedΒ .Β .Β . She glanced at JulieΒ .Β .Β . βThis yours?β she asked, holding it up, peering into the car without reading what it said.
βI donβt know,β Julie said, trying to force the girl to read the words. βIt might be. What does it sayββ she began, then stifled a scream as Zachary Benedictβs hand clamped on her arm and the barrel of the pistol dug into her side. βNever mind, Tiffany,β he said smoothly, leaning around Julie and holding out his hand. βThatβs my note. Itβs part of a joke.β The cashier glanced at the note, but it was impossible to tell if sheβd actually read it in the instant before she held it in her outstretched hand toward the car. βHere you are, sir,β she said, leaning forward past Julie and handing it to him. Julie ground her teeth as Zachary Benedict gave the girl a phoney, appreciative smile that made Tiffany blush with pleasure as she counted out the change due them from Julieβs ten-dollar bill. βHereβs your order,β she said. Julie automatically reached for the white bags of food and Cokes, her frightened face silently pleading with the girl to call the police or the manager or someone! She passed the bags to Benedict without daring to meet his gaze, her hands trembling so violently she nearly dropped the Cokes. As she drove away from the window, she expected some sort of repercussions from him, but since her plan had failed miserably, Julie was not prepared for the eruption of raw rage she heard: βYou stupid little bitch, are you tryingΒ to get yourself killed? Pull over in the parking lot, right there where she can see us, sheβs watching.β
Julie obeyed automatically, her chest rising and falling in sharp, shallow little breaths. βEat this,β he commanded, shoving the cheeseburger in her face. βAnd smile with every bite, or so help me GodΒ .Β .Β .β
Again, Julie obeyed. She chewed without tasting, every fiber of her being concentrated on calming her shattered nerves so that she could think again. The tension in the car grew into a taut, living thing that added to her strained nerves. She spoke simply to break the silence. βC-could I have m-my Coke,β she said, reaching for the white sack of drinks on the floor near his feet. His hand clamped on her wrist in a vice that threatened to break the fragile bones. βYouβre hurting me!β Julie cried, assailed by a fresh onslaught of panic. His hand tightened more painfully before he flung her wrist away. She reared back in her seat, leaned her head back, and closed her eyes, swallowing and rubbing her throbbing arm. Until a few moments ago, he hadnβt actually tried to inflict pain on her, and sheβd lulled herself with the misconception that he wasnβt a depraved indiscriminate killer but rather a man whoβd taken revenge on his unfaithful wife in an act of jealous insanity. Why, she wondered desperately, had she allowed herself to think that he wouldnβt be just as likely to murder a woman whom heβd taken captive or a teenager who could sound an alarm and get him captured. The answer was that sheβd been fooled and deluded by her memoriesβmemories of all those glamorous stories about him in magazines, memories of countless hours spent in theaters with her brothers and, later, with her dates admiring him and even fantasizing about him. At eleven years old, she hadnβt understood why her brothers and all their friends thought Zack Benedict was so special, but within a few years, sheβd understood it perfectly. Ruggedly handsome, unattainable, sexy and cynical, witty and tough. And since Julie had been away on a summer scholarship in Europe during his famous trial, she had no knowledge of any of the sordid details, nothing concrete to offset all those lovely on-screen images that had seemed so real to her in theaters. The shameful truth was that when heβd told her he was innocent, sheβd believed it might be possible he was telling the truth because it then made sense for him to try to escape so he could prove it. For some incomprehensible reason, a tiny part of her still clung to that possibility, probably because it helped her control her fear, but it didnβt lessen her desperation to get away from him. Even if he was innocent of the crime for which he was sent to prison, that didnβt mean he wouldnβt kill toΒ prevent being sent back there, and that wasΒ ifΒ he was innocentβa very big, highly unlikelyΒ if.
Her whole body jerked in alarm when the bag on the floor crackled. βHere,β he snapped, shoving a Coke toward her.
Refusing to look at him, Julie stretched her hand out and took it, her gaze fastened on the view through the front windshield. She now realized her only hope of escaping without getting anyone hurt or killed was to make it easier for him to take off in her car and leave her behind than it was to stick around and try to shoot his way out of his predicament. Which meant she had to be out of the car and in full view of onlookers. Sheβd blown her first attempt to escape; he knew now she was desperate enough to try again. Heβd be waiting. Watching. When she tried again, everything would have to be exactly right. She knew instinctively she wasnβt likely to live to have a third chance. At least there was no further need to carry on any nauseating charade that she was on his side.
βLetβs get going,β he snapped.
Wordlessly, Julie turned on the ignition and pulled out of the parking lot.
A quarter of an hour later, he ordered her to pull over at a roadside phone again, and he made another phone call. He had not spoken a word except to tell her to pull over, and Julie suspected he knew that silence wreaked more havoc on her nerves than anything else he could do to intimidate her. This time when he made his phone call, he never took his eyes off her. When he got back into the car, Julie looked at his impassive features and couldnβt endure the silence another moment. Giving him a haughty stare, she nodded at the phone booth and said, βBad news, I hope?β
Zack bit back a grin at her rigid, unremitting rebellion. Her pretty face belied a stubborn courage and acid wit that continually caught him off guard. Instead of replying that the news was very good, he shrugged. Silence ate at her, heβd noticed. βDrive,β he said, leaning back in his seat and stretching out his legs, idly watching her graceful fingers on the steering wheel.
In a few short hours, a man who looked very much like Zack would drive from Detroit through the Windsor Tunnel into Canada. At the border, he would make enough of a nervous spectacle of himself to cause the customs officials there to remember him. When Zack remained at large for a day or two, those customs officials should remember him and notify U.S. authorities that their escaped convict had probably crossed into Canada. Within a week, the hunt for Zack Benedict should be mostly centered in Canada, leaving Zack much more free to continue with the rest of his plan. For now, for the next week, it rather looked as if he had nothing whatsoever to do except relax and revel in his freedom. It seemed like a delightful notion and it would have put him rather in charity with the world if it werenβt for his troublesome hostage. She was the only kink in his relaxation. A very big kink, since she apparently wasnβt half so easily subdued as heβd thought she would be. At the moment, she was driving unnecessarily slow and casting angry looks at him. βWhatβs the problem?β he clipped.
βThe problem is that I need to use a bathroom.β
βLater!β
βButββ He looked at her then and Julie realized it was useless to argue.
An hour later, they crossed the Colorado state line and he spoke for the first time. βThereβs a truck stop up ahead. Get off at the exit and if it looks all right, weβll stop there.β
That truck stop turned out to be too busy to suit him, and it was another half hour before he found a service station that was relatively empty and laid out to please him with an attendant positioned in the island between the pumps so he could pay for gas without going inside and with rest rooms on the outside of the building. βLetβs go,β he said. βTake it slow,β he warned as she got out of the car and started toward the rest room door. He grasped her elbow as if to help her walk through the snow, his feet crunching the crusty powder in perfect rhythm with hers as he matched her stride for stride. When they reached the rest room.Β instead of letting go of her arm, he reached out and opened the door, and Julieβs temper exploded. βDo you intend to come in here with me and watch?β she burst out in furious disbelief.
Ignoring her, he looked around the tiny tiled room, checking for windows, she supposed, and finding none, he let go of her arm. βMake it quick. And, Julie, donβt do anything stupid.β
βLike what?β she demanded. βHang myself with toilet paper? Go away, damn you.β Yanking her arm free, she marched inside, and it was as she was closing the door, that the obvious solution of locking the door and staying inside hit her. With an inner cry of triumph, she turned the lock with her fingertips and slammed the door at the same time, throwing her shoulder against it. The door slammed into the jamb with a satisfying metallic thud, but the lock didnβt seem to catch, and she had a sickening feeling he was holding the doorknob on the other side to prevent it from happening.
From the other side of the door, he twisted the knob and it turned in her hand at the same time his tone of amused resignation told her she was right. βYou have a minute and a half before I open this door, Julie.β
Great. He was undoubtedly a pervert too, she thought as she hastily finished what sheβd gone in there to do. She was washing her hands in freezing water in the sink when he opened the door and said, βTimeβs up.β
Instead of getting into the Blazer, he hung back, his hand in his pocket with the gun. βPut gas in the car,β he instructed, lounging against the side of the car and watching her while she obeyed. βPay for it,β he ordered when she was done, keeping his face turned away from the man in the booth.
Julieβs outraged sense of thrift momentarily overrode her frustration and fear, and she started to object when she realized he was holding two twenty-dollar bills in his outstretched hand. Her resentment was compounded a dozen times by the realization that he was biting back aΒ half-smile. βI think youβre starting to enjoy this!β she snapped bitterly, yanking the money out of his hand.
Zack watched her rigid shoulders as she turned away and reminded himself that it would be far wiser and far more beneficial if he could neutralize some of her hostility as heβd intended to do earlier. If he could put her in a decent humor, that would be even better. And so he said with a low chuckle, βYouβre absolutely right. I think I am beginning to enjoy this.β
βBastard,β she replied.
~
Dawn was edging the gray sky with pink when Julie decided he might have fallen asleep. Heβd made her stick to the back roads, avoiding the interstates, which made traveling in the deep snow so treacherous that sheβd only averaged thirty miles per hour for long stretches. Three times theyβd been held up for hours because of accidents on the highway, and still he made her go on. All night long, the radio had been filled with news bulletins about his escape, but the further into Colorado they traveled, the less was being made of his disappearance, no doubt because no one expected him to be traveling north, away from major airports, trains, and buses. The sign sheβd passed a mile back said there was a picnic-rest area five miles ahead, and Julie was praying that this one, like the last one theyβd passed, would have at least a few trucks pulled off into it, their drivers asleep in the cab. The most feasible idea sheβd been able to come up with during the endless, exhausting drive was the only one that fulfilled the dual criteria of forcing him to take the car while leaving her behind. It seemed as foolproof as anything under the circumstances: She was going to pull into the rest area and when she was alongside the parked trucks, she would slam on the Blazerβs brakes and jump out of the car, screaming for help in a voice loud enough to wake up the trucksβ occupants. Then, if her entire fantasy came true, several burly truck driversβpreferably gigantic men holding guns and wearing brass knucklesβwould lurch awakeΒ and jump out of the trucks, racing to her rescue. They would wrestle Zachary Benedict to the ground, with Julie pitching in to help, then theyβd disarm him and call the police on their CB radios.
That was the best possible scenario, Julie knew, but even if only a fraction of that happenedβif only one driver woke up and got out to investigate the cause of her screamsβshe was still relatively certain sheβd be free of Zachary Benedict. Because from the moment she raised an alarm and attracted notice, his only sensible choice would be to take off in the Blazer. Heβd have nothing to gain by hanging around to shoot her and then walking from truck to truck to shoot the drivers, not when the first gunshot would only alert all the other drivers. Any attempt on his part to reenact the final scene fromΒ Gunfight at the O.K. CorralΒ would be just plain stupid, and stupid was one thing Benedict was not.
Julie was so certain of that, that she was going to bet her life on it.
She slanted another searching look at him to make certain he was sleeping; His arms were crossed over his chest, his long legs were stretched out in front of him, his head rested against the side window. His breathing was steady and relaxed.
He was asleep.
Elated, Julie gently eased her foot off the accelerator slowly, imperceptibly, watching the speedometer drop from forty-five miles per hour to forty-two, then very slowly to forty. In order to pull into the rest area without a sudden change in speed that would alert her passenger, she needed to be traveling at no more than thirty miles an hour when she reached the exit. She held the speed at forty for a full minute, then she eased up on the accelerator again, her leg trembling with the effort to make each change undetectable. The car slowed to thirty-five miles an hour, and Julie reached out and turned the radio a little louder to compensate for what seemed like a quieter atmosphere inside the car.
The rest area was still a quarter mile away, shielded from view of the highway by a stand of pine trees, when Julie reduced her speed to thirty and turned the steering wheel a fraction of an inch at a time to begin angling off the highway. Uttering a disjointed prayer that sheβd find trucks there, she held her breath as she drove around the trees, then expelled it in a silent rush of gratitude and relief. Up ahead, three trucks were parked across from the small building that housed the rest rooms, and although there was no one moving about in the early dawn, she thought she could hear one of the diesel engines running. Her heart racing like a trip hammer, she ignored the temptation to make her move now. To maximize her chances, she needed to be directly beside the trucks, so that she could reach the door of one before Benedict could catch her.
Fifteen yards behind the first truck, Julie was absolutely certain she heard the engine, and her toe angled stealthily toward the brake, all her other senses so focused on the cab of the truck that she yelped in shock when Zachary Benedict suddenly sat up. βWhere the hellββ he began, but Julie didnβt give him a chance to finish. Slamming on the brake, she grabbed the door handle and flung open the door, throwing herself out of the moving car, landing on her side in the snowy ruts. In a blur of pain and terror she saw the Blazerβs rear tire roll past, missing her hand by inches before the car lurched to a jarring stop. βHELP ME!β she screamed, scrambling to her knees, her feet sliding as they fought for traction in the slush and snow. βHELP ME!β
She was on her feet, running toward the cab of the closest truck when Zachary Benedict exploded from the Blazer, cutting around the rear of it and running straight toward her, blocking her path to help. Julie changed direction to avoid him, βPLEASE SOMEONE,β she screamed, cutting across the snow in an effort to make it into the rest room and lock the door. Off to her left, she saw a truck door being flung open and a driver stepping down, frowning at the commotion; close behind her she heard Benedictβs feetΒ pounding into the snow. βHELP ME!β she yelled at the driver, and she glanced over her shoulder just in time to see Zachary Benedict scoop up a handful of snow.
A snowball hit her hard in the shoulder and she screamed as she ran, βββSTOP HIM! Heβsββ
Zachary Benedictβs laughing shout a few feet behind her drowned out her words: βCUT IT OUT, Julie,β he yelled at the same time he launched himself at her in a running tackle. βYOUβRE WAKING EVERYONE UP!β
Trying to drag in enough air to scream again, Julie twisted, landing underneath his sprawled body in the snow, the breath knocked out of her, her terrified blue eyes only inches from his enraged ones, his teeth clenched into a fake smile designed to fool the truck driver. Panting, Julie jerked her head aside to scream, just as he smashed a handful of wet snow onto her face. Choking and blinded, she heard his savage whisper as he caught her wrists and yanked them above her head. βIβll kill him if he comes any closer,β he bit out, tightening his grip on her hands. βDamn you, is that what you want! Does someone have to die for you?β
Julie whimpered, unable to speak, and shook her head, her eyes clenched shut, unable to bear the sight of her captor, unable to endure knowing sheβd come within a few feet of freedom, and all for nothing, for thisβto end up on her back in the snow with his body crushing her, her hip throbbing from her deliberate fall from the Blazer. She heard his swift intake of breath, the furious urgency. βHeβs walking over here. Kiss me and make it look good, or heβs dead!β
Before she could react, his mouth crushed down on hers. Julieβs eyes flew open, her gaze riveting on the truck driver who was cautiously walking toward them, frowning as he tried to peer at their faces. βGoddammit, put your arms around me!β
His mouth was imprisoning hers, the gun in his pocket was jabbing into her stomach, but her wrists were free now. She could struggle, and very possibly, the truck driver withΒ the jovial face beneath a black cap that said PETE on it would see that something was very wrong and come to her rescue.
And he would die.
Benedict had ordered her to put her arms around him and βmake it look good.β Like a puppet, Julie moved her leaden wrists from the snow and let them drop limply onto his shoulders, but she could not make herself do more than that.
~
Zack tasted her stiff lips beneath his; he felt her body, rigid as stone beneath his weight, and he assumed that she was trying to gather her strength for the next moment when she, with the help of three truck drivers, would put an end to his brief freedom and his life. From the corner of his eye, he saw the driver slow down, but he was still coming toward them, and his expression was growing increasingly cautious and skeptical. All this and more raced through Zackβs mind in the space of the three seconds they lay there, pretending βunconvincinglyβto kiss.
In a last helpless effort to stop the inevitable from happening to him, Zack dragged his mouth to her ear and whispered a single word he hadnβt let himself use in years:Β βPlease!βΒ Tightening his arms around the rigid woman, he said it again with a groaning urgency he couldnβt suppress.Β βPlease,Β JulieΒ .Β .Β .β
Feeling as if the world had suddenly gone insane, Julie heard the plea wrench from her captor as if it were torn from his chest a moment before his lips seized hers and he said in a tormented whisper, βI didnβt kill anyone, I swear it.β The pleading and desperation sheβd heard in his voice were eloquently alive in this kiss, and it accomplished what his threats and anger could not: It made Julie hesitate and waver; it made her believe that what she heard in his voice was truth.
Dazed by the confusing messages racing through her brain, she sacrificed her immediate future for the safety of a truck driver. Driven by the need to spare the manβs life and by something less sensible and completely inexplicable, Julie blinked back tears of futility, slid her hands tentatively over Zachary Benedictβs shoulders, and yielded to his kiss. The moment she did, he sensed her capitulation; a shudder ran through him and his lips gentled. Unaware of the footsteps crunching to a stop in the snow, Julie let him part her lips and of their own volition, her fingers curved around his neck, sliding into the soft, thick hair at his nape. She felt his swift, indrawn breath when she tentatively returned the kiss, and suddenly everything began to change. He was kissing her in earnest now, his hands shifting, sliding over her shoulders, and then burying in her wet hair, lifting her face closer to his hungry, searching mouth.
Somewhere far above her, a manβs bewildered Texas drawl called out, βLady, you need help or not?β
Julie heard him, and she tried to shake her head, but the mouth that was slanting fiercely over hers now had robbed her of the ability to speak. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she knew this was only a performance for the driverβs benefit; she knew it as clearly as she knew she had no choice but to participate in the performance. But if that was true, then why couldnβt she at least shake her head or open her eyes.
βI guess you donβt,β the Texas drawl said on a lewd chuckle. βHow βbout you, mister? You need any help with what youβre doinβ? I could spell you for a bit down thereΒ .Β .Β .β
Zackβs head lifted just enough to break contact with her mouth, his words husky and soft. βFind your own woman,β he joked with the driver. βThis one is mine.β The last word was breathed against Julieβs lips before his mouth touched hers, his arms sweeping around her, his tongue sliding tentatively across her lips, urging them to part, his hips hard and demanding against hers. With a silent moan of surrender, Julie gave herself up to what became the hottest, sexiest, most insistent kiss sheβd ever tasted.
Fifty yards away, a truck door opened and a new male voice called, βHey, Pete, whatβs goinβ on over yonder in the snow?β
βHell, man, what does it look like? A couple of grown-ups is playinβ at beinβ kids, having snowball fights and neckinβ in the snow.β
βLooks to me like theyβre goinβ to beΒ makinβΒ a kid if they donβt slow down.β
Perhaps it was the new male voice or the sudden realization that her captor was becoming physically aroused that snapped Julie into reality or perhaps it was the slamming of the truck door followed by the roar of an engine as the big semi began to pull away from the rest area. Whatever the cause, she put her hands against his shoulders and exerted pressure, but it took an unnatural effort for her to move, and her shove was puny at best. Panicked by her inexplicable lethargy, Julie shoved harder. βStop it!β she cried softly. βStop it. Heβs gone!β
Stunned by the sound of tears in her voice, Zack lifted his head, staring at her dewy skin and soft mouth with a hunger that he was finding difficult to control. The exquisite sweetness of her surrender, the way she felt in his arms, and the gentleness of her touch almost made the notion of making love in the snow at dawn seem plausible. Slowly, he looked around at where they were and reluctantly levered himself up off her. He didnβt completely understand why sheβd decided not to warn the truck driver, but whatever her reasons, he owed her more than an attempted rape in the snow as repayment. Silently, he held his hand out to her, suppressing a smile when the same woman whoβd melted in his arms a moment ago rallied her defenses, pointedly ignored his gesture, and shoved herself up and out of the snow. βIβm soaking wet,β she complained, scrupulously avoiding his gaze and swatting at her hair, βand covered with snow.β
Automatically, Zack reached out to brush the snow off her, but she jumped out of his reach, avoiding his touch as she brushed off her arms and the back of her jeans.
βDonβt think you can touch me just because of what happened just now!β she warned him, but Zack was preoccupied with admiration for the results of their kiss: HerΒ huge, dark-lashed eyes were lustrous, her porcelain skin tinted with roses at the high cheekbones. When flustered and a little aroused, as she was now, Julie Mathison was absolutely breathtaking. She was also courageous and very kind, for although heβd not been able to subdue her with threats or cruelty, sheβd somehow responded to the desperation in his plea.
βThe only reason I let you kiss me was because I realized you were rightβthereβs no need for anyone to get killed just because Iβm scared. Now, letβs get going and get this ordeal over with.β
Zack sighed. βI gather from that sour tone of yours that weβre adversaries again, Ms. Mathison?β
βOf course we are,β she replied. βIβll take you wherever youβre going without any more tricks, but letβs get one thing straight: As soon as I get you there, Iβll be free to leave, right?β
βRight,β Zack lied.
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Leigh Kendall is relishing her stellar Broadway acting career in her marriage to Logan Manning, scion of an old New York family, when her husband finds the perfect mountain property for their dream house. But while driving upstate on a winterβs night, Leigh is run off the road in the midst of a blinding blizzard. When she awakes in the local hospital, seriously injured, the police inform her that her husband has mysteriously disappeared, and Leigh becomes the focus of their suspicions. The more she discovers about her husband and his business affairs, the less she realizes she knew about Logan Manning. Now, Leigh is heading deeper and deeper into unknown territoryβwhere friends and enemies are impossible to distinguish, and the truth becomes the most terrifying weapon of all in this thrilling tale filled with unrelenting suspense, unforgettable characters, and powerful traces of greed, ambition, and desire.
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β¦Chapters 2 – 4
Bravo! Bravo!β Six curtain calls and the applause was still at a deafening roar. The cast was lined up onstage, taking their bows one at a time, but when Leigh stepped forward, the cheers rose to a wild crescendo. The houselights were up, and Leigh could see Logan in the front row, on his feet, clapping and cheering with enthusiastic pride. She smiled at him, and he gave her a thumbs-up.
When the curtains closed, she walked to the wings where Jason was standing, his face beaming with triumph. βWeβre a smash hit, Jason!β she said, giving him a hug.
βLetβs take another bow, just you and me this time,β he said.
Jason would have taken curtain calls all night until the last theatergoer left his seat. βNope,β Leigh said with a grin. βWeβve both taken enough bows.β
He tugged on her hand, a happy thirty-five-year-old childβbrilliant, insecure, sensitive, selfish, loyal, temperamental, kind. βCβmon, Leigh,β he cajoled. βJust one moreΒ little bow. We deserve it.β The crowd began chanting, βAuthor! Author!β and his grin widened. βThey really want to see me again.β
He was in an ecstatic mood, and Leigh looked at him with a mixture of maternal understanding and awe. Jason Solomon could dazzle her at times with his intellect, hurt her with his insensitivity, and warm her with his gentleness. Those who didnβt know him thought of him as a glamorous eccentric. Those who knew him better generally regarded Jason as a brilliant, irritating egocentric. To Leigh, who knew him, and loved him, he was a complete dichotomy.
βListen to that applause,β he said, tugging on her hand. βLetβs go out thereΒ .Β .Β .β
Helpless to resist him in this mood, Leigh relented, but stepped back. βGo for it,β she said. βIβll stay here.β
Instead of releasing her hand, he tightened his grip and dragged her with him. She was off balance when they emerged from the wings, and her surprised resistance was plain to see. The moment of unplanned confusion struck the crowd as wonderful. It made the two biggest names on Broadway seem endearingly human, and the riotous applause was joined with shouts of laughter.
Jason would have tried to coax her into taking yet another bow after that one, but Leigh freed her hand this time and turned away, laughing. βDonβt forget the old adageββ she reminded him over her shoulder, βAlways leave them wanting more.β
βThatβs a clichΓ©,β he retorted indignantly.
βBut true, nonetheless.β
He hesitated a moment, then followed her backstage, down a hallway crowded with elated cast and busy crew members, who were all trying to congratulate and thank each other. Jason and Leigh stopped several times to participate in the congratulatory hugging.
βIΒ told you the twenty-eighth was always my lucky day.β
βYou were right,β Leigh agreed. Jason insisted on opening all his plays on the twenty-eighth includingΒ Blind Spot,Β even though as a general rule, Broadway plays did not open on Saturdays.
βI feel like champagne,β Jason announced as they finally neared Leighβs dressing room.
βSo do I, but I need to change clothes and get this makeup off right away. We have a party to attend, and Iβd like to get there before midnight.β
A theater critic was congratulating the playβs director, and Jason watched him closely for a moment. βNo one will mind if weβre late.β
βJason,β Leigh reminded him with amused patience, βIβm the guest of honor. I should make an effort to get there before the party is over.β
βI suppose so,β he agreed, dragging his gaze from the critic. He followed her into her flower-filled dressing room, where the dresser was waiting to help Leigh out of the cheap cotton skirt and blouse sheβd been wearing in the last act.
βWho are these from?β Jason asked, strolling over to a gigantic basket of huge white orchids. βThey must have cost a fortune.β
Leigh glanced at the immense bouquet. βI donβt know.β
βThereβs a card attached,β Jason said, already reaching for the floristβs envelope. βShall I read it?β
βCould I stop you?β Leigh joked. Jasonβs nosiness was legendary. Behind the folding screen, Leigh stepped out of her clothes and into a robe; then she hurried over to her dressing table and sat down in front of the big lighted mirror.
With the open envelope in his hand, Jason caught her gaze in the mirror and gave her a sly smile. βYouβve evidently acquired a serious suitor with big bucks. Come clean, darling, who is he? You know you can trust me with your sordid secrets.β
His last sentence made Leigh laugh. βYouβve never kept a secret in your life, sordid or otherwise,β she told his reflection in the mirror.
βTrue, but tell me who he is, anyway.β
βWhat does the card say?β
Instead of telling her, Jason handed it to her so she could read it herself. βLOVE ME,β it said. Leighβs brief frown of confusion gave way to a smile as she put down the card and began removing her stage makeup. βItβs from Logan,β she told him.
βWhy would your husband send you one thousand dollarsβ worth of orchids with a card asking you to love him?β
Before replying, Leigh finished spreading cream over her face and began wiping off her makeup with tissues. βWhen Logan told the florist what to write on the card, the florist obviously misunderstood and forgot to put a comma after the word βlove.β It should have read, βLove comma Me.βββ
A bottle of Dom PΓ©rignon was chilling in a bucket, and Jason spotted it. βWhy would Logan call himself βmeβ instead of calling himself βLoganβ?β he asked as he lifted the bottle from its icy nest and began unpeeling the black foil from the bottleβs neck.
βThatβs probably my fault,β she admitted with a quick, rueful glance at him. βThe Crescent Plaza project has been consuming Logan for months, and I asked him to relax a little. Heβs trying to be more playful and spontaneous for my sake.β
Jason gaped at her in laughing derision. βLogan? Spontaneous and playful? You canβt be serious.β He poured champagne into two flutes and put one on the dressing table for her; then he settled himself onto the little sofa at her left, propped his legs on the coffee table, and crossed his feet at the ankles. βIn case you havenβt noticed, your husband thinks a five-star restaurant is just a badly lit conference room with forks. He thinks a briefcase is an indispensable fashion accessory, and he depreciates his golf clubs.β
βStop picking on Logan,β she told him. βHeβs a brilliant businessman.β
βHeβs a brilliantΒ bore,β Jason retorted, clearly enjoying the rare opportunity to joke about someone he actually admired and even envied. βIf you wanted playfulness and spontaneity in a man, you should have had an affair withΒ me instead of turning to this orchid guy for those traits.β
She flashed him an amused, affectionate look and ignored his reference to the orchids. βYouβre gay, Jason.β
βWell, yes,β he agreed with a grin. βI suppose that could have been an impediment to our affair.β
βHowβs Eric?β Leigh asked, deliberately changing the subject. Eric had been Jasonβs βsignificant otherβ for over six monthsβwhich almost set a longevity record where Jason was concerned. βI didnβt see him out front tonight.β
βHe was there,β Jason said indifferently. He shifted his foot from side to side, studying his shiny black tuxedo loafers. βEric is becoming a bit of a bore, too, to tell you the truth.β
βYou are very easily bored,β Leigh said with a knowing look.
βYouβre right.β
βIf you want my opinionββ
βWhich, of course, I donβt,β Jason interrupted.
βAnd which, of course, Iβm going to give anywayβIf you want my opinion, maybe you should try to find someone who isnβt so much like you that he seems predictable and boring. Try going with someone who depreciates his golf clubs for a change.β
βSomeone who is so gorgeous that I could overlook his boring traits? As a matter of fact, I do know someone like that!β
He was being so agreeable that Leigh shot him a suspicious look before she tossed a tissue into the wastebasket and began putting on her regular makeup. βYou do?β
βYes, indeed,β Jason said with a wicked grin. βHe has thick light brown hair streaked blond from the summer sun, beautiful eyes, and a great physique. Heβs a little too preppy-looking for my tastes, but heβs thirty-five, and thatβs a good age for me. Heβs from an old aristocratic New York family that ran out of money long before he was born, so it was up to him to restore the family fortune, which heβs managed to do single-handedlyΒ .Β .Β .β
Leigh finally realized he was describing Logan, and her shoulders began to shake with laughter. βYouβre a lunatic.β
Jasonβs short attention span led him from romance to business without a pause between. βWhat a night!β he sighed, leaning his head back against the sofa. βI was right to change your lines in the last scene of the second act. Did you notice how strongly the audience reacted? One minute everyone was laughing; then they realized what you were actually going to do and they ended up crying. In the space of a few lines, they went from mirth to tears. Now that, my darling, is brilliant writingβand brilliant acting, of course.β He paused for a sip of champagne and, after a moment of thoughtful silence, added, βAfter I see the matinee tomorrow, I may want to change a little of the dialogue between you and Jane in the third act. I havenβt decided.β
Leigh said nothing as she quickly applied the rest of her makeup, brushed her hair, and then disappeared behind the screen to change into the dress sheβd brought to the theater. Outside the dressing room, the noise level had risen dramatically as actors, crew members, and peopleΒ with enough influence to obtain backstage passes all began leaving the theater by the rear door, laughing and talking as they headed off to celebrate the nightβs triumph with friends and families. Ordinarily, Jason and she would be doing the same thing, but today was Leighβs thirty-fifth birthday, and Logan was determined that it not take second place to the playβs opening night.
She emerged from behind the screen wearing a deceptively simple red silk sheath with tiny beaded straps at the shoulders, matching high heels, and a jeweled Judith Leiber evening bag that dangled from her fingers by a narrow chain.
βRed?β Jason said, grinning as he slowly stood up. βIβve never seen you wear red before.β
βLogan specifically asked me to wear something red to the party tonight.β
βReally, why?β
βProbably because heβs being playful,β Leigh said smugly; then uncertainty replaced her jaunty expression. βDo I look all right in this?β
Jason passed a slow, appraising glance over her gleaming, shoulder-length auburn hair, large aquamarine eyes, and high cheekbones; then he let it drop to her narrow waist, and down her long legs. She was pretty, but certainly not gorgeous, and not even beautiful, he observed. And yet in a roomful of women who were, Leigh Kendall would have drawn notice and attracted attention the moment she moved or spoke. In an attempt to define her powerful presence onstage, critics likened her to a young Katharine Hepburn or a young Ethel Barrymore, but Jason knew they were wrong. Onstage, she had Hepburnβs incomparable glow and she had Barrymoreβs legendary depth, but she had something else, too, something infinitely more appealing and uniquely her ownβa mesmerizingΒ charisma that was as potent when she was standing in her dressing room, waiting for his opinion about her attire, as when she was onstage. She was the most even tempered, cooperative actress heβd ever known; and yet there was a mystery about her, a barrier, that no one was allowed to cross. She took her work seriously, but she did not take herself seriously, and at times her humility and sense of humor made him feel like a towering, temperamental egotist.
βIβm starting to wish I had a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt on,β she joked, reminding him that she was waiting for an opinion.
βOkay,β he said, βhere it isβthe unvarnished truth: Although you arenβt nearly as gorgeous as your husband, you are remarkably attractive for a woman.β
βIn the unlikely event that that was meant to be a big compliment,β Leigh said, laughing as she opened the closet door and removed her coat, βthanks a lot.β
Jason was truly stunned by her lack of perspective. βOf course it was a compliment, Leigh, but why would you care how you look right now? What matters is that an hour ago, you convinced four hundred people that you are actually a thirty-year-old blind woman who unknowingly holds the key to solving an unspeakable murder. You had every member of that audience squirming in his seat with terror!β Jason threw up his hands in bewildered disgust. βMy God, why would a woman who can do all that give a damn how she looks in a cocktail dress?β
Leigh opened her mouth to reply; then she smiled and shook her head. βItβs a girl thing,β she said dryly, glancing at her watch.
βI see.β He swept the dressing room door open and stepped aside in an exaggerated gesture of gallantry. βAfter you,β he said; then he offered her his arm and she took it,Β but as they started down the back hall, he sobered. βWhen we get to the party, Iβm going to ask Logan if he sent you those orchids.β
βIβd rather you didnβt worry yourself or Logan about that tonight,β Leigh said, keeping her tone light. βEven if Logan didnβt send them, it doesnβt really matter. Weβve taken precautionsβI have a chauffeur-bodyguard now. Matt and Meredith Farrell lent him to me for six months while theyβre away. Heβs like a member of their family when theyβre home in Chicago. Iβm very well protected.β
Despite Leighβs reassuring words, she couldnβt completely suppress a tremor of anxiety about the orchids. Recently, sheβd received some anonymous gifts, all of them expensive and several with blatant sexual overtones, like a black lace garter belt and bra from Neiman Marcus and a sheer, extremely seductive nightgown from Bergdorf Goodman. The small, white cards that accompanied the gifts bore short, cryptic messages like, βWear this for meβ and βI want to see you in this.β
Sheβd received a phone call at home the day after the first gift was delivered to the theater. βAre you wearing your present, Leigh?β a manβs soft, cajoling voice had asked on the answering machine.
Last week, Leigh had visited Saks, where sheβd purchased a robe for Logan and a little enamel pin for herself, which sheβd tucked into her coat pocket. She had been about to step off the curb at Fifth and Fifty-first Street with a crowd of other pedestrians when a manβs hand reached forward from behind her, holding a small Saks bag. βYou dropped this,β he said politely. Startled, Leigh automatically took the bag and dropped it into the larger one containing Loganβs robe, but when she looked around to thank him, either heβd retreated farther back into the crowd of pedestrians or he was the man she saw walking swiftlyΒ down the street, his overcoat turned up to his ears, head bent against the wind.
When she got home with her purchases, Leigh realized her own small bag from Saks was still in her coat pocket, where sheβd originally put it. The bag the man had handed her on the street contained a narrow silver band, like a wedding ring. The card said βYouβre mine.β
Despite all that, she was certain the orchids in her dressing room were from Logan. He knew they were her favorite flower.
IN THE ALLEY BEHIND THEΒ theater, Leighβs new chauffeur-bodyguard was standing beside the open door of a limousine. βThe show was a big hit, Mrs. Manning, and you were terrific!β
βThank you, Joe.β
Jason settled into the luxurious automobile and nodded with satisfaction. βEveryone should have his very own bodyguard-chauffeur.β
βYou may not think so a moment from now,β Leigh warned him with a rueful smile as the chauffeur slid behind the steering wheel and put the car into gear. βHe drives like aββ The car suddenly rocketed forward, throwing them back against their seats and barging into heavy oncoming traffic.
βManiac!βΒ Jason swore, grabbing for the armrest with one hand and Leighβs wrist with the other.
Leigh and Loganβs apartment occupied the entire twenty-fourth floor. It had a private elevator lobby that functioned as an exterior βfoyerβ for their apartment, and Leigh inserted her key into the elevator lock so that the doors would open on her floor.
As soon as the elevator opened, the sounds of a large party in full swing greeted them from beyond her apartmentβs front door. βSounds like a good party,β Jason remarked, helping her out of her coat and handing it to Leighβs housekeeper, who materialized in the outer foyer to take their coats. βHappy birthday, Mrs. Manning,β Hilda said.
βThank you, Hilda.β
Together, Jason and Leigh stepped into the apartment onto a raised marble foyer that offered a clear view of rooms overflowing with animated, elegantly dressed, beautiful people who were laughing, drinking, and nibbling canapΓ©s from trays being passed around by a battalion of waiters in dinner jackets. Jason instantly spotted people he knew and headed down the steps, but Leigh remainedΒ where she was, struck suddenly by the beauty of the setting, its portrayal of the success and prosperity that Logan and she had achieved together in their individual careers. Someone spotted her then and started a loud chorus of βHappy Birthday to You!β
Logan arrived at her side with a drink that he placed in her hand and a kiss that he placed on her mouth. βYou were fantastic tonight. Happy birthday, darling,β he said. While their guests watched, he reached into his tuxedo jacket pocket and produced a Tiffany box tied with silk ribbon. βGo ahead and open it,β he prodded.
Leigh looked at him uncertainly. βNow?β Normally Logan preferred privacy for sentimental moments, but he was in a boyishly carefree mood tonight.
βNow,β he agreed, his eyes smiling into hers. βAbsolutely, now.β
It was either a ring or earrings, Leigh guessed, judging from the size and shape of the cream leather box that slid out of the robinβs egg blue outer box. Inside was a spectacular ruby-and-diamond pendant in the shape of a heart. Now she understood why heβd wanted her to wear something red. βItβs magnificent,β she said, incredibly touched that he had spent so much money on her. No matter how much money Logan made, he felt almost guilty about spending it on anything that wasnβt likely to become a profit-making asset or at least a tax deduction.
βIβll help you fasten the chain,β he said, lifting the glittering pendant from its case. βTurn around.β When he finished, he turned her back around so that their guests could see the magnificent pendant, lying just below her throat. The gift earned a round of applause and cries of approval.
βThank you,β Leigh said softly, her eyes shining.
He looped his arm around her shoulders and laughingly said, βIβll expect a more appropriate thank-you later, when weβreΒ alone. That bauble cost two hundred and fifty thousand dollars.β
Stunned and amused, Leigh whispered back, βIβm not sure I know how to express a quarter of a million dollarsβ worth of gratitude.β
βIt wonβt be easy, but Iβll make some helpful suggestions and recommendations, later tonight.β
βIβd appreciate that,β she teased, watching his gaze turn warm and sexy.
He sighed and put his hand under her elbow, guiding her down the marble steps to the living room. βUnfortunately, before we can take care of that very important matter, we have a few hours of obligatory socializing to perform.β On the bottom step, he paused and looked around. βThereβs someone here I want you to meet.β
As they wended their way slowly through the noisy, crowded rooms, greeting their guests, Leigh was struck anew by the almost comic contrast between Loganβs friends and business acquaintances and her own. Most of Loganβs friends were members of New Yorkβs oldest and most influential families; they were bankers and philanthropists, judges and senators, all of them with βoldβ money. Quiet money. They were expensively but conservatively attired and impeccably behaved, with wives who matched them perfectly.
In comparison to them, Leighβs friends seemed absolutely flamboyant; they were artists, actors, musicians, and writersβpeople who equated βfitting inβ with being overlooked, and that was anathema to them. The two groups didnβt avoid each other, but neither did they mingle. While Leighβs friend Theta Berenson expounded on the merits of a new art exhibit to her group, the huge yellow feathers on her hat continually brushed against the ear of the investment banker behind her. The banker, who was aΒ friend of Loganβs, irritably brushed the feathers aside while he continued discussing a new strategy for portfolio reallocations with Sheila Winters, a highly respected therapist. Leigh and Logan had met with Sheila a few times to smooth out conflicts in their relationship a couple of years earlier; in the intervening time she had become a dear friend. When she looked over for a moment and saw Leigh, she blew a kiss and waved.
Although Logan and Leigh stopped frequently to chat with their guests, Logan didnβt allow his wife to linger long. He was searching for whoever it was that he wanted her to meet. βThere he is, over there,β Logan said finally, and immediately began guiding Leigh toward a tall, dark-haired man who was standing completely by himself at the far end of the living room, looking at an oil painting that was hanging on the wall. His bored expression and aloof stance made it very obvious he wasnβt interested in the artwork, or in the party, for that matter.
Leigh recognized him at once, but his presence in her home was so unlikely that she couldnβt believe her eyes. She stopped short, staring at Logan in horrified disbelief. βThat canβt be who I think it is!β
βWho do you think it is?β
βI think itβs Michael Valente.β
βYouβre right.β He urged her forward, but Leigh was rooted to the floor, staring at Valente, aghast. βHe wants to meet you, Leigh. Heβs a big fan of yours.β
βWho let him in here?β
βI invited him,β Logan explained patiently. βI havenβt mentioned him to you before, because the deal isnβt finalized, but Valente is considering putting upΒ all the venture capital for the entire Crescent Plaza project. Iβve had several meetings with him. He has a genius for putting together highly lucrative business deals.β
βAnd for avoiding prosecution afterward,β Leigh retorted darkly. βLogan, heβs a criminal!β
βHeβs only beenΒ convictedΒ of wrongdoing once,β Logan said, chuckling at her indignant reaction. βNow heβs a respectable billionaire with an incredible track record for turning risky commercial projects, like Crescent Plaza, into wildly successful ones that make a fortune for everyone.β
βHeβs a felon!β
βThat was a long time ago, and it was probably a bum rap.
βNo it wasnβt! I read that he pleaded guilty.β
Instead of being annoyed, Logan gazed at her mutinous expression with amused admiration. βHow have you done it?β
βDone what?β
βMaintained the same rigid, wonderful values you had when we first met?β
βββRigidβ doesnβt sound like a good thing to me.β
βOn you,β he said softly, βββrigidβ is a wonderful thing.β
Leigh scarcely heard that as she looked around the room. She spotted Judge Maxwell and Senator Hollenbeck, who were standing against the wall behind the buffetβas far as they could physically get from where Valente was standing. βLogan, there isnβt a man in this house with a reputation to safeguard who is anywhere near Michael Valente. Theyβve gotten as far away from him as they can.β
βMaxwell is no saint, and Hollenbeckβs closets have barely enough room for all his skeletons,β Logan said emphatically, but as he looked around, he reached the same conclusion that Leigh had reached. βIt probably wasnβt wise to invite Valente.β
βWhat made you do it?β
βIt was an impulse. I phoned him this afternoon to discuss some contractual details for Crescent Plaza, and I mentionedΒ that your play was opening tonight and we were having a party afterward. He mentioned the play, and he said he was a big fan of yours. I knew there wasnβt a seat to be had in the theater tonight, so I compromised and invited him to the party instead. I had so many things going on I didnβt stop to consider that his being here might be awkward, particularly for Sanders and Murray. Will you do me a favor, darling?β
βYes, of course,β Leigh replied, relieved that Logan was at least acknowledging the problem.
βIβve already spoken with Valente tonight. If you donβt mind introducing yourself to him, Iβll go over and soothe Sandersβs and Murrayβs offended sensibilities. Valente drinks Glenlivetβno ice, no water. See that he gets a fresh drink, and play hostess for a few minutes. Thatβs all you have to do.β
βAnd then what? Leave him there by himself? Who can I possibly introduce him to?β
Loganβs dry sense of humor made his eyes gleam as he glanced around the room, looking for possible candidates. βThatβs easy. Introduce your friend Claire Straight to him; sheβll tell anyone whoβll listen about her divorce. Jason and Eric already look ready to strangle her.β At that moment, Claire, Jason, and Eric all looked up, and Logan and Leigh waved to them. βClaireββ Logan called, βdonβt forget to tell Jason and Eric all about your lawyer and how he sold you out. Ask them if you should sue him for malpractice.β
βYou are an evil man,β Leigh said with a giggle.
βThatβs why you love me,β Logan replied. βItβs too bad that Valente isnβt gay,β he joked. βIf he was, you could fix him up with Jason. That way, Jason would end up with a loverΒ andΒ a permanent backer for all his plays. Of course, that would make Eric jealous and even more suicidal than usual, so thatβs probably not a good idea.β He resumed hisΒ thoughtful surveillance of their guests until Thetaβs yellow-feathered hat captured his notice. βI suppose we could introduce him to Theta. Sheβs ugly as sin, but Valente has a fabulous art collection, and sheβs an artistβallegedly.β
βHer last canvas just sold for one hundred seventy-five thousand dollars. Thereβs nothing βallegedβ about that.β
βLeigh, she painted that thing with her elbows and a floor mop.β
βShe did not.β
Logan was laughing in earnest, and he covered it by lifting his glass to his mouth. βYes, she did, darling. She told me so.β Suddenly his delighted gaze shifted to an attractive blonde standing with the same group. βThe Valente problem is solved. Letβs introduce him to your friend Sybil Haywood. She can tell his fortuneββ
βSybil is an astrologer, not a fortune-teller,β Leigh put in firmly.
βWhatβs the difference?β
βThat depends on whom you ask,β Leigh said, feeling a little put out with Loganβs blanket joking dismissal of her friends, and Sybil in particular. Leigh paused to nod and smile graciously at two couples nearby; then she added, βSybil has many famous clients, including Nancy Reagan. Regardless of whether you believe in astrology, Sybil is as committed to her field and her clients as you are to yours.β
Logan was instantly contrite. βIβm sure she is. And thank you for not pointing out that my friends and I are as boring as dust, and our conversations are predictable and tedious. Now, do you think Sybil would take Valente off our hands as a favor and spend a little time with him tonight?β
βShe will if I ask her to,β Leigh said, already deciding that the plan was a viable one.
Satisfied that a compromise had been worked out, Logan gave her shoulders a light hug. βDonβt stay away fromΒ me too long. This is your big night, but Iβd like to be as much a part of it as I can.β
It was such an openly sentimental thing to say that Leigh instantly forgave him for joking about her friends and even for inviting Valente. As Logan brushed a kiss on her cheek and left, Leigh glanced in Valenteβs direction and discovered he was no longer looking at the painting. He had turned and had been staring directly at them. She wondered uneasily how much of their debate he had witnessed and if heβd guessed that he was the cause of it. It wouldnβt have taken much imagination on his part, Leigh decided. She suspected that whenever Valente managed to intrude on respectable social gatherings, most hostesses probably reacted with the same resentment and reluctance that Leigh felt right now.
Hastily smoothing the expression of distaste from her face, Leigh moved sideways through the crush of guests until she reached Sybil Haywoodβs group. βSybil, I need a favor,β she said, drawing the astrologer aside. βI have an awkward social problemββ
βYou certainly do,β Sybil agreed with a knowing grin. βVirgos can be very difficult to deal with, especially when Pluto and Mars areββ
βNo, no. Itβs not an astrological problem. I need someone I can trust who can deal with a particular manββ
βWho happens to be a Virgoββ Sybil stated positively.
Leigh adored Sybil, but at the moment, the astrologerβs fixation on astrology was driving her crazy. βSybil, please. I have no idea what his astrological sign is. If youβll take him off my hands and chat with him for a few minutes, you can ask him yourββ
βValente is a Virgo,β Sybil interjected patiently.
Leigh blinked at her. βHow did you know?β
βI know, because when the Senate was investigatingΒ him last September Valente was asked to give his full name and date of birth. TheΒ TimesΒ reported on his testimony, and the reporter noted that Valente was actually testifying on his forty-third birthday. That told me he was a Virgo.β
βNo, I mean how did you know that Valente is my βawkward social problem?β
βOh, that,β Sybil said with a laugh as she passed a slow, meaningful glance over all the other guests within view. βHe does stand out in this crowd of politicians, bankers, and business leaders. Thereβs not another criminal in the entire place for him to socialize withβActually there are probably a lot of criminals here, but they havenβt been caught and sent to prison like he was.β
βYou could be right,β Leigh said absently. βIβm going to introduce myself to him. Would you get him a drink and bring it over in a couple of minutes so I can escape gracefully?β
Sybil grinned. βYou want me to socialize with a tall, antisocial, semi handsome man who happens to have a murky past, a questionable present, and fifteen billion dollars in assets, probably all from ill-gotten gains? Is that it?β
βPretty much,β Leigh admitted ruefully.
βWhat shall I bring him to drink? Blood?β
βGlenlivet,β Leigh said, giving her a quick hug. βNo ice, no water, no blood.β
She watched Sybil begin working her way toward one of the bars, and with reluctant resignation, Leigh pasted a smile on her face and wended her way toward Valente. He studied her with detached curiosity as she approached, his expression so uninviting that Leigh doubted he was actually βa fanβ of hers or even that he particularly wanted to meet her. By the time she was close enough to hold out her hand to him, sheβd noted that he was at least six feet three inches tall with extremely wide, muscular shoulders, thick, black hair, and hard, piercing amber eyes.
Leigh held out her hand. βMr. Valente?β
βYes.β
βIβm Leigh Manning.β
He smiled a little at thatβa strange, speculative smile that didnβt quite reach his eyes. With his gaze locked onto hers, he took her hand in a clasp that was a little too tight and lasted a little too long. βHow do you do, Mrs. Manningββ he said in a rich baritone voice that was more cultured than Leigh had expected it to be.
Leigh exerted enough pressure to indicate she wanted her hand released and he let it go, but his unnerving gaze remained locked on hers as he said, βI enjoyed your performance very much tonight.β
βIβm surprised you were there,β Leigh said without thinking. Based on what she knew of him, he didnβt seem the type to enjoy a sensitive theatrical drama with a lot of subtleties.
βPerhaps you thought Iβd be knocking off a liquor store, instead?β
That was close enough to the truth to make Leigh feel exposed, and she didnβt like it. βIΒ meantΒ that opening night tickets were virtually impossible to get.β
His smile suddenly reached his eyes, warming them a little. βThatβs not what you meant, but itβs charming of you to say so.β
Leigh clutched at the first topic of common interest that came to mind. With an over bright smile, she said, βI understand youβre thinking of going into some sort of business venture with my husband.β
βYou donβt approve, of course,β he said dryly.
Leigh felt as if she were being maneuvered into a series of uncomfortable corners. βWhy would you think that?β
βI was watching you a few minutes ago when Logan told you I was here, and why Iβm here.β
Despite the manβs unsavory background, he was a guest in her home, and Leigh was a little mortified that sheβd let her negative feelings about him show so openly. Relying on the old adage that the best defense is a good offense, she said very firmly and politely, βYouβre a guest in my home, and Iβm an actress, Mr. Valente. If I had any negative feelings about any guest, including you, you would never know it because I would never let them show.β
βThatβs very reassuring,β he said mildly.
βYes, you were completely mistaken,β Leigh added, pleased with her strategy.
βDoes that mean youΒ donβtΒ disapprove of my business involvement with your husband?β
βI didnβt say that.β
To her shock, he smiled at her evasive reply, a slow, strangely seductive, secretive smile that made his eyes gleam beneath their heavy lids. Others might not have noticed the nuances of it, but Leighβs career was based on subtleties of expression, and she instantly sensed peril lurking behind that come-hither smile of his. It was the dangerously beguiling smile of a ruthless predator, a predator who wanted her to sense his power, his defiance of the social order, and to be seduced by what he represented. Instead, Leigh was repelled. She jerked her gaze from his, and gestured to the painting on the wall, a painting that Logan wouldnβt have let hang even in a closet under ordinary circumstances. βI noticed that you were admiring this painting earlier.β
βActually, I was admiring the frame, not the painting.β
βItβs early seventeenth century. It used to hang in Loganβs grandfatherβs study.β
βYou canβt be referring to that painting,β he said scornfully.
βI was referring to the frame. The painting,β she advised him with a twinge of amused vengeance, βwas actually done by my husbandβs grandmother.β
His gaze shifted sideways, from the painting to her face. βYou could have spared me that knowledge.β
He was right, but Sybilβs arrival saved Leigh from having to reply. βHereβs someone Iβd like you to meet,β she said a little too eagerly, and introduced the couple. βSybil is a famous astrologer,β Leigh added, and immediately resented his look of derision.
Undaunted by his reaction, Sybil smiled and held out her right hand, but he couldnβt shake it because she was holding a drink in it. βIβve been looking forward to meeting you,β she said.
βReally, why?β
βIβm not sure yet,β Sybil replied, extending her hand farther toward him. βThis drink is for you. Scotch. No ice. No water. Itβs what you drink.β
Eyeing her with cynical suspicion, he reluctantly took the drink. βAm I supposed to believe you know what I drink because youβre an astrologer?β
βWould you believe that if I said it was true?β
βNo.β
βIn that case, the truth is that I know what you drink because our hostess told me what you drink and asked me to get this for you.β
His gaze lost some of its chill as it transferred to Leigh. βThat was very thoughtful of you.β
βNot at all,β Leigh said, glancing over her shoulder, wishing she could leave. Sybil gave her the excuse she needed. βLogan asked me to tell you he needs you to settle some sort of debate about the play tonight.β
βIn that case, Iβd better go and see about it.β She smiled at Sybil, avoided shaking Valenteβs hand, and gave him a polite nod instead. βIβm glad to have met you,β she lied. As sheΒ walked away, she heard Sybil say, βLetβs find somewhere to sit down, Mr. Valente. You can tell me all about yourself. Or, if you prefer,Β IΒ can tell you all about yourself.β
IT WAS AFTER 4 A.M.Β when the last guest departed. Leigh turned out the lights, and they walked across the darkened living room together, Loganβs arm around her waist. βHow does it feel to be called βthe most gifted, multitalented actress to grace a Broadway stage in the last fifty yearsβ?β he asked softly.
βWonderful.β Leigh had been running on excitement until they walked into their bedroom, but at the sight of the big four-poster bed with its fluffy duvet, her body seemed to lose all its strength. She started yawning before she made it into her dressing room, and she was in bed before Logan was out of the shower.
She felt the mattress shift slightly as he got into bed, and all she managed to muster was a smile when he kissed her cheek and jokingly whispered, βIs this how you thank a man for a fabulous ruby-and-diamond pendant?β
Leigh snuggled closer and smiled, already half asleep. βYes,β she whispered.
He chuckled. βI guess Iβll have to wait until tonight in the mountains for you to properly express your gratitude.β
It seemed like only five minutes later when Leigh awoke to find Logan already dressed and eager to leave for the mountains.
That had been Sunday morning.
This was Tuesday night.
Logan was lost somewhere out in the snowΒ .Β .Β . probably waiting for Leigh to do something to rescue him.
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